Continued from the last part....
Me: (Looking at my lap, fidgeting with my fingers) Actually I studied just a little.
Vihaa: (Softly and concerned tone) Why so kiddo?
Me: (Debating whether to lie or say the truth, thinking for some seconds or minute then muttered) Because of the daily drama going on in the house.
Vihaa: (Concerned yet confident voice) Speak loud and clear, believe me I will not scold or taunt you okay?
Me: (Look directly into her eyes and just by seeing it I know she is not lying, just like this I believed her) On daily basis something happen in the family, either they fight with each other or all of them appoint me as their personal mediator then used me to pass their messages to the second person. I get tired in these activities so much that I don't get time to study.
Vihaa: Okay
After this, both of us became silent for some time, I looked at her and it seemed as if she is thinking something. I decided to let her be and I start looking here & there, I observe what other peoples are doing inside or outside the park. Soon my observation come to halt hearing her voice...
Vihaa: You like to listen music right?
Me: (Confused) Yes.
Vihaa: Like to listen stories?
Me: (Confused and curious) yes but what happen?
Vihaa: I have a solution to your problem.
Me: (Surprised) really?
Vihaa: (Smiling) Yes. See I know dealing with such family members is not easy and I can understand this but I have solution for you which is you just have to do these things everyday until the entrance exam is over ...
(Readers, you will come to know it slowly and steadily. And if everything is told or known then won't life become boring)
Me: (Humming) Sounds exciting, I will try this from tomorrow and anyway, now only fifteen days are left for the exam. So if I don't prepare now then when will I do it?
Vihaa: Yeah right. And try to move out from the house for sometime other than our evening walk because by doing this they will see you less in the home so, they will not use you as a mediator.
Me: Okay but where I will go?
Vihaa: (Dramatically) Huhh that you have to think, now should I tell you this also? Mind it okay I am not that much free.
Me: (I folded my hands in front of her face and said) Okay teacher.
And together we laughed it out loud on our behaviour, after talking about other things we leave for our house. I enter inside my house with a genuine smile on my face and a constant thought running in my mind...
people like Vihaa are really beautiful, spend some time with them you will feel as if life is beautiful with lights all around. Life could be smooth with them, you won't have to fight to find the peace or to smile. People like her are just true blessing in one's life.
However, sudden loud voice break my trance hearing mother's voice...
Mother: Siya!!
Me: (Stammering a bit) Ye.. ye.. Yeah what happened?
Mother: What were you thinking? It's been 10 minutes since you were sitting at the dining table like this, the plate is there but you are not eating. You're just sitting there and thinking, don't know what.
Me: I was just thinking how some can be so much good, pure heart that with them you feel as if life is going smooth, every problem can be solved when they are with you and just by spending some time with them, you feel as if you have found all the happiness in life in that moment.
Father: O please, this kind of thing never happens in real life, always remember that people come to you or spend time with you because they want something from you. No one will be kind or good enough to you just like that to be with you until and unless they have some purpose to fulfil.
Mother: Stop all this and Siya eat your food before it get cold.
Me: Okay.
After this I start eating my food, they too start doing the same. Fortunately, we eat in silence but I keep talking to my mind about whatever my father said...
Me: How can he be like this, full of negativity. For him everything is wrong, no one in this world is good and kind enough to help someone.
Mind: I think he born with negative personality but I don't trust him or his talks.
Me: Same here, for me Vihaa is one of the best person in my life, I don't give them what others are saying about her.
Mind: Yes and you shouldn't even give a damn got it?
Me: Yeah.
Just like this dinner got over, whole night just passed like this no scene happened. However, me and mind keep talking till three in the morning, finally getting tired I fall asleep.
(From here is the schedule of fifteen days, list of things which Vihaa asked me to do)
Day - 1
As usual I wake up in the morning tired and exhausted but remembering Vihaa's word sudden excitement fill inside my. After completing my daily routine that is getting fresh, taking shower and completing my breakfast I walk inside my room close the door then I walk towards my study table sit on the beside chair then open my laptop, once it got connected with internet I open the you tube and typed social psychology, then pressed enter.
Soon many videos started related to that topic and I start watching them, I do this for one hour and thirty minutes. After getting tired I pause one of the video in the middle, walk towards the room balcony to relax my mind. While relaxing, I smile widely remembering Vihaa's word.. Study on you tube while watching videos.
Day - 2
I open one of the music app name Spotify there I open one of the podcast, which is related to stories of fear and phobias and I learned how the different they are two and how does they work. Just like this I listen different kind of stories related to psychological topics.
Day - 3
I open Vihaa's message... there I found the list of some psychological movies including black swan, inception and beautiful mind. I download these movies and start watching them, however, while watching black swan I started feeling sleepy. A thought pop up in my mind..
huhhh never knew watching movie can be this much boring.
Day - 4
I opened Vihaa's message where she has shared few of the documentaries with me in the form of documents which are related to clinical disorders, like Depression, Alzheimer's, Dementia, Psychosis, Mood Swings etc. And I studied them in detail.
Day - 5
Being on holiday Vihaa come to my house, she sit with me for two to three hours and together we studied statistics use in psychology plus psychometric testing that is what it is and how it is done.
Day - 6
I read articles on educational psychology on google referred by Vihaa to me, as it has no valid videos or movies for it.
Day - 7 & 8
Vihaa arranged a google meeting for me with one of her friend who taught me about institutional psychology, where I studied through power point presentation and interacting lectures.
And just like this rest of the days passed by, thankfully members of the family stay calm and if by any chance aunt or granny come or called me to talk then I used to tell them..
sorry I have an entrance exam to give after few day so I am busy in studying for it.
However, such a situation come only once and seeing me busy in studies none of them talk to me that much except granny and father. On daily basis I usually study till two or three in the morning on my phone in granny's room and seeing me using phone she keep on telling it to father then on breakfast table he keep on scolding me saying...
Father: Once you only said that you are unable to sleep in the night right?
Me: Yeah, so?
Father: If you keep playing games or watching movies in the night then how you will be able to sleep?
Me: Ohhh sorry I will try not to do so.
though inside my head I am like, I don't play games, watch movies or read stories but as you have no trust in me so I am not going to give you any kind of explanations or going to justify my behaviour.
While I was remembering all the fourteen days sitting on bench of the park with a wide a smile on my face, I flinched a little when suddenly someone kept a hand on my shoulder and seeing that the person come in front of my eyes. Seeing Vihaa in front of my eyes I got relaxed, she sit beside me maintaining a good distance between us...
Vihaa: So, how is the preparation for tomorrow?
Me: (Honestly) Slight nervous but I am ready and all thanks to you.
Vihaa: Why me?
Me: Because of you only I studied for the exam in a different way, rather than learning from the books I learned through movies, documentaries, video lectures and stories. Thank you so much.
Vihaa: (Dramatically) Oooo So now you are going to say thank you to me, your sister?
Me: (Chuckling lightly) Okay teacher and sorry my dear sister.
At this we both laughed out loud, however, suddenly she become serious and start speaking...
Vihaa: Can I ask something?
Me: (Stop laughing) Yeah
Vihaa: Why do you flinch away from my touch? If you are comfortable then only answer.
Me: Since I was in eight class father used to tell me, touch is not a good thing. If someone tried to touch you then you have to step back. And slowly I got affected by psychologically so, I flinch back whenever someone touch me.
Vihaa: Ohh okay. Well, anyway, we will talk about all this later. Now coming to the point, tomorrow I will be dropping you at the university and I will also pick you up because tomorrow is my holiday.
Me: (Getting happy, smiling widely) Wow that's cool and anyway I didn't feel like going alone or with father. Thank you.
Vihaa: Looks like I should carry a board around... No sorry and thank you in friendship and along with friendship, you are also my sister.
I hit on her shoulder playfully, we both chuckled a little on this then we start talking about other things, after ten minutes we start walking towards our house. As I reach inside the house my happy and relaxed mood got spoiled instantly hearing loud voices of Aunt, who is screaming don't know why and listening to this my mind speak up...
Mind: Here we goes again, there was peace for some days, now that too is gone.
I took a deep breath, untie my shoes then directly walk towards my room as I reach inside I walk towards the study table and pick up my earphones plug in the phone, start listening to music. This is something I learned while I was studying about mood elevation or healing process, what one should do to ignore triggering situations.
Just like this night passed by, me trying to relax myself by listening to different music or watching comedy videos, hoping for a good and positive tomorrow, I fall asleep.