From: Perverted Germaphobe
I'm on my way now.
I bought ingredients for curry.
Want me to pick you up or let's just meet at your place?
See you in a bit.
I miss you Kei.
I couldn't suppress my smile when I saw Kiyoomi-san's messages when I got off from work. I was about to reply when I saw him from a distance staring at me. He's wearing a black high neck long sleeve t-shirt and black Jagger pants with his mask on like the usual but he still looked good. The girls swooning at his sight when they passed by him is the proof.
"Good work today." He said when I get close to him. I couldn't see his face fully but I can tell just from his eyes that he's smiling.
"I thought you bought something? Where are your things?" I asked when we're walking to the station.
"I went to your place first to drop off my things and come here to pick you up." He said casually that made my wayward heart swooned like those girls I saw while giving him second glances.
Ever since I become aware of my feelings for him, I notice some of his attributes that I didn't see before. Yes, he is still perverted in bed but when we're just doing nothing, Kiyoomi-san is actually sweet and attentive. He takes care of me like a lover would do. He's very affectionate to the point that I couldn't really tell what are we anymore.
"Why?" Why are you making me fall deeper and harder with you? I asked leaving the last question to myself.
Kiyoomi-san looked around first before he grabbed my hand and drag me in a dark alley. He shoved me gently in the cold concrete and pull down his mask. Without further ado, he claimed my lips hungrily as if we haven't seen each other for so long when in fact, he's been coming here in Sendai more than usual with or without us having sex. Most of the times he just wanted to sleep over.
He pulled away when we run out of breath and gaze at me with a sweet smile on his lips.
"That's my answer." He whispered before holding my hand and walked to the station like nothing happened.
Something changed between us that's for sure but we both chose to not talk about it. I don't know his reasons why he's been acting like he has feelings for me lately but I don't want to ask coz I might be wrong. I might be just assuming things just because I'm feeling something for him.
You'll never know if you won't ask.
I remembered Akaashi-san said that to me when I told him what's been going on with me and Kiyoomi-san lately.
If truth to be told, I'm scared to ask him why he changed. I'm afraid to hear his answer. Cause whether we both feel the same or not, I still decided not to take away his future from him.
Yeah, I am more than willing to be used by that sadistic diapered-asshole's game once more. That's why I'm letting myself fall even more deeper to Kiyoomi-san. But I don't want to trap him in this fruitless relationship.
I want him to have his own family and someday maybe I'll do the same and just keep our memories to myself. We still can make happy memories without trapping ourselves in a superficial label that will only make everything complicated. I want to avoid the inevitable by keeping quiet and cherishing what we have right now.
He cooked dinner for us when we get home and had a few drinks while watching Schweiden's recorded match and talked random things about volleyball.
"After I watch your match with Schweiden during Hinata's debut, I thought to myself that I would really love to block at least one of your spikes." I said over drinks.
He smiled. "Me too. When we're still in high school. I was hoping to have a match with you back then coz I want to see in action whoever it is managed to block Wakatoshi's spike."
I felt a rush of nostalgia to that point in my life when I got really hooked with volleyball.
"That time, I thought that it's just one point out of twenty-five. This is just a club. Then I remembered Bokuto-san's story about that 'moment' when he fell in love with volleyball. When I managed to block one of Ushijima-san's spike, I thought, ah! So, this is the 'moment' he was talking about."
I looked at him after I said that and got a little conscious when I saw him watching me intently with a fascinated smile on his lips as if I'm telling something amusing.
"Did I sound weird?" I asked that made him chuckle.
"No. I just thought that it's nice to know more something about you, Kei. It's nice staring at you while you're reminiscing your best moment in volleyball. I guess that one point was the reason why you're still into volleyball."
I smiled. "Maybe."
He put down the can of beer I'm holding and pulled me closer so I could lean my back on him while he's resting his chin on my shoulders.
"Hey Kei..."
"Hmm?" I tried to act calm when in fact, my heart is running amok with this sweetness of his again.
"You should smile more like this. I love it when you smile for me." He whispered enough for me to hear.
"Yeah, as if I'll cry for you." I rebuffed that made him bit my neck and suck it hardly making me feel that familiar pain and pleasure that I only felt with him.
He tilted his head a little to meet my gaze after marking me with eyes full of sincerity "As if I'll make you cry."
I thought we will do 'it' but even after sharing a passionate kiss, we didn't do it and just cuddle in bed still talking about random things about us until we fell asleep hugging each other like we're lovers.
That night, I had a very weird dream. It was about when I got wasted for the first time and I didn't know who I end up sleeping with. But in my dream, I saw Kiyoomi-san. He was looking at me like the way he does every now and then, the fond look that makes my heart beats erratically. And I'm on his arms crying my heart out because of Yamaguchi. He just let me even though I could see that he's not comfortable seeing mixed tears and snots on my face that somehow, I find it funny.
I couldn't recall what happened in my dreams when I woke up, but the words he keeps on whispering while making love with me, I clearly remembers it all the moment I opened my eyes, as if they really happened in real life.
That would really freak me out if that happened in real life. I whispered in my head and turn to my side facing Kiyoomi-san.
A sweet smile cracked my lips while staring to the sleeping man beside me and trace his pointed nose with my finger. He slowly opened his sleepy eyes before shutting it once again after pulling me closer to him even more while murmuring the same set of words that I heard him say in my dreams and went back to sleep leaving me quite confused.
"I'll keep you."