Okay. Now I know for sure something is very wrong with me.
I don't cry. I just don't. No matter how shitty I feel I just don't cry like that. Like max ten years in one sitting.
Also that throwing up. That was just weird and awful.
I think I have to go to the doctor. I really hate going to the doctors. What if I have to go to the hospital again? I think I might prefer death.
Thankfully Ash didn't seem all perturbed about me throwing up. Once whatever just happened stopped he just put me back in bed. Then he grabbed me a bowl to throw up in.
I really was fucking idiot. Only people that love you are gonna take care of you when you're sick. Now he's making soup.
Fuck why am I so emotional. This is just so weird. Ugg. I'm just gonna try to sleep it off.
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*Ash pov*
I am never going to drug him ever again. Didn't know there could be such server reactions.
I called a doctor and confirmed it should be fine once it's out of his system. I'm only really supposed to worry if he has trouble breathing.
I gave him a really small dose. It wasn't supposed to do anything more than make him sleep. Dahm it.
I'm still watching him from my computer. Looks like he just went back to sleep.
I grit my teeth at my genuine stupidity. He can never know.
The only good news about this was it bought me a little time to deal with his parents. They will be on a plane tonight. To a job that they will never get paid for.
Meanwhile I'm having their house bought and doubling their rent. I'm talking to their insurance company, which my family owns, to increase their payments as much as possible.
I'm having someone talk to those loan sharks to hassle them about their debt. Making sure they know not to touch Jax.
Jax will be in his own place by then. I'll set up bodyguards wherever he goes. It'll be best if I can just buy wherever he lives. So he can always afford it.
I can then have it renovated so it isn't completely terrible.
All else fails. I can just convince him to live here. Maybe he'll be more open to it now. Without that bitch around.
Reminds me. I really like to deal with her death personally. I have a couple options to do that. I just don't want Jax to catch me.
What I did with the theater was too much. I accidentally implicated him. I had to bribe a couple people to make it go away. Or my poor Jax might be in a stupid interrogation room now.
I have to make her disappear completely. To do that I need to find the reason for her disappearance. A sex scandal would make people believe she ran away.
That's not enough for me. I need her life to completely fall apart. I want her to cry herself to sleep every night in complete disparity.
Then I'll stake her runaway. I'll make sure she is never found.
She will suffer just as much as Jax's parents will. I will push them past begging to die. They will be dead long before I let their heart stop beating.
This is what they deserve for not returning Jax's love. Jax truly loved that whore. He also really loved his parents. They never gave a damn about him. So this is just what they deserve.
I look at the screen of Jax sleeping peacefully. If only I could have him. Why can't he just love me? He would have everything anyone could ever want.
I don't care if he turns spoiled. I actually prefer that. I want him to spend my money. It'll never be better spent than when being spent by him.
If only.