Days have not been that good for Shin. He is happy but a part of him is not. Yesterday when he saw Axel, some hope arose in him. He was surprised to find out that Axel was Mr. Chin's son but he would rethink of that later. He just wanted to see Felix again. He didn't understand why he wanted to see him that much but he didn't feel like anything was fun. He tried to act all good at the party, smiling and everything but he was looking for him in the crowds. He wanted to see him again. His eyes were moving all round the crowd as they were dancing and when they went to present their gifts. Even when they were seated, he would turn every now and then just to try and look for him. When Axel walked to the front, he tried to look back to where he had come from to see if he'll support his friend but he didn't see him. Every turn and every search among the crowd left him disappointed. Why didn't he show up? Didn't he say he would take responsibility for his actions? Why didn't he show up at the party? He always seemed so overprotective of Axel then how come he didn't attend his father's birthday? Was he hiding from him? Didn't he come because he knew Shin would be there and maybe did not want to see him? All these questions ran through his mind and they made him hate himself. Is this how people take responsibility out here? By disappearing and not showing up? By not communicating? He kept on asking himself the whole night.
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It was just yesterday night, he was worried that maybe something happened to Felix and that's why he didn't show up at the party so he decided to go to the same bar where they met today. He didn't spot Felix anywhere when he got to the VIP section. He was a little disappointed but went ahead and sat in a corner. He hadn't come here to drink but since there was no going back he ordered a drink. after a minute, the waiter returned. He placed a bottle and a glass on the table, opened the bottle, and then poured the drink into the glass. Shin watched it because this was not what he had asked for.
"I'm sorry but this is not what I asked for...." he said calmly stopping while stopping him from pouring more. He had not asked for monster energy but he didn't want to raise his voice because maybe the waiter just confused it plus he is not used to being rude either.
"Mr. Lee said you should have this... I just followed the instruction I'm sorry for not letting you know first" The waiter said politely. Shin was a bit confused because he didn't know who Mr. Lee was. Again, he thought that the waiter had confused or mistaken him for someone else.
"It's not me.." He said trying to smile. "I don't even know any Mr. Lee... maybe you've just confused it," he said again.
"You were with him last time... Lee Felix..." the waiter said and immediately he heard that he got alarmed.
"Felix? Where is he? Is he here? Why have I not seen him?" he asked and the waiter seemed a little bit confused.
"He is not here... He just left an order that if one day you pass by we shouldn't let you drink something heavy... If you will excuse me now sir" the waiter bowed and then left. Again, disappointment was written all over his face. He suddenly was almost happy but it turned out to make him even sadder than he was when he came here. Did something happen? He asked himself once more and then drank all the energy drink in the glass and then finished the rest. Thus felt like he was just having a regular drink. Staying here would be a waste of time since Felix was not around and that was his main reason for coming. He waited for the waiter when he was passing by and asked for his bill. He felt a little embarrassed because the bill would almost be the cheapest there and considering the kind of artist he is, that's not what he is supposed to spend. He was surprised when the waiter said that it was already catered for.
"Are you sure he is not around then?" He asked the waiter. " How does he know and pay for how much I have to spend?" he added.
"He said that anything you have is on him anytime you come here... don't think about it..." Shin nodded and the waiter took a bow and then left with the glass and bottle.
He wanted slowly toward the parking lot. He wished that it would rain so that he be soaked in the rain.
"We meet again... Here to check if someone drunk too much tonight" he lifted his head immediately to check if it was Felix or if he was actually hallucinating about his voice.
"You?" it was him. It was Felix. Standing right in front of him smiling. He wanted to hug him but he didn't let his emotions get the best of him. He had to act a little bit tough right?
"How did you know I'm here?" he asked.
"I just got the information that you are here the minute you got in... that's the advantage of having a chaebol as your father right, money does everything nowadays," He was bragging but Shin wasn't buying any of that.
"Let's be serious, why did you come here? It's dangerous for someone like you don't you know?" he asked in a concerned voice. "Did you drink? I'm here to see if you misbehaved...." he said again.
"How could I drink when someone gave an order that I should only have a monster energy drink huh? " Shin asked back.
"I was just worried that you might end up getting drunk and someone takes advantage of you... rich people are ill-mannered but it's good that you are okay... I have to go back now" he said turning around to leave.
Shin couldn't believe what he was seeing. Was he going to leave just after less than five minutes? Didn't he miss him at all? Didn't he want to just talk to him for more?
"Why didn't you come to the party?" He suddenly asked before Felix could get any further. He turned around and faced him.
"I was at the party yesterday, you guys did well," he said after some time. Shin was angry now. So he was at the party but didn't care to look for him? He even saw them but didn't bother to say hi. He didn't even say that he loved Shin's performance, he just appreciated them all.
"I didn't see you... Sorry... That's why I thought you weren't there..." he said in a low tone but didn't make it obvious that he was unhappy. Maybe he just wasn't lucky in love at all. Or maybe was he not good enough?
"I'm gonna go now... good night," Shin said and walked passed him. Tears were almost welling up in his eyes but he was just waiting to get to the car and cry a river there.