My head starts aching, it feels like it's being torn apart, my memories flood in in a chaotic tornado crashing down everywhere. I feel like I'm spinning into an endless abyss, screams and shouts flutter everywhere. I don't know if it's from me or someone else, I just want it to end. I feel my hand crash against something then my head bang the floor, I was just greeting a guest, no I just committed suicide? Everything's so confusing, the screaming, the ringing, the pounding, the pain, and the feeling of being sucked in an endless vortex does not help.
The shouting of mom over and over again reverts in my brain, is that Anthon? Who is Anthon? He is my son. When did I have a son? My closed eyes open and I see countless blurred shapes surrounding me, and red metallic blood everywhere. I sigh with a heavy huff and shut my eyes tight. When will this pain end?