"Hey"
"Hey"
She sat down looking him straight in the eyes and trying to stop the weird fluttering of her heart from his intense stare.
"Listen princess--"
"Get to the point" for a moment she thought she was rather harsh but decided against it when she thought back to the past she should really let go off.
Asher sighed. "I know your mad at me right now but if you would just hear me out.."
"Well that's why I'm here isn't it"
"Okay then. Well for starters you see I um. He sighed once more. " I had a SPD" gulping he continued. "It was bad, really bad. I don't really like to talk about it but well you see I did things" he ran his hands through his hair as the memories came rushing back once again. "Things I wasn't proud of when I eventually found out that is. My parents-- well they didn't really care or pay much attention to me often and look I'm not saying this to earn a pity party but I'm saying this to let you know that i'm sorry and I know I can't take back all the pain I caused you but I really am sorry.."
"Sorry" Avery started trying to get the feel of the word on her tongue and somehow into her head and past the stone wall she built around her chest.
With a sad smile she continued. "I know I'm not the first person to get bullied but you didn't just cause me pain you caused me my life" she hiccupped. "My family"
"Every time I got home late, I would get a beating from my dad. I also had problems too you know and when my mom found out she would go after my dad and then we'd both get beat shitless. Do you remember the day you- you caused the piano in the gallery to fall on me?. With a humourless laughed she went on. " I almost died that day and my parent were..already struggling and guess what happened when they found out I got myself in an 'accident'? They freaked and when the police got involved my dad blamed my mum for all my past injuries and surprisingly she agreed and noe I think about it, I guess it was just to get away from that monster and that's how she left my life for supposed 'child abuse' and after that when I got better that day-- the day you told me to die.. Guess what? I did."
Asher's mouth hung open unable to get any words out as images of the day on the news came back. He wasn't even aware of all this. "I- I did that?"
Avery nodded slowly afraid if she spoke then she would just burst out of emotions
With a humourless chuckle asher scoffed. "Funny, that would just be another death on my name" Avery looked confused trying to figure out what he meant which thankfully he elaborated.
"I was sixteen at the time. It was my older brothers birthday Ace. He didn't want to celebrate it but I told him I had a surprise planed and took him to the back of the house. He complied and that's when other me took over. From the constant voices, I learnt that he was jealous of Ace and I realised that I made a big mistake. All I remember was opening my eyes to see my hands covered in blood and my brother in a pool of it, his head dented." A tear slipped down his face but Avery moved to whipe it off.
Asher eyes caught hers and they stayed like that for a while just lost in each others dark and deep gazes and allowing their messed up past to engulf them whole.
Avery leaned in and placed a soft kiss on his forhead. "Let's go home"
The car ride was silent as expected and the dorm was even more silent as they both headed to their rooms, each stopping in front of their doors and looked at looked at each other taking in their states. Without a word, their gaze was broken and the sound of shut doors were the last thing to be heard and they only thing they could see were the ceilings above their beds as sleep later but eventually came.