Continued From The Last part....
The moment I enter inside the room I got shocked seeing granny sitting on the floor, bent over and blood is flowing from the left side of her head. Before I could do anything or react in any way, father came running from behind me and barged inside the room by pushing me because of it I trembled a little and with a jerk my left hand hit the wall.
Ignoring the slight pain that I am feeling because of the sudden hit, I watch and help father a little so that he can lift grandma up and make her sit on the bed. By this time all of the other family members barged inside the room and started standing around granny, as if a movie is going on. Seeing them standing like this, father got angry,
Father: (Yelled) Why are you guys crowded here?
Hearing this, all of us take few steps back..
Father: (Yelling) Now will one of you go and bring a first aid kit or will you all remain idle and watch the scene unfold?
After hearing this, all of them look at me, soon father also look at my side and I got their unsaid words, I took a deep breath then walk towards the parents room where I knew first aid kit. However, while doing this I can hear voices repeatedly echoing inside my head..
what is this bro? They keep asking me to do every work.
i agree that I am the younger one but it does not mean that only I should do all of the work.
they keep taking only my name on everything, as if there is no one else in the world who can do their work except me.
because you are a slave from them.
Hearing all these voices only, I reach back in granny's room and I hand over the first aid kit to father then stand in the corner of the room. While standing there I start observing others behaviour in this situation...
brother is playing game in his phone
mother looking things around the room, (getting bored probably)
aunt being dramatic like usual, on the verge of crying while she keep looking at granny
granny keep groaning while father dressing her wound
And seeing all of them like this, a random thought pop up in my mind...
what is actually happening here, I mean except father no one else should be here in this room. I don't think we all are needed to be here.
Just like this twenty or some more minutes passed by, finally father got over with dressing of the wound. He walk inside the washroom (probably to clean his hand), he walk back outside with a hand towel in his hand. Once his hand dried, he looked all of us carefully (probably observing our behaviours) then start speaking...
Father: (Look at aunt then speak to her) Now what is there to cry about, mother is just a little hurt.
Aunt: Hmmm
Father: (Looking at brother and mother) Here a person is injured but look at these people, someone is playing a game on the phone and someone here is looking at how the room is or what kind of things are kept here.
Hearing them getting scolded, I bend my head down then start snickering. However, soon my fun almost died hearing his voice again, which is now directed to me...
Father: And now you Siya, wow you are laughing too much. Is there any movie is playing here or am I joking here that you are laughing so much?
And now tables have turned guys, hearing father I raised my head then look at him with a straight face. Though, from the peripheral view I see brother and mother now snickering looking at my side and seeing them rather then getting angry I again low my head and start snickering.
Seeing our behaviour he sighed being frustrated, walk outside the room but now before muttering...
Father: Rude people, Huhhhh I have no respect here.
After this we (me, mother and brother) chuckled out lightly, start walking outside the room. Me being the last one to leave the room, got the chance to see aunt rolling her eyes and later she sit near granny. While granny is laying down and resting a bit on her bed.
I walk inside my room, close the door behind me then walk towards my study table to drink some water from the water bottle. While drinking the water I hear a ping sound coming from my phone, once done with drinking the water I walk towards the bedside table pick up my phone and read the message...
Vihaa: See you in the mall in an hour.
Me: Okay.
At this time only I notice its four in the evening already, I plug in the charger to my phone and keep it back on the bed side table. After this I walk inside the washroom to freshen up, once done I walk outside the room and directly walk towards the kitchen as I wanted to make a cup of hot coffee for me. Fortunately, I found no one there and some relief got filled inside me, I start making myself a cup of coffee while humming a tune.
After five minutes or so I walk inside my room with a cup of coffee in my hand, I close the door behind me then I drag a empty chair towards the balcony. Soon I settled myself on the chair and start devouring my coffee, feeling cool breeze hitting my face. Some random thoughts popped up inside my head...
in this waning evening, the feeling of something warm touching the hands and the feeling of this light cool breeze blowing on them... I am feeling like getting drunk in this beautiful waning evening.
I think those people must be crazy who fall in love with people, I just fall in love with such evenings.
Just like this some forty minutes passed by, me enjoying the coffee and falling in love with evening. I get up from the chair, drag it inside with one hand while the other hand is till carrying that cup but the difference is it is empty now. Once the chair got placed on its place, I keep the cup on the study table, closed the balcony door and then start getting ready. After ten minutes I am ready to move out of the house, wearing casual that is grey jeans and and dark blue top.
However, rather then moving outside the house directly, I walk towards the kitchen to wash my cup there. As I entered inside the kitchen I found mother cooking dinner, seeing this I thought of letting her know that I am going out with Vihaa. So, while cleaning my cup I told her...
Me: Mother I am going out with Vihaa for shopping, will eat less food at home.
Mother: Okay have fun.
Once done with my task of cleaning I bid my goodbye to her then move out of the house after wearing my shoes. I order a sharing cab for my self, soon it come and drive starts towards the mall. It took me around fifteen minutes to reach the mall, I pay my share of amount and exit the cab then start walking inside the mall. The moment I step inside the mall, my phone started ringing. I take it out from the pocket and answered the call...
Me: Hello
Vihaa: Kiddo come to Cinnabon cafeteria which is on the ground floor it self.
Me: Okay
She hang up the call, I walk towards the same cafeteria and in a minutes or so I reach there. I go and sit in front of her but choose not to disturb her as I found her talking to someone on the call. While talking over the call only she slide the menu towards menu with a wide smile on her face, I tried smiled back with same energy. I order myself a smoothie, after a minute or so she hang up the call and start talking to me...
Vihaa: So, how was your day?
Me: Quite eventful, what about you?
Vihaa: Mine was usual, simply boring.
Me: Okay.
Vihaa: Tell me what all happened today, if its okay with you.
Me: I got myself registered in the university almost alone but I tried to do it carefully so, I don't give chance father to get upset. After coming back home, I eat lunch then fall asleep for some time and later wake up with a jerk hearing granny's loud voice because she has fell down and got hurt a bit on the forehead.
Vihaa: (Chuckling) Your life is more like a dramatic show.
Me: (Chuckling) No doubt.
At this point waiter come up with my smoothie, after keeping it on the table he walked away. As soon as he walked away Vihaa start speaking...
Vihaa: If its okay then can I ask you something?
Me: Yeah sure go ahead.
Vihaa: You really want to show your father that you are a good child and can handle responsibilities well?
Me: (Chocked on while sipping smoothie) Ye.. ah Yeah but how do you know?
Vihaa: When you said that you don't want to give a chance to father for him to get upset, from here I guessed it.
Me: Ohhh, actually I think father think of me quite irresponsible and bad child and I just want to show them that I can be good too.
Vihaa: Hmmm but what will happen if he never got to see this side of yours?
Me: (Looking down at my lap) I guess I will try my best but if I got fail believe in this, I will feel sad and I will think of myself to be a child who does not deserve love and affection of their parents.
Vihaa: Look, just be yourself and then try your best to be a good person because sometimes it happens that while trying to show or prove something to others, we lose ourselves somewhere. And these others include not only our own family but sometimes even those relationships that we once considered our own, such as our friends.
Me: But won't this behaviour of mine be considered as being selfish?
Vihaa: No not at all, loving ourselves is very very important. Only if you know or understand yourself, you will be able to show yourself to someone else as to what you are. Otherwise, whatever people think, they will mould you as per their wish and then what will you have left to exist?
Me: Hmmm okay.
Vihaa: Now finish your smoothie in hurry and I will also finish drinking my cold coffee, then we will start doing shopping.
Me: Okay.
Soon our drinks got over, we exit the cafeteria and we start with the shopping or should I say she start doing her shopping and I am just accompanying her. She took around two hours, once the shopping got over rather then going towards the home, she drive us towards a burger joint and there we order burgers, some fires and drinks for us. We settled ourselves in that joint, there we talked about some other small and big topics just like this we reach back home, talking and eating.
Around nine thirty in the night, I rang the bell of my house and the door got opened by someone who I was expecting not to open it that is father. Seeing me standing there, he moved aside a bit to give me the space to step inside the house, I come inside the house and start removing my shoes. While doing so, I heard door closed behind me and I see him walking towards the dining room, at that moment I so wanted to ask him how was your meeting but I choose not too because I don't to spoil my happy mood.
After keeping my shoes inside the shoe cabinet I walk inside my room then closed the door behind me and start getting fresh. Once I finished getting fresh I pick up my diary, sit on the beside chair that is near the study table and start writing my thoughts in it...
how easily she made me understand how important is self love, how manipulative people can be to mould you in a way that they like, I have to first understand myself, love myself, only then I will be able to show father how I really am.
And with these thoughts in my mind, my night passed in granny's room where I tried to read some articles on self love/care, tips of doing it. Somewhere around four or five in the morning I finally fall asleep after getting tired and calling it a night.