Ugh. Three more classes and I'll he done. Just three more then why does it feel like ten years had already passed?
I made my way to the next class and sat down by the window. Looking down I saw Asher walk passed to the opposite building and suddenly everything that happened yesterday came rushing back to the eyes of my memory.
Flashback..
"What?" His voice was just above a whisper, brows crinkled.
I shook my head giving a sad smile. "Oh you remember now...you now sometimes it baffles me how you sleep at night.
"Look princess-"
"Don't call me that!" "I'm not asking for an apology cause its not going to fix anything so just stay out of my way" I turned and walked back to dorm and once in my room I shut the door and slid down on it.
Why did I tell him who I was? Just three years and a few months I had to hide it and I'd be free. Oh who am I kidding he would've found out sooner or later..
End of flashback..
"-arth to Avery" I heard pulling me back from my thoughts.
"Earth to- oh your back from space" Jack chuckled softly. "So what were you thinking about?"
"Uh, nothing really"
"Come on Ave you can tell me" he pushed
"Just last night.." I trailed off
"Hmm...I got a question tho, why were you about to hook up with Kayden when you told us the other day that he was into Chloe?"
I sighed. "I don't know.. Look I-i guess I wasn't thinking straight and.."
"And.." Jack pressed
"And well maybe I wanted her to see how it feels to be me for a change" he quirked a brow and I continued "like this is going to sound stupid but her life is so perfect she's always the one getting all the guys and well as childish as this is I think I was a little bit jealous" I mumbled the last part biting my lip whilst looking down.
Jack opened his mouth to say something but I cut him off.
"I know I know that was a stupid move but I just wasn't thinking okay?"
Jack pursed his lips before speaking. "Look as a guy it means so much less than for a girl to do that to her friend and yes that was stupid move but trust me if I was s- I mean if I didn't have my eyes on someone else I would've gone for you. Your beautiful and believe me when I say every guy would be lucky to be with you so do away with the insecurities yeah?"
"Your the best" I moved to hug him.
"And you better believe it" he said laughing
Asher's POV
"Dude you going home this break?" Hunter asked and the memories of my 'mum' hit me
"Nah I think I'll just stay here"
Dude come on, if your not going home then at least come with us to the beach house bruh"
"Yeah" Colt agreed
"Fine I'll think about it"
After saying our good byes I drove back to campus and dreading the moment I'll have to meet with Avery.
I sighed.
Back in high school I was this monster. I woke up every morning hating myself for what my other half did. You see I was messed up- no fucked up in so many ways. I had split personality disorder. And I had it bad, it made me do all sorts of things that I wasn't proud off.
Everyday I'd wake up myself thinking its finally over but the moment I stepped into school I switched and and I'd come back home switching back. For years it went on and my parents had no clue and in time, I learnt to live with it until that day I was flipping through channels and it landed on the news. Something caught my eyes. A body of a girl the reporter said jumped off a bridge. And some of my school mates testifying that she jumped after being bullied by someone.
Asher Blackwood.
I remember feeling my blood turn to ice. I had no memory of bullying her. The next day, the police came to take me away and that was when everyone found out that I had SPD. I remember changing schools and going to therapy.
It worked. I was finally cured but not without living with the thought that I killed someone. The nightmares reflecting images of her pale skin, haunting me every night.
And to top it off, two years later, the so called dead girl resurfaces.
°°°°°
Entering the dorm, I saw her sitting on the couch with a lap top in hand on her lap.
"Hey.."
She looked up at me with a blank expression before looking back to whatever she was doing.
"Hey look I know your mad at me but if you'd just give me a chance to explain when I take you out tomorrow night, that'd be great"
She sighed. Hey, at least I was trying
After a moment she answered. "Fine" and with that she picked up her macbook a retired to her room and I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding.
In my room after showering, I got my phone scrolling through Facebook when a notification popped up at the top of my screen from messages. I tap it and when it opened, I cursed myself for making these mistakes.
It was from my 'mother'. Another invite 'home' and I sighed. I blocked this number too, put my phone down and went to bed, clutching onto my one of the other pillows on my bed like I usually do, I drifted off slowly to sleep and for the first time, I didn't dream about a dead girl's closed eyes but rather the open ones of my princess.