Open my eyes, stare at the ceiling. Breathe deeply. I do not understand anything. I feel how ridiculous everything is going on around me. Why is everything so ridiculous and complicated? Since that day, when I wanted to be brave, when my sparkle faded, and I ran in the rain hoping to live, when I closed my eyes completely, and opened them in a capital far from my home. When I called a name that was not my name, and when I was free from my identity, since that day, everything seems deeper, more foolish, and more despicable than I thought. Am I a devil, or a fairy?
I looked beside me, hand in hand, and just like that, Tian Yang woke up, who looked worried, he grabbed my shoulder anxiously, "Shushin? Are you okay?"
I laughed and said to him, "What's wrong with you? I only slept for a day." But then I remembered that this time I did not touch her heart, so I am not sure who she was. Instead of entering into a dream, I entered into a hallucination, and I did not wake up when I came out of the dream, and it was not Even a dream. I did not go anywhere. Other than that palace.
I looked at him, "How long have I been asleep? Where did you find me? What day is it?"
He sighed and looked at the ground, "28 days, you were in a coma. Hong was worried about you so we came, but you were in a coma. We didn't know what the reason was. We are still in the City of Eternity, Shushin... Tell me what happened."
This makes sense. I got into a difficult situation. Any normal person would have died from the shifting energy. It entered my mind. Maybe it was the music? I don't know at all. I smiled at Tianyang. "Nothing happened, I must have just been a little tired."
He hesitated a little before speaking, "Is this... because of Ha Shin?"
I was surprised by his words, then I remembered that it was his wedding day, "Oh? Right. I fainted on his wedding day? I forgot."
He looked at me in confusion, "Did you forget?"
I nodded to him, "I was busy with a lot of things. I can't afford to keep myself busy with unnecessary things."
"Unimportant things.. even though you are tired. Sorry to say this, but.. our wedding.. is in two days..."
I nodded, "Okay.." Then I looked at him when I understood, "What? Wasn't it a month later?"
He looked into my eyes, "Yes, it's been a month."
"You said 28 days have passed, did you mean 28 years?"
He laughed and held my hand, "No. 28 days in human time, what's wrong with you? We didn't really mean a month, they said 30 days."
I smirked, "Oh.. yeah yeah.." Inside my mind I said, "I'm ruined.."
I have to discover some things... Where can I go to learn about things that happened thousands of years ago?
I pulled the blanket off me and got out of bed, "Sorry, I have to do some things!"
Tian Yang grabbed my wrist, "You're not okay. You can't go. I'll come with you."
I smiled at him, "It's okay, my heart was sick, not my body."
She let go of his hands and left
As usual, he does not dare to fight. He can fight the whole world, except her.
*******
(Lu residence)
I stood in front of the door. The library belonged to their place, since most of the Lu family were scholars or doctors. Etc.
Of course, since we are the rulers of the kingdom. We have a library of ordinary books, and all kinds of books, including the most luxurious ones. But the important documents are in the basement of Lu's, so I moved into the library, avoiding idle conversations. The truth is that others respect me out of their fear, not their respect.
I only came here a few times in my childhood, sometimes out of anger, and sometimes to belittle and annoy someone, but no matter how I felt, my desire to avoid outweighed any other feeling or any other action.
I walked around, the library was empty and looked deserted, who would even come here? They will definitely go to the library in the luxurious residence, xin, since they are not interested in knowledge but interests. No one cares about people who are already dead, even me honestly. But the reality makes me become an educated woman. In the end, I came to read books that would certainly rebuke me, and I would be grateful if I even found one of them. It would be strange if I lived in the shadows, and those people did not tell me anything while a trivial book wrote down the embarrassing details. I did not know where the basement was. But since the place was empty, I took my time walking around.
Until I passed by a book, it was in the middle of the books, it said, "Princesses of Tian Xia, Heavenly Kingdom."
I grabbed it and took it out of the books. That woman showed me a place that looked like the heavenly kingdom. Although I never went, I knew from the name that appeared, and since in my first life, when I met the dragons, I was a princess there.
I sat on the ground, leaning my body against the bookshelf, opened the book, and on the first page it was written, "Thousands of years ago, many things happened that affected the reputation of the people of Tian Xia and continued to influence them for centuries afterward. One of them was the marriage of a prince there to a woman from the Eternal City. Even though he is a holy immortal." I stopped reading and laughed, saying to myself, "This happened before me? So they were so cruel to me? Because their reputation was ruined?"
I shook my head and continued reading. "Shi Feng, longing to get closer to humans, on a visit to the Eternal City, met Xung Jing, who was a saint, and loved her very much. But he knew that this was unacceptable, she should not marry either, but they continued with their forbidden love, and yet Shi Feng did not give up his position in heaven, and benefited from his love and his position to the fullest, despite the lack of acceptance of the immortals and the Xung Jing clan, After a long relationship and a happy marriage, they gave birth to Xue Jing. A Phoenix That is deeply rooted in the mythology of our kingdom."
"Saint? Eternal City?" I thought in my mind
"The Scarlet Phoenix is a bird of legend and lore. Known for its vibrant, red feathers and powerful wings, this magnificent creature is a symbol of beauty, strength, and protection. As a Saint, this creature embodies the essence of kindness and purity. With its white hair flowing in the wind, it represents wisdom and knowledge, and with its blazing fire in its heart, it stands for love and passion. In the story, the Scarlet Phoenix is often described as a guardian angel that protects and guides those who are in need, and is a source of strength and light for those who seek it. It is mentioned that she is the only phoenix of this type that was born 70 thousand years ago, but due to many events, there is no information about her. Did she become an immortal phoenix, or did she give up her immortality? Or did she give up her identity?"
"So? Are you kidding me? She's a heavenly immortal and a phoenix and also a saint! It's said they're dragons, so why did they give me a phoenix? Is she even the one in the book? How could someone give me something so saintly? Would she really be abandoned by her clan? Even if! Isn't she supposed to be my sister?Why isn't there anything about me?" I sighed as I tried to flip through the page, but that was the last page. I threw the book on the ground and grumbled, "Damn... This only makes me more confused. At least I knew the identity and skills of one of my dragons. Since Qian Yu and Yun weren't born as dragons, I don't know. Even their skill, I don't know which dragons they were, and I never asked Tian Yang? I have to look for a book about me and the dragons!"
I got up and started looking through the books, until I heard a distant voice at the beginning of the shelf I was at, "What are you secretly doing in someone else's place?"
I bit my lip and whispered to myself, "Damn.. nothing has been going well since I woke up..."
She's a crazy witch, if I weren't, I'd avoid her with all my might. But luck was never on my side. Anyone who meets her meets a cursed fate like her. Was she a soul reaper in her previous life? If I lived a thousand years, she would take my soul a thousand times over. That's what we were. If a book was written about us after a thousand years, it should be written, Lu Yuxi and Xin Shushin, two lines that never meet.
I turned towards her and smiled broadly, "What did you say? I'm the queen, I can be anywhere I want. That's okay, right?"
She looked out of the corner of her eye, "What's with that disgusting smile? I heard you were dying, you must have already."
I looked at her with disgust, rolled my eyes, and whispered again, "As if I wanted to smile at you, you bastard..."
Then I said, "You must be very interested in me. But I didn't die, unfortunately."
She Smirked, "Don't become that irresponsible girl when you're a queen, and your wedding is in two days, but you're just messing around. What are you up to?''
I lowered the hand that was behind my back, and stopped smiling, "Don't worry, I'll handle my own business. Also, don't ask questions when you're not interested in believing me. You only see me as an evil person.''
"Indeed, I am not interested, so excuse me."
I smiled sarcastically, then passed by her on my way to the door until her voice stopped me, "Put the book down first."
I turned and looked at her, "Whatever." Then I threw away the book I had in my hand and left. Outside the library I Smirked, whispering to myself, "I knew she would expose me. It's a good thing I took an extra book."
Smiling, she looked at the book in her hands, "The Legend of the Shadow Princess."
(in the Library)
Lu Yuxi looked at the book in her hands that Shushin threw away, "How to you seduce your husband and make him obsessed with you"
Her eyes widened, her cheeks turned red with embarrassment, then she threw the book on the floor and looked at the door, "Crazy. Completely crazy."