Xavier looked down at Callus
he was proud of him- Callus was able to show his true feelings despite how hard it was
Xavier wanted to kiss him but he wasn't sure he was ready for it yet- he has never kissed anyone- he's only ever felt these things for him
the only other person he got along with was Llya and he didn't feel that way about her
especially since the one he loves loved her
he was afraid to lose him again
the blind obsession he had for her
he hated it because he pushed away his true feelings- and wasn't willing to open up
he was scared that he would never get through to him- but he did - but how long would it last?- what if he was hated again?
that wouldn't happen, right?
Callus loves him and he loves him
he doesn't love Lyla anymore
Xavier leaned down and kissed Callus's cheek
Callus turned bright red
"We are no longer friends we're practically lovers" Xavier replied
"lovers?- isn't it too soon?-I-" Callus replied
"No- I can tell how much you care for me and I know it's hard for you but you already used the l word so there's no backing out now" he replied
"I- didn't-" Callus replied
"You know you can't lie to me- I can read your mind remember?" he replied
"f*ck that's not fair-" Callus replied
"I know but it's hard not to" he replied
"You just like reading my mind don't you?" Callus replied
"Yeah-it makes it easier to tease you-" he replied
"then tease me more" Callus replied
"You're getting bolder- by the day but I like it" he replied
"kiss me-" Callus replied
"Cal- are you sure?- I- have never kissed anyone-" he replied
"oh- well, then why not try?" Callus replied
Callus leaned his head up and kissed him
and when their lips touched
he felt his heartbeat and he heard Xavier's too
Callus pushed his tongue in Moving back and forth his eyes rolled back in pleasure
only Callus made him feel this way-
and it's always his tongue- he enjoyed it
when he moved back his tongue he wiggled it
bringing him more pleasure and when he released he couldn't help but moan
"Ah- f*ck Cal you are getting bolder"
he replied
"we're lovers now-" Callus replied
"Yes we are-" he replied
Xavier leaned down and kissed his lips
then slowly backed up and Callus took his lips back their lips couldn't separate and they continued to make out and then their tongues
wrapped around each other and moved back and forth never letting go
when they finally released they both moaned in ecstasy
"damn - Cal - that was amazing-" he replied
"I could never get enough of you- you taste so good- Zavi" Callus replied
"Who Is the shameless one now?" He replied
"You are- with your moaning-" Callus replied
"While I can't help it when you're so good- Cal" he replied
"I can't help it either I like the way you taste-" Xavier replied
"What do I taste like?" he asked
"Cherry pie-"Callus replied
"Cherry pie?" he replied
"I like the tartness-bitter and sweet-sugary" Callus replied
"I'm glad I suit your tastes-" he replied
"What do I taste like to you?" Callus asked
"strawberries-" he replied
mint actually- at least I can get away with lying- he can't read my mind -
"And what do I smell like?" Callus asked
"roses" he replied
lilac /lavender
I don't know why I'm lying- but at least it's not anything big-
"so I smell like roses and taste like strawberries?" Callus asked
"Yes-" he replied
No-
"I'm glad I suit your tastes too" Callus replied
I- don't like roses or strawberries-
why am I lying?-
"Yeah- what do you like about me Cal?" He asked
"I like how honest you are and your shamelessness-and how caring you are" Callus replied
I- lied though- I hate roses and strawberries
"I like that about you too- and you're fun to tease-" he replied
"I want you to tease me more-" Callus replied
"Cal you like me teasing you don't you?" he replied
"Yes-" Callus replied
I know he wanted to say no but he can't get away with lying- I'm not being fair -
he's going to think I like strawberries and roses - forever- I will just have to hide the evidence well- put it in the dump burn it flush it down the toilet- that's how much I hate those things- I don't why though- maybe because of a past relationship?- but I don't remember it-
but then again I don't remember anything before Callus - so it's possible and I'm guessing I didn't like them- whoever they were
I love Callus but I don't want those kinds of things from him- I rather spoil him-
but I don't know what he likes besides me-
I don't even know what I like-
but I hate roses and strawberries-
with a burning passion- maybe I don't like girly things?-
though I'm curious what Callus would look like in a dress- PFT
I really imagined that?! [Real Xavier]
why- am I thinking of that?!-
what the heck is wrong with me?!
he would kill me if I tried-
but would he wear it on his own?
probably not- only in my fantasies-
why do I like that?!
I'm a pervert-
I wonder how he fantasizes about me-
probably naked- at least I see him in a dress-
we are both perverts- he probably still does
and we both still are and I wouldn't mind seeing him naked 😏
"um- Xavier what are you thinking?- I can't read your mind remember" Callus replied [the real Callus replied as well]
"I imagined you in a dress?-" [real Xavier]
"Yeah and made me wear one once - and it was our wedding- our first wedding that is-"
"first wedding?" [real Xavier]
"Well the second wedding we wore suits- and Malik was a part of it- we gave each other our rings and Malik signed a paper- you both kissed me on the cheek- that was of course after our vows- that we had written- it- was so perfect- but I should know that it wouldn't last forever- as they say fate is not what it seems- anyway on with the story-" [real Cal half breaks down]
"how cute you would look in a dress" he replied
Callus punched him in the stomach
"I would skin you alive before you tried" Callus replied
"I know but would you? just once?" he replied
"fine- if that's what you want- but only once" Callus replied
"and it was a wedding dress-" [real Zavi]
"good and I'll let you choose- since probably shouldn't trust a pervert like me" he replied
"that's exactly why- I wouldn't let you choose-" Callus replied
"I know- but I least have the decency to imagine you in clothes-" he replied
"Hey!- it's not my fault your body is temping- and it's not clothes it's a dress-" Xavier replied
"your body is temping too Cal-" [Real Xavier]
"Zavi!-Your shamelessness never ceases to exist-" [ Real Cal]
"And you love me for it-" [Real Xavier]
"that I do-"[ Real Cal replied and kissed him and Xavier kissed him back passionately-]
"damn Cal I want you so badly-" [Real Xavier]
"so do I Zavi but I have to finish the story- we can't f*ck yet-" [ Real Cal ]
"It's making love- not that foul word-" [Real Xavier]
"and that's why I love you Zavi" [Real Cal hugging him tight and then letting go]
"sorry- the heat of the moment-" [Real Cal]
"It's alright Cal it was nice- and I'm not scared anymore- I've grown comfortable- even though I don't remember everything it feels as if I've known you for years-" [ Real Xavier]
"still not nothing- you're wearing a dress- and I'm naked-" he replied
"I can't help it- okay?- and you imagining me in a dress is worse-" Callus replied
"how is that worse you aren't naked" he replied
"What's wrong with me seeing you naked?" Callus replied
"I-it's embarrassing- I don't feel comfortable-" he replied
"it's just me seeing your body no one else" Callus replied
"I know but I don't like seeing it- imagine if you could see what I think of you" he replied
"I already did and I'm horrified" Callus replied
"That's how I feel too" he replied
"then stop reading my mind" Callus replied
"that's easier said than done I can't control it and I see whatever you show me" he replied
"I don't like this-why can't I read your mind too?" Callus asked
"I just told you what I was thinking and you already imagined it- do you want that again?" he replied
"Yeah no- but I'm still curious about what goes on in that head of yours-" Callus replied
"You don't want to trust me-" he replied
"isn't mine worse?-" Callus asked
"Yes- it is- but I still don't think you could handle it-" he replied
"What are you hiding?" Callus asked
"Nothing I'm not hiding anything" he replied
"I don't believe you" Callus replied
"What could I be hiding from you? I have always told you everything" he replied
"then have you started to remember anything?" Callus asked
"I have- haven't- like I said I only remember you-" he replied
"You're lying- you remember something you just won't tell me-" Callus replied
"then promise me you won't get mad when I tell you-" he replied
"I won't- I promise" Callus replied
"I think I was with someone before but I didn't like them and they always sent me roses and strawberries- the truth is I hate them- and I'm sorry I said you were like that- you taste like mint and smell like lavender " he replied
"Why did you lie?" Callus asked
"I don't know- why I did- maybe because of a bad relationship I had?- wait- I'm remembering-" he replied shaking
"It's painful, isn't it?- what happened?" Callus asked
"I think I had a girlfriend- she always sent me roses and strawberries but things between me and her got bad- we got into a fight- and that's how I became paralyzed- she was the one who put me in that state and she still sent roses and strawberries which made everything worse because it reminded me of everything and when I think of roses and strawberries I'm reminded of her- that's why I hate them so much- but I think I choose strawberries and roses is because of her- and I realize- how much of a cruel person she was" he replied in tears
Callus wrapped his arms around Xavier
"Hey- It's ok- I'm here Zavi" Callus replied
"I know- I'm sorry-" he replied
"don't be Zavi I love you" Callus replied
"You said it again- please tell me you mean it-" He replied
"I do- I love you Zavi I don't who that woman was who did that to you but If I found out who I would - make them pay- I can't believe that woman loved you if she did that to you because I wouldn't- I never hurt you-" Callus replied
"I know Cal I love you too" he replied
within that moment Callus's eyes closed and he fainted Xavier caught him in his arms
"I became "paralyzed" because of a past relationship?-" Xavier replied
"Well, it's past now but you were with me and Gared at the same time- and I was with Malik and David was it?" Callus replied
"It's was Drew Cal Drew-" Xavier replied
"you cheated on your wife with three men" Callus replied
"I had a wife?" Xavier replied
"Zavi did you forget?-" Callus replied
"It's- kinda complicated- I'm starting to remember somethings but- I'm also forgetting as well-" Xavier replied
"But they- were also close to my heart-
Well-I'm thinking about bringing Malik next week- but if you don't want him here or aren't ready- I won't force you-" Callus replied
"I like that- Cal and what is it we used to call drew?" Xavier replied
"Rudi- but Zavi- I just have a feeling that he's not coming back- I miss him but- I know that I have you and Mai- and it makes me happy-" Callus replied
"I'm glad Cal- though I wish I could do something about him- your happiness is important-" Xavier replied
"I'm happy with how things are- Zavi I am- even if you can't remember everything" Callus replied
"Well I remember you that's important and all that matters-" Xavier replied
"you're right Zavi I love you-" he replied
"Love you too Cal-" Xavier replied and pecked his lips goodbye Callus felt his heart flutter
it felt good to be loved