From the beginning, I always had questions that kept repeating themselves without knowing the answer, even though I believed that every question should have a definite answer.
Questions like:
Who are my real parents?
Between talent and ability, which is more important?
Will smart people always win? What about stupid people, will they always lose?
Where do people's emotions come from?
Speaking of the last question, I think I understand a little bit why a person's emotions can always change at any time.
I've learned that, if I'm not mistaken, it's called Mood Swing.
It is a change of mood that appears in a person, one of the causes is a chemical imbalance in the brain related to mood and hormonal changes produced by the body.
That's it, the answer is still not to my liking.
Isn't it obvious?
The answer was too scientific and I didn't really understand it.
I kept thinking out of curiosity.
But unfortunately, if I kept thinking about those questions then I would feel a stabbing pain sensation in my head.
It's strange and it feels very painful indeed, so I shouldn't keep thinking about it.
Sometimes torturing yourself is not a good thing, although sometimes it can also be a good thing.
It all comes back to what kind of situation one is facing.
In any case, I have to get answers to those four questions that keep repeating in my mind.
I don't want to think any further but I'm curious, that's all.
I think my life would be a waste if I died without getting the answers.
If you ask me which of the four questions caught my attention, of course I was very interested in the last question.
The reason is simple.
Emotions and feelings?
I didn't have any since childhood, in fact I never cared about others and cared more about myself.
As long as I was fine, then I didn't care.
Where did my emotions and feelings go?
Do you know affection?
Yes, I never got that because I didn't know who my own parents were.
Although I used to care and keep finding out about them, now I only care about myself.
Because of the lack of affection, it slowly made my emotions less and less, followed by the disappearance of many feelings within me.
I was empty and hollow, at least that's what I thought of myself.
It's sad, isn't it?
Even worse, I forgot about my own past.
Previously I lived together with a kind-hearted man whom I called father, he was indeed kind, but unfortunately that was it.
Yes, that's it.
And now, he even told me to go to the Highschool of Genius and graduate there.
He doesn't want to talk about my past and seems like he's trying to make me feel better.
I don't know why he did that, but I can't ask because I'm already grateful for my life now.
A boarding school life that might be a bit bleak, but I'm still grateful.
I still love my father because he's the only person who cares about me.
At first I refused to go there, but after listening to her explanation of the school, I thought it was quite interesting.
The Highschool of Genius was a school filled with geniuses and talented people from both academics and athletics.
It's a school that many parents dream of their children attending.
From what my father told me, many people who graduated from the school have won national and international Olympiads, both in academics and athletics.
This was a great opportunity, so I accepted my father's offer.
I would attend the Highschool of Genius to get all the answers.
Then this is where I'll have to test how strong I am compared to other students, but for me it's harder to hold back than to go all out.
My father also told me that if talent is developed then the results will be good, he said that abilities are not there to be shown off but rather used at the right time.
So he told me to always restrain myself and only get serious when I have rivals or people of equal ability.
If they can get me to be serious and bring out my best, that's something to look forward to.