The reason I left Hong is that I suddenly heard the melody in my ears, and although I definitely heard it in my ears, I was able to feel it in my heart as well. It filled me with tenderness, safety, and a warm feeling, like an old embrace, like a dream I had one day.
I walked into the dark alley, but my steps were quickening, as was my heartbeat, and at that moment, I was not who I knew, and I was longing for something I did not know. At the end of the alley, in front of me, there is a gate leading to a small palace, or a house like a palace, white, but surrounded by bulls, and now. The sound became completely clear.
Qin voice. Light, pure, so comforting to my heart.
Fortunately, the gate was transparent, making me able to look inside, so I moved inside. There, the palace door was open. It was smaller than a palace should be, but it didn't look like a normal house. I sat on the stairs next to the door, and closed my eyes. I just wanted to... To listen, but I could no longer be silent, so I took out my flute, and suddenly I was walking to the rhythm along with this person's melody.
After a minute, my tears started leaking. The flute fell from my hand. My eyes widened in shock. I felt the shadows circling around me again, and suddenly I was trying to resist, but to no avail. I fell to the ground. My last attempt to look at the sky failed... I felt as if I was dying and losing my memories, but I did not. I was completely paralyzed, with a streak of memories. ..it started to appear.
That person Lips, Smirked.
(memories)
Feminist laughter. From behind, a girl and a boy appear, wearing blue hanfu, with a cover of white feathers, sitting in front of a board, coloring it together, drawing. In that painting, sea, and flowers, the girl said in a feminine voice, "What do we call the painting, ours?"
The boy smiled, "What do you think of 'our blue memories'?"
She smiled and exclaimed cheerfully, "Wow! But doesn't that look so depressing."
He turned slightly towards her, and then his face appeared to Shushin, who stood behind in shock. The whole scene was colourful, but she had no colours. Her eyes widened in shock, the boy placed his hands on the girl's cheeks."If blue is sad, let's make it beautiful."
This was Qian yu, and Shushin, but this had never happened in their lives, they spent their lives in a superficial relationship, she contemplating him, and he contemplating the sky. She had always cherished people individually, but she was unlucky. She always loved those who were truly loved. So she was nothing to them. In front of eternal happiness.
Suddenly, Shushin vanished from the scene, just as she was almost approaching them.
The sound of laughter, "Don't come any closer." A girl's voice speaking , the scene in Shushin's eyes doesn't appear, just some familiar voices.
Shushin squeezes her eyes to focus, and she hears the sound of waves, birds, and the sound of boats in the harbor.
Fast, fleeting images come: a man holding the hand of a girl who looks like Shushin. He runs, but nothing is clear, then she holds his hand. They watch the wide sea in front of them, while the sun rises. The girl speaks again, extending her hands to the sky, "I will hold those stars."
He laughs, "Really?"
She looks at him, the scene finally appears from behind, but Shushin is not there, dressed in strange clothes, the girl and the boy, her long black hair pulled up like a ponytail.
The girl says, "I was a star before. Really." Shushin sees the girl's eyes shining brightly.
Shushin still couldn't see her face.
The boy's hair is very short and dark blue
He laughed again, "When? And where were you, a star?" He seemed to enjoy her lively and hopeful speech.
The girl's smile appears in Shushin's mind, instead of the scene, as she says, "In my dream, there, you were the brightest star in the sky, and you, you were the sea."
One of his eyes appears, surprised, "Me? I was the sea?"
The girl smiled, showing the scene from behind again, "Yes, you were the sea that consoled my loneliness."
He leaned towards her, "Your loneliness? Is being a star really lonely?"
"Not really, since I was seeing you."
"How did you know, then, that I am the sea?"
"I don't need to know, even if it is not the sea. When I look at it, it will be you. And if there is no sea at all, then the stars, the rain, or the sky, they are all you. And if they are not here, I will look at myself, inside me, and I will definitely see you."
He hugged her, and the scene disappeared, again. Shushin was at a loss, and her eyes kept getting teary, with her heart continuing to fill up.
Suddenly, Shushin opens her eyes, as if she was sleeping, and she is sitting next to a woman with long white hair, wearing a white hanfu, and the end of the sleeve is red, playing the qin, the same song that Shushin heard before, in front of the door.
Shushin's eyes widened and she almost spoke, but in front of her, there was another scene.
A young girl with black hair, following a girl with white hair, a white and golden place, covered with trees all around. Around the palace are clouds. The sky is pink. There is a plaque hanging on the palace gate, "Tian Xia."
The little girl runs after the white-haired girl, who looks older than her, and clings to her clothes, "Big sister, please teach me how to play."
The older girl pushed her lightly, and took out her paper fan, "Shu, behave with manners, is this the manners of the Shadow Phoenix?"
Shushin lost her balance from the shock, and began to breathe with difficulty. She rested her hands on the ground. The white-haired woman began to play more vigorously.
Shushin looked at her, and the woman spoke, "Don't worry about why you came here, because everything you have known so far is not true."
Shushin's tears were falling, "What?"
She stopped and looked at Shushen, her face was close, "Shushin, you are everything and nothing, a witch, a demon, a phoenix, a princess, a queen, a shadow Goddess, if this is really you, maybe in the end you will know that you were nothing at all. Rather, a lie."
"So what can I believe in? If everything is a lie!"
She smiled, "Do not believe in anything at all. Faith is nothing but a lie to you. You are...you are ruin, and a dream."
Shushin looked in front of her, "I was wrong, to think that dreams are real. In fact, it turns out that only nightmares are real, but oh sweet dreams, they will haunt me. What I dreamed of, what I dreamed I might be, everything is nothing but ghosts that will haunt me forever. I can't run away, ever."
The woman looked at her gently in her eyes, "I'm sorry. But with time, you will understand what you lived through. Maybe you don't care about the past, but your past self is what cursed you, that you must return, and that you must make amends, from today. What will come may prove to you that your life was a lie. And your innocent self was nothing but ruin, those memories that appeared to you, will not be the end, there will be endless pain to come. But you must endure."
Shushin closed her eyes, and fell into the woman's embrace. The woman smiled and ran her hands through Shushin's hair and sighed, "Oh, useless memories, never have mercy." The woman looked at a piece of paper next to her, with beautiful, clear handwriting.
"Iie, what you said was a lie
Flaw, one the painting we drew
Mistake, huge mistake
Pain, all we got was pain
All you promises can only be transparent into pain
Lie, all you can do is lie
You think i got nothing on my mind?
You think i will let you go alive?
You think you deserve to be alive?"
"Shushin... Your promised fate is nothing but pain. It makes you yearn for hope, then it stabs you. Hope is your lover, but death is fate." The woman said.