"I'm getting what!?" I scream as I look straight into my father's stone-cold gaze. He shows no sight of empathy in his eyes but I can see that he is a little bit irritated at me for being disrespectful and lashing out. But I didn't care.
"you're getting married," he said repeating his previous sentence as he looks down at some papers laying at his desk. I still had my eyes glued in place.
"you can't be serious." I say in disbelief "Is this some kind of joke, because if it is let me tell you that it is not funny in the slightest." I say crossing my arms still glaring at him. He didn't look up at me.
"no, it is not a joke Elvira, you are getting married and that is final," he says still not looking at me.
I can't believe what I'm hearing. I'm getting married to some guy I don't even know. That's ridiculous!
"Why do I have to get married!?" I asked still not getting it. I mean, I am 20 after all. I should be able to make my own decisions. And besides, I have never even left the castle. So would sending me away to get married to some rich, spoiled guy be such a great idea? I have always wanted to get out of this castle to see the world out there but not this way under these circumstances.
"Elvira, we have already gone through this once," he said clenching the pen he was holding.
"no, you didn't actually." I sassed back. He finally looked up at me and our eyes met each other. I wouldn't stop staring though.
"Elvira, I'm doing what is best for you. End of the discussion," he said standing up ready to get out of there.
"but I have the right to know! It's not fair that-"
"Stop, just stop! You are giving me a headache! Why can't you just do as you are told for once in your life," I froze in place. I was in shock by his sudden screaming. I knew that he was going to get mad at me for complaining, but not this mad.
"Just... Do as I say for once. I have already made my decision so there's nothing you can do about it. So if you excuse me, I have a meeting to attend"
Then he left. Leaving me in his empty office all by myself.
How can he do this to me? Marrying his daughter away to someone I don't even know.
I feel tears running down my warm cheeks.
Have I done something wrong? Doesn't he want me here? Doesn't he love me anymore?
Let's be honest. I don't think he ever really loved me. He never really spent time with me or anything. And I don't think I have ever heard him say that he loves me.
The tears won't stop coming.
"I'll just go to my room.." I mumble to myself once more.
I quickly wipe the warm tears off my face and take a deep breath before I stomped out of the office.
I went down the never-ending corridors and up the long stairs. I then walked up to my bedroom door and opened it. I was shocked when I saw that Natalie was sitting on a chair at my desk, beneath my window. She stood up from her seat and smiled warmly when she saw me.
But something doesn't feel right. Her eyes. Do they show some kind of, pity?
"Princess Elvira! How are you feeling your Highness?"
It only took me a few seconds to realize that my mother must have sent her to make me feel better about this whole situation. But obviously, I won't tell Natalie I know.
"what do you want Natalie? I'm not in the mood right now." I say looking at her. Not in the eyes though. I hate when people feel bad for me and I can see it immediately in their stares. My mother always tells me that a person's eyes are like a portal into their soul.
"Nothing, Your Highness. I just wanted to check in on you!" lier.
"I'm fine Natalie. I just want to be left alone right now."
Natalie nodded and then left my room, leaving me alone once more today.
I sigh before I close the door and lock it with my little silver key. I then proceed to lie down on my bed. It was warm and comforting in a way. Like a big hug.
~15 MINUTES LATER~
"Who thought that this would become so boring after a while," I mumble shifting a little bit to the side.
It was like when the comfort from my bed died down, the realization hit me. I am getting married to someone I have never met before. What if he is abusive or something? Or if he is part of a mafia, or maybe he will lock me up in a lonely castle that has no way of me getting down from with nothing but some disgusting liquid as a sad excuse for food, some water, and a pet rat named Rick!
I mean, nothing is impossible, right?
I sit up from my current laying position and straighten my back a bit. My eyes immediately landed on the desk that Natalie sat next to when I first came into the room.
Maybe I should try writing my feelings down on paper or something. I have heard that it's a good way to get your feelings out. I mean, It's worth a shot.
I stand up and slowly walk over to the desk and sit down on the chair. I nervously put a piece of paper in front of me and picked up my white and gray feather pen. I dipped it in some black ink. I thought about what I wanted to write for a minute before I just started writing. I just kept going and going. I let out all my feelings on that little piece of paper and it felt amazing.
When I was done, I put away the feather and changed my dress which had grown more and more uncomfortable the further into the day I got.
I opened the window because it was burning hot inside the room and then I went to bed and fell asleep almost instantly.
If I only knew then how important that letter actually was to this story.