[suicide]
when Callus woke up he saw a familiar face it was Lorain and she was the last one he saw
before everything went dark-
she had killed him- Xavier was right!
Callus eyes widen
"Lorain?!" he shouted
"Yeah it's me Cal is something wrong?" she replied
"No I just had a nightmare-" he replied
"Oh- you've had a lot of those lately- this worries me Cal I hoped you were getting better- this really isn't good for your health" she replied
"I have them often?" he replied
"Yeah you don't sleep well- because of it
and you're already weak and sickly- you been like this ever since the incident-" she replied
"the incident?!" he replied
"You really forgot huh? I found you on the ground paralyzed I'm not sure how you ended up in that state but I still had to help you
I've been taking care of you since-" she replied
Paralyzed?! that's right this was the past
he was paralyzed in his last life
"thanks for taking care of me Lorain you really didn't have to- I'm just a piece of trash and worthless-" he replied
"Cal- I don't like you talking like this- someday you'll have some one who loves and cares about you" she replied
"but don't you love and care about me?" he replied
"of course I do you're my cousin- and you're like a younger brother to me- but what I meant was a lover maybe you'll have a wife someday-" she replied
a wife?!- why would he still want one?
his last one put him in that state
"why would I want a wife?" he replied
"don't you want someone to take care of you?
besides me?" she replied
"not really- I don't really care about that sort of thing- I'm just happy with you-" he replied
"aw that's sweet Cal but I can't always be here for you- and I have someone who is close to my heart-" she replied
Xavier- this was the past
he wasn't his yet
"who is this person you're spending all your time with? am I not important anymore?" he replied
"of course you're important Cal- but he is the love of life and maybe someday you'll know what's that like-" she replied
yeah and you're stealing him from me-
but he wasn't his yet-
"Yeah right- I'll never have someone like that-" he replied
"that's not true and you know it- I can see her in your heart-" she replied
could she see his wife?- did he really still love her?-
"who are you talking about?-" he replied
"your future wife of course-" she replied
"You're delusional- I don't have a future wife" he replied
at least not anymore- zavi said that he was his husband- and he only imagined it
none of that was real
"then who's the one in the wedding dress?" she replied
Xavier- it's Xavier!-
"I don't know- and how do you know it's a woman?" he replied
"You do know- I can tell when you're lieing and I was sure it was a woman- but maybe I'm wrong?-" she replied
Yeah it's a guy! - why did she have to see him in it?! and how did she not realize?-
did Xavier look different now?
"Ok you got me but I'm not telling you anything I'll have you figure it out on your own" he replied
"why can't you just tell me who she is?-" she replied
"I won't tell you unless you tell me about this guy-" he replied
"You mean the one I'm in love with?- yeah sure- his name is Xavier and he's a really sweet guy-" she replied
ha if she only knew-
"Yeah I can't tell you anything about "her" " he replied
"why not? and Cal what's with the air quotes?" she replied
"because Lorain she simply doesn't exist-" he replied
"how do you know that Cal?-" she replied
"because I made her up-" he replied
"maybe you had a vision and you just don't want to believe it-" she replied
that's the future?!
"it was just a dream- it's just what I wish was real but that will never happen-" he replied
"how do you know that? maybe it will be real one day-" she replied
"I'm never going to have a wife or a child" he replied
[Xavier and Callus commentary]
"yet here you are- though you ended up with two husbands instead -" Xavier replied
"Yep so that means you're the one who ended up a wife-" Callus replied
"we both had wives Cal-" Xavier replied
"I know that Zavi but did we have a child with them?" Callus replied
"No-but what does that have to do with it?"
"Zavi- who did you have a child with?-"
Xavier's eyes widen it took him a second to realize what he meant
"oh- oh!-you're not implying what I think you are- are you?-" Xavier replied
"Yes zavi I have accepted my title known as male-wife-" Callus replied
"but weren't you one who said you f*ck me ?"
"I lied-" Callus replied
"really?" Xavier replied
"Nope jk! I'm definitely going to f*ck you and then you'll f*ck me-plus it doesn't really matter- does it?" callus replied
"no I guess not-you can be both if you want-" he replied
"then that means you also have to play wife-"
"or we can just be husband and husband-"
"or wife and wife-" Callus replied]
"don't say that you never know- but you know what they say fate is not what it seems" she replied
Callus's eyes widen
she said it! she said it!
he did hear it from her
he took two things from her!
"Hey I might use that someday-" he replied
"so you'll believe it then?" she replied
"Yeah because it's true I never thought I see you again- I missed you-" he replied
it didn't really matter if she killed him
she was always there for him
if Xavier hurt him he could always turn to her
maybe he was a fool to blindly trust her
but she was his only support- besides Xavier
and he wanted to trust Xavier- but he didn't know anything about him- he wasn't who he thought he was- and Lorain never hurt him
ok that wasn't entirely true- but she didn't hurt him like he did- and it was hard to tell what was real at this point- he wanted to believe that it was just a dream- but it felt so real
and everything that he just went through just felt like a dream- and he didn't believe it
-but there was so much that confused him
what was the true deal with Malik?
he wanted to say that he just made him up
but Xavier knew him- or maybe he made that up too - maybe it was all a crazy dream
but the pain he felt was real-
he no idea what was real anymore
"Yeah I missed you too Cal- I thought you wouldn't make it- I was so scared- I don't know what I do if I lost you" she replied
"Yeah me either- so you'll stay with me?" he replied
"I'm not going anywhere Cal-" she replied
"good then tell me everything about him" he replied
"alright I will" she replied
the two of them spent there time together
Lorain took care of callus and they talked often and she told him everything about Xavier- it sort of got annoying
and he already couldn't wait anymore
"Hey Lor can I meet him? Xavier was it?" He replied
"Yeah of course Cal you're going to love him" she replied
"ha- I can't wait and if you're not careful I might just take him from you" he replied
"You wouldn't-" she replied
"I would-" he replied
"why are you the gay cousin?" she replied
"I'm only interested in him because you are- that doesn't mean I'm gay" he replied
"Ok if you say so-" she replied
"I'm not gay though-" he replied
"you're in denial-" she replied
"I am not- it's your fault you talk about him constantly how can I not be interested?" he replied
"Yeah- I get it- but I can't do anything if you fall for him-" she replied
"I'm not going to fall for him-" he replied
"don't jinx yourself" she replied
"I'm not going to take him from you-" he replied
"You better not- because we're getting married" she replied
"married?!" He shouted
"Well not yet- but I want him to be my husband " she replied
"oh how do you know he won't be my husband first?" he replied
"Hey! You said you wouldn't-" she replied
"I lied-" he replied
"I thought you weren't gay?" she replied
"I don't really know what I am- but if I fall him it doesn't mean I'm gay- and I had a wife-" he replied
"You had a wife?!" she shouted
"in a past life-" he replied
he wasn't going to tell her that he ended up paralyzed because of her-
"Oh that's nice- then doesn't that mean you would be cheating on her?" she replied
"not if she's not in love with me- and she doesn't know me-" he replied
"Yeah I guess and I'm sure she loved you" she replied
"I know-" he replied
she told him that lie constantly-
she didn't love him
and he was the one who was a piece of trash?
she just wasn't fair
at least Lorain cared for him- she made him happy- it was like having a older sister
she tucked him in for the night
he closed his eyes and drifted off
he get to meet him- Xavier
what would he be like?
he didn't even know what he looked like
and when he met him he was surprised
he was so adorable! he wanted to pet him
and hug him
Xavier looked into his eyes
callus felt his heart beat-
"this is Xavier and Xavier this is Callus my cousin" she replied
Xavier turned bright red
"um what's this don't tell me you fell for me already that break her heart-" he replied
"Cal! hey Xavier just ignore him he's always like this- he does it to spite me" she replied
"it's alright Lorain I can handle it I won't be swept away by him I always love you" Xavier replied
"You'll fall for me someday- just you wait Zavi" he replied
"Zavi?!" Xavier shouted
"Hey don't call him that Cal- he doesn't like it" she replied
"who said I didn't like it? it just surprised me and he can call me it I don't mind" Xavier replied
"I thought you wouldn't be persuaded by him?" she replied
"it's just a nickname" Xavier replied
"next it will be jokes and that will turn into teasing-and then into flirting-" she replied
"that will never happen-" Xavier replied
"why wouldn't it? come on zavi-" he replied
"like I said before ignore him Xavier" she replied
"it's not like he's hurting me- so it's fine" Xavier replied
"don't blame me if you fall for him" she replied
"I love you Lor I wouldn't fall for him-" Xavier replied
"Oh yeah? what makes you think that you won't? you know what they say fate is not what it seems" he replied
"is that your pick up line? where did you come up with that?" Xavier replied
"it's a saying- and one that I believe in-" He replied
"why is that? doesn't fate always turn out the way it was supposed to?" Xavier replied
"No just because it seems like one thing will go a certain way doesn't mean it will- that's why I believe in the saying-" he replied
"Well you aren't going to make me say it" Xavier replied
"why not Zavi? it will be our special saying" he replied
"No it won't- and if we ever f*ck I'm not being the bottom-" Xavier replied
"Xavier! you wouldn't!- I thought you wouldn't- fall for him?" she replied
"who said I fell him and it's just f*cking- and I don't want that with you- I was only taught about gay sex-" Xavier replied
"what the hell Xavier?!" she shouted
"Yeah what the heck Zavi?" Callus replied
"wow zavi- I love it- you can f*ck me anytime you want-" he replied
Lorain: *internal screaming*
"I'll take you up on it callus-" Xavier replied
"so we're on first name basis?" he replied
"Well because we are friends right?" Xavier replied
"ouch Zavi friend zoning me? I thought we were going to f*ck?" he replied
"It's called friends with benefits-" Xavier replied
"oh- what does that mean?" he asked
"it means we can do whatever we want to eachother- such as hand jobs and blow jobs" Xavier replied
"so you let me touch your cock?" he replied
"Yeah if you want- and I can touch you right?" Xavier replied
"Oh yeah- Zavi you can do whatever you want to me-suck my cock touch it- and anything else you want- I'm all yours" he replied
"then Can I suck on your nipples?" Xavier replied
callus turned bright red
"don't you do that with Lorain?" he replied
"No- I don't want that I don't want to have a sexual relationship- with a woman-" Xavier replied
"why don't you?" he asked
"because It's not as fun- and I don't want that type of relationship with her- I want to love her with out those things-" Xavier replied
"but isn't this cheating?" he replied
"it doesn't count because you are a guy-" Xavier replied
"I don't think that's how it works-" he replied
"Well it isn't like she doesn't know- I already told her-" Xavier replied
"but are you sure she's okay with it?" He replied
"It's fine- if you want to do it I don't mind-" she replied
"You don't? you're really ok with this Lor?" he replied
"Yeah- but I still get him back-" she replied
"I'll give him back when I'm satisfied" he replied
Callus and Xavier's true past unlocked
callus couldn't believe all this-
he knew Xavier before- and they- they-
were f*ck buddies!-
of course they were shameless back then too
- and Lorain was always in the background
he successfully stole him from her!
Lorain was probably so pissed
but she learned to deal with it
she loved them both
and they were happy together so be it
but Callus felt a little pity for her
he took the one she loved
would she ever find anyone else?
but he didn't know that she had a past
with someone else
but her memories of them together were erased- she was only able to remember her now- she wasn't sure why - but she still didn't remember everything- but she knew that they loved eachother- but something happened and she forgot her and fell for Xavier
and he only loved her once- he made her believe that they were soulmates
but then this stuff happened!
it was always Callus!- he stole him from her!
she didn't know that they were related until now- she remembered that she killed him
and honestly she was glad she didn't give a f*ck about him anymore he destroyed everything for her! he took away what was hers! - but she realized that he wasn't a good person like he made her believe- he was actually a monster- and he took away their happy ending- and she couldn't be happy
she couldn't be happy with either one
they both were monsters
- but she didn't care anymore
as long as one of them could make her happy
but she wasn't sure how to make that choice
she was supposed to be with Xavier
but her heart was with Llya
if she chose Llya she have to kill Xavier
and she did- so does that mean she chose her?
but would she really get her happy ending?
could she really trust a demon?
they had many lives together-
even if see couldn't remember them all
she could feel their connection
Malik was also apart of this past
and he was an obverser like always
he taught Xavier everything about gay sex
- and to think that his lessons worked
- he always watched his brother in the shadows
and when he found out about these two he was surprised and jealous
and he couldn't let this go on forever
so he killed Xavier and made it seem like suicide- Lorain was the one to find his body
she saw the note and picked it up
"I'm sorry Lorain- I should have listened to you
but I ended being swept away by your cousin huh? who thought- I even promised our whole life together- maybe even a kid but I ended up changing my mind- I couldn't take that kind of commitment- so I lied to you and myself
and maybe things will turn out different in the next life- Xavier
Lorain broke down into tears
"This isn't fair Zavi! why couldn't you just be honest?- I know you fell for him- if you want to be happy with him you can- why did you have to end it?-" she shouted
when she went to visit Cal she wasn't her usual self
callus looked at her
"Hey Lorain what's wrong? and where's zavi?" he asked
her eyes widen
"he's gone- I'm so sorry Cal- I don't get what he was thinking- he loved you so much-
and it was too much to take- because that's not how it was supposed to happen-
he planned out our lives together-
but then he fell for you- and he kept lying to himself- and he couldn't take it anymore-" she replied
"No- he can't be dead- he made a promise to you!- just because I loved him- didn't mean he had to love me back- Zavi- how- can I be so important?- I'm not even supposed to yours-
and you aren't mine either I took you away from her-" he replied
Lorain wrapped her arms around him
"It's ok Cal I know you didn't mean to- take him- but fate is not what it seems huh?" she replied
"it really isn't- it but is that what it has to mean? how many times will he die?" he replied
"I don't know but maybe you can be happy together someday-" she replied
"it doesn't seem possible- Lorain- he's supposed to be with you anyway-" he replied
"but you love you him don't you? and he loves you too- if he didn't- he would have still been alive-" she replied
"but did he really have to end it?" he replied
"No he didn't but it's what he believed- and he was scared- but maybe you can change that-
and love him-" she replied
when Callus woke up he was in tears
it hurt so much-
he had lost Xavier so many times now-
he tried to move his arms
but he couldn't move at all-
he was completely paralyzed
- he remembered this-
he saw the hospital room
he was hooked up to a machine
and at his bedside table was strawberries and roses
he didn't want to be here- he want to go back to Xavier-
he looked down and there was a book resting on his chest-
the title was- Fate is what it seems
someone had either read it to him
or helped him read it- since he was paralyzed
but was it really true what the book was saying? how can fate be what it seems?
why had he been saying the opposite then?
what exactly was this book about?
but from the title it couldn't be like what he went through- and he wanted to read it
but he still couldn't move
- he hated this just let me go back!
he didn't have anything here
and he didn't want to she her again
she probably try to apologize and try to win him back- but he wouldn't let her control him anymore- it didn't matter if the one he fell in love with was fictional- and maybe it wasn't perfect- but at least he loved him
and he just wanted to be happy-
but that wasn't possible- it was short lived
the ending was always brutal
-there was one where they were happy
but he believed it was just a dream
and if he ended up doing it in the brothel
he would have been burned alive
- so instead they got married
-but they didn't f*ck on their honeymoon
they did something better
-they ended up cuddling afterwards
-when he woke up he still was holding Xavier
-callus told him everything
-Xavier comforted him
- They f*cked
-callus questioned it
-it happened
-Xavier tried to warn him about Lorain
-Xavier went to the courtyard with her
- he didn't come back
-he didn't come back!
-callus went to the courtyard
-callus caught Xavier in his arms
-Xavier said his final words
-Xavier died
-Xavier died!
-Callus cried
-Lorain comforted him
-Lorain killed him
-Lorain killed him!
-callus remembered Lorain
-Lorain was his cousin!
-he met Xavier
-he met Xavier! this was their first meeting
-they were f*ck buddies!
-Xavier killed himself
-Lorain told him
-they both cried
-Lorain told him to love him
-Callus woke up
-callus cried
-callus recognized his surroundings
-he was in the hospital!
-he was still paralyzed!
-he saw a book
-the title is fate is what it seems
-doesn't believe that
he was now stuck here
and he couldn't do anything
so he closed his eyes and drifted off