Abundant silence, a passing breeze, a dark blue sky, a sky full of stars. There, Shushin, dressed in black, stands in front of a vast ocean, colored in blue. It appears frightening and deadly. Her eyes appear empty, unafraid of pain. There is no wall in front of her To save her from being stolen by the ocean. Shushin turns around, her hair flying, on her skin there are nothing but clothes and hair flying freely without any obstacles. She takes a step forward, but a black shadow wraps around her waist and walks her backwards. Her eyes widen, and her mouth trembles. She ends up smiling, as if she had accepted her fate. The shadow pulls her violently, and she flies into the dark sky
After a real flight, a more real end comes, her body bounces in the water, and she is pulled deep, not even resisting, her tears fall but she cannot know, because the water surrounds her from everywhere...
(Shushin's residence in the Royal Palace)
I slowly opened my eyes. I was lying on a comfortable couch in the garden, made of wood and soft white wool. I hugged my feet to my body, hugged myself, and buried my head in my hands.
I keep having strange dreams, whether I'm awake or asleep.
Surrounded by trees and flowers, a green place that renewed my breathing, and this made me think... about the truth of this family, and that I had never talked to you about these people.
where do I start?
So let's start with the small details. The royal family of this kingdom, which people often say, "The Kingdom's Capital," is divided, not saying its name, which is, "Tiān yuán." For thousands of years, the Xin people have been giving birth to a true magician every decade. After one dies, another is born, so It was believed by the citizens that royal family members with the surname Xin were gifted and favored by the Lord, and thus they became the highest authority in the palace. In the history of our kingdom, it is mentioned that the first king, who was a magician, married four women in a row, women from a powerful, rich family, or gifted, Ms. Feng, Ms. Yan, and Ms. Lu, the first lady was Xin, his childhood friend, since from the beginning others were not interested in magic and magician, and we did not have many traditions.
I mentioned to Minghao that Shen and Feng are in charge of weapons, Lu is in charge of medicine, and Yan for personnel and private government matters, but that is not all, in fact this is nothing..
Mrs. An was a compassionate and friendly woman who charmed others with her honesty, but her strength was also deep and unclear. It seems easy to achieve, but someone who is always smiling, who is definitely crying in secret, and someone who cries in secret, is an indescribable force. Undiscovered power.
I didn't study hard, so I don't know much, but I was interested in this story. Mrs. Yan had an ability that helped her catch criminals and investigate. Therefore, individuals are intelligent and difficult to read... As for Mrs. Lu, she was a beautiful woman, cheerful but disciplined, good at fighting, only showing her fierce side, a woman with burning eyes, and this is clearly evident in the current descendants... Mrs. Feng, was very reserved, She was disciplined, but was the least visible. She was married off because her family did not want her, saying that she was a monster, not a human. And so it was the beginning, a story that never ends for us.
My father does not have Feng origin exactly, but by marrying my mother, and being a man from a rich family in the capital, he was able to own a place here, even with the withdrawal of my mother's surname, by marrying another woman, he was able to become one of us, and thus me and Shi Jin and jiji are siblings from the same father. As for Lu Yu Xi and An Yin, they are siblings, but they have a different surname. This is another terrible story in this disintegrated palace. Xi Yu, is not from a good family, a poor family, but she had wonderful strength. She married my uncle, Lu, who did not love her at all. She gave birth to Lu Yu xi, but they lived a miserable life in the palace. Later, her mother was expelled from the palace, and she was separated from her mother. Her father married again, to my aunt Yan, and gave birth to An Yin, but after a dispute, she became her mother's surname. Instead of her father, my uncle died when we were young, and Lu Yu Xi was always alone in her residence, making her become a cold woman. Fortunately for her, she had a loving second mom, who treated her like her own daughter, and never separated her from An Ain. That why they became close.
Lu Yu Xin and Yan An Xin, from the same mother, my aunt married my uncle, and they decided that each of them would have a different surname. Of course, it was a finished and ordinary story. They did not know that a small difference could also cause differences that are bigger than anyone could expect. Broken, broken relationships do nothing but destroy us. What do we do when adults have destroyed our world? It may seem easy for these people, but if they feel how low they are, or how silly they are, the demons inside them may come out at any time. Lu Yuxi and Lu Yuxin are the center of darkness that everyone avoids. As for Yan An Yen and Yan An Xin, they are the breeze of spring. Feng is forgotten, and Xin is the perfect display puppet.
"You were not created to fail, you were created to cause destruction."
It seems like something that might be said to God, but we had to be like this when we have not even achieved being charitable.
This is an incomplete story, the secrets that lie in their hearts, I can never know.
(Lu's residence)
Lu's residence looks like it's built on a piece of ice, even in the summer, people here look like corpses for some reason.. I've always been afraid to come, but I try to show them that I'm not lazy, or frankly, I came with confidence because no one can kill me now...
The army is trained here, and there are many guards. The palace is very large as it is part of other buildings. Here there is a gate that leads to the prison. Traitors, spies, and demons from the fifth level outside Demon City come here. There is also a court for criminals. The Rang Court takes place today. I felt like I wanted to reassure Nyao Nyao that her journey was worth it. That There is justice somewhere in this world.
I was walking in the corridor, the whole place was colored black, and the sun was setting here somehow faster... A noticeable light above me, the place definitely causes tension for some reason, to make everyone alert, a dim light that drives you crazy, while I was walking I felt a wind from my side so I quickly turned around.
But someone's hand closed around my shoulders, pushing me against the wall, where the corridor in the middle of the dwelling was, open and leading towards the court. He whispered, "You should have taken out your sword, you don't know who is waiting to kill you..."
I looked up to look at him, "Lu Yu Xin, what's wrong with you? Aren't you afraid that I will cut off your hands?"
He smiled sarcastically, "I don't think you are capable of this ability. If my uncle wasn't so obsessed with you, To make Xiao Yan queen would have been more reasonable."
"As for us being in a place where laws are enforced, you're talking appropriate nonsense."
A voice appeared from behind him, "What's wrong with you two? Did I interrupt a certain romance?"
I looked behind him to see Lu Yu Xi, leaning her body against the pillar and looking at us with her eyes.
He lowered his hands and turned to look at her, and laughed sarcastically, "I don't flirt with married women..." Then he walked away.
I moved away from the wall and brushed the dust off my back as I muttered, "As if I would love for you to flirt with me, old man."
I looked with my eyes at Yu Xi, who was still looking down on me, and I looked back at her, "What do you want?"
Yu Xi took a step closer, "What's wrong with you, you keep showing up around? Are you trying to win our side? Like you did with the others?"
I laughed mockingly, "You are around all the time, so I thought there was no need for me to hide, I have the right to come here."
She nodded to me, "Right, you must be having fun." She said as she walked away, I turned to her and said,
"Not really, but a step closer to death, sounds interesting."
She turned to look at me, "What? Are you going to die soon?"
I smiled at her and looked around, "Hmm, death is always here, we step into it every day, it doesn't mean anything."
She looked at me with that uninterested, piercing look, "People tend to be more honest than strangers..." She paused and then spoke, "And books."
I looked at her in confusion, "Huh? Strangers? Books?"
She walked away and then said, "Did you succeed in seducing him?"
I stood in confusion, then remembered that day, "Damn it... Why would there even be a book like that out there? Damn my luck... so bad"
From the top of the house, An Yin stands and watches the scene, with a blank look that she does not usually have.
(Shushin room)
I went to my desk. Thinking That maybe Writing a bit will make me be at ease, Many things burden me. I am immature, and I know that I will make immature choices, but the expectations of those around me weigh me down. Sometimes I want to be as they really see me, but then I think that I am better as I am, and I ask myself then, "Who are you then?" And it happens. Deep silence. No, I am not what I should be, nor should I be what I am. I am just a fish that is supposed to swim, but it drowns because it thinks it is a bird. This is how I am. Things that I don't want seem to happen to me easily, even if I say that I don't want it, I would seem ungrateful. What would I do if I was given the whole world and I only wanted the ocean? Does my refusal mean that I am not grateful? Or does it just mean that I don't care about owning the world and a warm house is enough for me?
I wrote, ''my only pain, That i can't be a star, nor can i be a stone, here I'm, in between, can't be what i want to be, nor can i be what others want me to be, so lonely me. So far, yet so near. Can't be the waves, can't be the shore, I'm nothing and everything. I'm so tired of trying to make you love me. I'm i so hard to love? Why? Because I'm honest? Brave? Dreamer? Nice? Can't a girl dream? Can't a girl wish? Can't a girl sing? Why can't i be anything in this city.. why can i do anything but dream in this huge home. Awake between sleeping people. I sleep too much yet also sleepless. Even dreams are not enough for me.''