I was suddenly in a grassy area that somehow seemed familiar to me, but have no memory of it whatsoever. To be specific, it looks to be a cliff and looking down, I could see water extending as far as I can see.
Where am I? What am I doing here? Where's everyone at?
I feel a few presence behind me.
It's Miyuki, Yoshito, and Eri standing a couple of feet away from me. All of them have such sad expressions.
"I'm really sorry, Yasuhito! Please forgive me." Miyuki began to shout, while crying.
What the hell.
"Please wake up…" Eri whispered, as tears were falling in her eyes.
My eyes are already open, what's going on?!
This has to be another weird dream of mine, I've been having a couple of them recently, it's quite difficult to explain them though. Maybe this is reminding me of the day Miyuki told me her and Yoshito are together, but why is Eri tearing up?
"I'm really sorry, Yasuhito…" Yoshito balled up his fists and was getting teary eyed.
What is going on? My head is starting to hurt, but I feel like I'm starting to remember something.
Yoshito and I were hanging out at his apartment, looking at the photos of the day of the rafting trip. He stopped to look at a photo of Miyuki showing a peace sign. In the majority of the pictures of her, she'd have a silly face or had a random hand gesture.
"Miyuki really is cute." Yoshito smiled to himself.
"And she really doesn't have a boyfriend?" He turned to me.
"I don't think so, I'm sure Eri would have mentioned that by now, plus I don't think she would've gone to the trip with us." I said with an emphatic tone.
"Yasuhito.. do you perhaps… like Miyuki?" He smirked as he asked that.
"…"
"Wow seriously?!" He yelled out.
"Wha… I didn't even say anything!"
"Don't be afraid to admit it man, I definitely didn't expect this, I thought you'd be more into Eri." He wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
"Don't jump to conclusions now." I grabbed his arm and pushed it away.
"If I'm honest, I was a bit worried, since you haven't had a girlfriend or have talked to many women before." He nervously chuckled.
"What could you have been worried about?" I asked, with a confused expression.
"Worried about.. my own virtue maybe?" He awkwardly laughed.
"Screw you!" I smacked him in the arm, and he backed off, acting scared.
"But hey, please don't tell Miyuki anything."
"Don't worry, I got you, your secret is safe with me." He put his hands in the air.
Then November came around, Miyuki confessed to Yoshito, and he rejected her. She arrived at my apartment that night, crying while apologizing.
"I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have let myself fall in love with someone within the group, this is all my fault, what if we drift apart because of this?"
Her crying face, shaky voice, from that day suddenly came back to my mind. She cared a lot more about the group than the rejections. She has always been reckless and honest, caring much more about others rather than herself, it's my fault she was rejected, there was no way Yoshito would have accepted the confession while knowing I had a crush on her. That's how good of a friend Yoshito has always been, if only I never told him about that, if only I told him he was wrong about that. They could have lived a better life with each other.
Now this time, it'll be different, this time, Miyuki and Yoshito will be together.
I tend to ask myself if this is a life I want to live, if anything, I could fix all of my mistakes and make sure to live a better life with Miyuki, but no matter how badly I want that, I want to do what's best for Miyuki's contentment. There's a better life for her than the one she had of getting married to me, and perhaps there's a better life for me as well. I still love Miyuki, which is why I'll change everything and make sure she ends up with the man she first loved.