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Chapter 20 - A Distant Past

'This Giant is such a dummy. I can't even tunnel through his body cuz I'm full. But I must say. For a worm you taste pretty good.'

With nothing to do after successfully taking root as a parasite, Quinn only could eat until he was full. But now he was full he was bored. It seemed that all memories of his past life could only entertain him for so long. He could only think and imagine.

He was left in a continuous state of thinking of only thoughts.

Reviewing his plans. Playing imaginary scenarios where Quinn actually got a girlfriend. But ofc they were only dreams. And eventually he got angry.

'I needed it. I needed love. No-one even batted an eye for me. Why would anyone love me. I was so pathetic I got reincarnated as a F-ing worm. The closest I ever got...'

It was a warm humid day and Quinn just left the lecture hall. He was sweating under Pokémon T-shirt he had on.

'Sigh, I can't wait to get home'

"Quinn!!" - Darcy

"Oh H-Hello"

"I heard you play GMMO and I was wondering if i could join you."

"ahhh I- Ummm uhh sure"

"Cool here's my gamer tag," Darcy handed Quinn a piece of paper with a gamer tag written on it.

'To put it bluntly, She was a total noob. But everytime she saw an enemy she squealed. After sometime she asked for favors. I did some of her work. And then more of it. And bought her coffee. And lunch sometimes. She started staying in the office and got deliveries. She would smile every time.

And then one day I decided to drop by early to surprise her. I thought she would like the food at a new burger place down the road.

She was screwing the stupid frat boys. And they were laughing about me.'

"Huh that fat pig. Why would I ever? Pfft I love how he thinks buying me a nice sandwich everyday would get me to MHm ohh yea just like that."

"Hahaha and let me guess you use me for this dick just for your pleasure"

"ohh you're soo much smarter and better then that idiot"

"Shut up bitch"

...

I left uni early. And as a man, I cried. I dropped out. I got texts from Darcy. But I couldn't say anything. And on my last day of Uni, I died.

'I shoulda said something. I shoulda hit someone. I shoulda done at least... something. Tell them off I I-I... Could've...'

Quinn bit himself.

'But you didn't did you huh. You Could've, Would've Should've but didn't huh!!! F-ing R-tard'

He pulsed venom into himself. Numbing the phycological pain.

'I wish the whole world would just F- off.'

He bit into the Giant but he was full. His body felt like splitting apart. His head pulsed with pain.

'AHhHhahahahhhhhhHGHGH' The splitting head ache intensified. His whole being felt like it was being torn apart from the inside. Until he did. He split in half. But he didn't care. He expended energy on [Fragmentation] and now he had room. He ate his fill in spiteful pain. His fragmented parts followed suit.

...

Meanwhile Finn repeated the cycle.

Eat, Spew, Sleep repeat.

With one difference.

Finn gained EXP for absorbing Mana. Like a natural conversion rate.

[

Name: Finn

Species: Earthworm(Lvl:14)

Exp:[209/338]

Strength:9

Agility:14

Vitality:7

Intelligence:6

Arcane:18

Skills: [Appraisal(Lvl:4)] [Mana Sense(Lvl:4)]

]

Pure pleasure becomes dull under constant exposure. And Finn was feeling this. Every minute becoming more and more morbid. And his pessimism started to kick in once again.

'I need more!! why can't I get more! It should be possible. So BS why am I limited. Limits. they hold me back. F them. F them I need to break through. I need more. It's crushing me. Its ... AHHHGHUAGFD'

Finn under a constant sense of ecstasy, rotted down into a fragile mindset, into a shallow sense of self.

Consumed by the Mana.