Have you ever experienced that feeling when you are with your family or your friends, whom you could trust to be with you in every phase your life. But now they are no longer with you, they no longer understands you like before. And suddenly there comes someone who be with you like a shadow either physically or mentally.
At one point you feel happy that you have someone on whom you can lean on and on the other point you feel disappointed with those who used to be considered as your friends or family but not anymore because they have changed now. However, the truth is that you won't be able do anything about it as like the phrase goes, change is the only constant.
Around five in the evening I wake up, with sleepy eyes only I pick up my phone to check if I have got any message or call from Vihaa or from anyone else. However, sadly there are no messages or call from anyone, for a minute or so I waste my time toying around with my phone.
Soon I get up from the bed, go inside the washroom to get fresh and wash my face. While doing this I hear the pop sound of my phone indicating a message received, I hurriedly left the washroom after getting fresh to know who's message is there though internally I knew that it must be Vihaa's.
As soon as I open the phone, I read her message excitedly...
Vihaa: Hi babes, let's go for a walk today at six.
Me: Okay.
After replying back to her, I keep the phone back on the side table and start getting ready in my track pants and a casual t-shirt. It took me around fifteen minutes, after getting ready I leave my room with phone in my pant pockets and socks in left my hand.
I directly go towards the kitchen knowing my mother will be there cooking food or doing some kind of work. However, rather then going near the kitchen, from dining hall only I speak out loud enough for my mother to hear..
Me: Mother!! I am going outside to hangout with Vihaa, I will be back by the dinner time!!
Mother: Okay!!
After saying this I reach near the main door of the house, take out my shoes from the shoe cabinet start wearing them. In two minutes or so, I leave the house and start walking towards Vihaa's house. However, before I could reach there, from distance I am able to see her walking out from her house with her head down looking at the ground but soon she raise her head then, look at me and we share a eye contact.
Seeing me only she smiled widely, I too smiled at her and together we start walking in the direction of the park from our directions. Once reaching inside the park soon we start walking and before Vihaa could say anything, I initiated the conversation..
Me: (Joking) you are early today.
Vihaa: I just got ready early.
Me: That is strange.
Vihaa: Shut up.
Me: Okay (I chuckle out lightly and she smiled)
Vihaa: Someone is in good mood, I like it.
Me: (Excitedly) you know what happen today in the interview, he told me that he only needed graduated for that job.
Vihaa: (Looking straight only) Yeah I knew it.
Me: (Surprised) Huhh, when you knew it then why you have send me there?
Vihaa: (Look at me smilingly) Because I want you to go there and explore the world, I want you to learn plus experience new things.
Me: Okay.
(wow bro, why my family had ever thought about this, she is so good. She wants me to have some new experiences, I just love her. I think she is a perfect teacher for students and in fact for me too, in guiding and advising me. Should I tell her about this, NO I am not going to say to her anything because what if she thinks wrong of me or what if she thinks I am getting dependent on her)
And with these running in my mind I keep my mouth shut, walk beside her silently. However, soon my trance of silence break by Vihaa's voice..
Vihaa: What do you want to be in you life?
Me: What do you mean?
Vihaa: I mean have you ever imagined what you want become in your life. I am especially talking about your career.
Me: (With dreamy voice) I want to be a doctor (with this I imagined myself in a doctor uniform taking care of people)
Vihaa: That's cool but why you want to be a doctor and which doctor you want to be?
Me: I want to be a psychologist because how people think and behave really excites me.
Vihaa: Okay but for that you have to do masters in clinical psychology first then PhD in the same.
Me: Really?
Vihaa: Yeah.
Me: Can we do it like distance education? I mean can I do job while studying it?
Rather then answering my question, Vihaa walk towards the bench and I follow her like a loss puppy. Once we got settled down there, she start speaking...
Vihaa: (directly looking into my eyes) You want to do the job for you or for your family?
Me: I want to do job because, father thinks it would be right thing plus according to him, at this stage I should be doing job as all kids do that in this age.
Vihaa: (Shake her head lightly and shrugged her shoulder) Tell me what you want to do?
Me: (Looking straight at something but don't know exactly what) I want to study or read book as they will give me knowledge, I want to be a doctor and take care of people who are suffering from any kind of mental illness because I am able to understand how important is to take care of oneself.
As I stop speaking, I raise my head and look at her and to my surprise she is looking at me with a wide smile on her face and her eyes showing proudness. For a minute or two we both sit in comfortable silent but soon her voice break our small moment of silence..
Vihaa: That's amazing bro now, you have a small task to do when you will reach home and that will be.. during dinner you will be telling your parents that you wanted to do master to get a better job in psychology.
Me: (Damn scared and nervous from inside as talking to them is very difficult for me) But why? I mean don't you think it will be right for me to do the job first.
Vihaa: (Calmly) look I know you are not uncomfortable in talking to them but remember what I had told you before.. they are your parents and they have a right to know about what you want to be and what you want do. Just go to them and patiently talk to them about this okay?
Me: Okay.
(don't know from where, that much confidence comes in me, that I agreed with her and I decided to do it but I guess something assured me from inside that no matter whatever situation will be she will be going to be with me there. Like a shadow.)
After this conversation we again start walking in the park, talking about some small and big things and just like this time passed. Soon we both said our goodbyes to each other and reach back to our homes. Once I reach back to home I directly walk inside the washroom to pee then I wash my hands and I go towards the dining hall to eat my dinner.
On reaching there like as usual I found my father and mother sitting their at the table waiting for me to come and have the dinner with them. After settling down there on the seat, I gather my all strength and the initiated the conversation..
Me: I want to do masters in clinical psychology.
Father: (Looking directly in my eyes) O really? But why? what about the interview that you had given today?
Me: The interview was okay but they will let me know after two to three days. And I want to be a doctor so, I wanted to masters.
Mother: (Chuckled out lightly) And you will be the doctor of what... mad people?
Father: Look I will suggest you to do some computer course and then start doing the job.
Me: But I don't like it father, then how will I do it?
Father: Once you will start doing it then you will start liking it believe me.
Me: Hmmm.
(i choose not to speak anything else because I don't think they will let me do the masters and I don't want to argue. Though, I don't find his suggestion to be right but I just choose to hummed)
After this little conversation of us, we finish our dinner in complete silence. Soon I reach back in my room with a bottle in my hand, the moment I close the door of my room my phone started ringing. I picked up the up the phone and answered the call hurriedly.
Vihaa: Hey kiddo! Did you talk to them?
Me: Yeah I tried it but it doesn't go well.
Vihaa: What happened?
And I told her about the little conversation that I have during dinner time with my parents, once I stop speaking she think for a minute or so then she start speaking..
Vihaa: Don't worry kiddo, I will be coming to your home tomorrow as it will be Sunday then I will be having this conversation again with your father, Okay?
Me: Umm okay but do you think it will look good, I mean my father temper is not very good, what if....
Vihaa: Hey, you just relax I will be there and everything going to be fine believe me.
Me: Okay done.
After this she hang up the phone, I just look at my phone for a minute or so then a random thought pop in my mind...
(when she told me to believe her, I do it instantly but when father asked me to do so, I didn't do it. I think trust is something which needed to be earned like she has already earn it with her words as well as actions too but father hadn't done anything yet that could earn the trust I guess)
And with these thoughts, I just spend my rest of the night in the granny's room completing twilight book series by reading it third novel Eclipse. In the meanwhile I also helped her in getting up and laying down again, somewhere in the middle of the night I may have fallen asleep at some point because in my dreams I saw Vihaa protecting me from getting drown.
I wake up around eight in the morning and I realized that I am not at all in a irritated mood, I guess the reason behind is the good dream that I had in the night after such a long time with a deep and good sleep. However, somewhere I also excited because Vihaa will be coming to the house after breakfast to have a conversation with my father and I am desperately waiting for it.
TO BE CONTINUED....