I work up earlier today because I slept hungry yesterday. I didn't see Felix eat something either so I went to the kitchen to prepare some breakfast. He was still comfortably sleeping on the bed and I had fought the urge to kiss him. One thing about him, he has charming heart-shaped lips. Those heart-shaped lips are just so kissable. It's rare to find someone with those lips but I think they suit him the best. I just love how he seems to be pouting every time he talks because of them. It just looks so cute. His long black hair is also a charm. I just don't understand how he and Axel have managed to be hidden all this time. They look like precious gems that people haven't yet found out about. But I also can't help but wonder if they may have some history together, they seem so close and Felix doesn't stop mentioning Axel which makes me wonder if they have ever dated or something. I know I shouldn't be thinking about it but it might also be the reason that he doesn't want me.
I got to the kitchen and started working on making breakfast. I didn't ask for house help because I don't need one, I can cook and clean my house just fine. I love privacy too, maybe it's my thing. I don't even want a pet or anything. I love art though, especially making model houses and cute things with models. I think it's fun.
I made kimchi fried rice for breakfast and placed it o the dining table.
"You just made my favorite meal..." I turned around only to find Felix standing there, his eyes fixed on the table, but his long hard was almost hiding his eyes. The hair is dripping wet right now and he looks just so handsome.
"Hi, morning," I said and he averted his eyes to look at me. He then used his hand to move his hair from his eyes.
"I'm so hungry..." he said pouting. I just love how his lips tend to pouy whenever he is speaking.
"Oh, is that so, have a seat... Uhm... You can just dig in and start eating" I said after moving a didn't seat for him. He sat and then looked at me.
"Why are you looking at me like that? Am I not cute?" he asked looking at himself. "Don't mind the robe, I was in the shower when I the aroma came up and I had to hurry down here... I couldn't wait any longer... I'm sorry for any inconvenience" he added and I just nodded.
I didn't think that he was not cute, he looked so cute but I didn't want to let him know. He would think that I'm simping and it ain't good. I watched as he ate his food and I almost forgot that I was hungry too.
"What are you gonna do about your dad?" I asked because I thought we had been so quiet. I didn't think that this would be the end of the meal for him. He placed the spoon he was holding back on the plate and looked at me. His emotions had changed and he looked kinda upset.
"I think I'm done..." he said and got up and went back upstairs. He was taking long strides that even if I followed him and didn't run I would not catch up with him. That was so stupid of me to ask right? J lost the appetite too but I was scared of following him. What if he shuts me out? What if he shouts at me? I'm really scared of that and I'm sure I'll end up crying if I follow him. My phone rang and on looking at it it was Evel calling. He asked for a meetup and I knew something was wrong from the way he sounded.
I cleared the dining then washed the utensils. I was scared of going upstairs but after some minutes I went.
"Hey... I'm sorry for asking that... I didn't think it would make you mad but I'm sorry" I said once I got in. He was standing at a window looking outside. He then turned to look at me, some few serious glances, and then walked towards me, I was almost shaking because I waited for a push or something. He then engulfed me in a tight hug that left me surprised. It was so tight that I was finding it difficult to breathe. He then let go.
"I'm happy that you care about me.... should I just take you with me and run away from this world? Or should I build a secret mansion in a forest that no one can come near or maybe find an island and take you there, somewhere we could only be... it's so cute isn't it, an island it is, Axel would love that so much, I want to take him there too" So at first I thought he was talking about us but now it hits that Axel is still in the picture.
"It's a good thing, I think he will be happy too... If you take him there" I said and he looked at me.
"What about you? Will you be happy if I take you to an island?" he asked and I almost felt like crying.
"No, I don't want to destroy your happy moments, it's good if you go only the two of you, it would be more romantic," I said.
"But it's more romantic when I'm with you... I just want to take him along because I want to take care of him, I don't think Evel will ever be able to take care of him as he should, he doesn't even know him, Axel needs more care than an egg, that's why I would like to take him along with you, at least we can take care of him together don't you think?" he said and I was feeling all left out.
"What do you mean by that?" I asked because it seemed like I was not getting anything which I was not.
"Do I still have a chance with you? I wanna hit on you, seriously.... but I can't promise that I'll stay but I'll give it my all, I wanna do my best with you... Can you give me a chance? Even though I'm not perfect? Even though right now I'm the poorest man alive? Will you give me a chance even when I tell you that Axel matters most to me in this world? If I tell you that he is my first priority?.... I lost my twin brother when I was turning fourteen, and that's when I met Axel, ever since he has taken the place of a brother in my heart, I promised to love him more than anyone else because I loved my twin as much too... We are the same age, and share the same pain because he lost his mother too, but between the two of us he is more vulnerable that's why I always want to see him around, I didn't want to lose him like I lost my brother... I hope that you now understand and won't pout when I mention Axel again"
Was it that obvious? Was it so obvious that I was pouting each time he mentioned Axel? I thought I hid it so well.
"I'm... I'm sorry about that...." I said not knowing what to say next.
"What I feel about you I've never felt it, not with anyone so you won't have to worry about me cheating or something, but one thing I'm not sure about is how long it might take,..." he said simply and sat on the bed.
He sat on the bed for less than a minute and then stood up and walked to me again.
"Can, can I kiss you?" he asked and didn't wait for an answer.