(Katrina POV)
A couple of months have passed since the incident where Seer's house burned down.
(yes I know it is technically owned by Elevena and Requil but Katrina would refer to it as Seer's because she is closest to him and a lot of friends refer to their friend's house as theirs. Ex. Hey, Jack let's go to your house, not: Hey Jack let's go to Mrs. Jereds (Jack's Mother's last name) If you ever wonder why she refers to the house like that well now you know. :)
My mother and father are constantly telling me to eat more, saying I look terrible and should get more sleep.
They try to encourage me and tell me to try new things, or do something to take my mind off him.
I just can't he is always in my mind I think about all the good things that happened with and it just hurts more, he was the main reason why I tried so hard, I wanted to be around him, to be able to show off my knowledge, get stronger with him, share precious memories with him.
It feels like I lost a part of me when I heard he died.
When I saw his house burn down and the barrier goes up so no other houses catch on fire. It was horrible I could just sit there and stare, I could take my eyes off it, and my brain practically shut down, there were so many more things I wanted to do I just could accept that he died.
The next moment something in me snapped, I started running toward the house but my mother held me tight so I could move.
I yelled at her "let me go please, he might still be alive, please let me go, please. Mom I need to see if he is alright, there is no way he is going to die from that, it is just a fire he can get out, please I will drag him out, please I can save him."
"PLEAASE, PLEase, PPPPPLLLEEEAAAssse," I scream as loud as I can feel my throat start to hurt but I don't stop, I finally cooled down and just said to myself. "Let him be alive please", I start to feel tears run down my cheeks.
I stood there and just saw the whole house slowly start falling, crumbling. That house was the physical representation of how I felt, My whole world started crumbling.
There was no fluctuation on the barrier, like someone going through or someone trying to get through.
After that whole situation, they were planning on having a funeral for all the people that died, when the house was done burning there was a pile of multiple bones near each other which would be suspicious but the authorities chalked it up to the maids and butlers trying to protect the masters of this household and failed or debris moving the bones.
The next couple of days after the accident, the only thing I did was lie on my bed. My body lost a lot of vigor and willpower.
I never imagined someone dying would hurt me this much but it is unimaginable.
After a couple of days I just had to accept it I eventually got out of bed and started to eat and clean myself up.
After that my desire to learn and practice was at an all-time low, but I decided to push through so I slowly started to pay attention to the tutors, and spend a little more time practicing using my scythe.
The schedule started to be more normal except for the fact I feel a lot worse in general and get a lot angry or sad.
The only saving grace is Seer's shirt.
I am dependent on that shirt, it is the only reason why I haven't tried to kill myself.
Mom and dad told me to start reading the letter given to me so I could try to make friends and possibly get over Seer.
GET OVER SEER, I could never He was the reason I was trying so hard, now that he was taken away I have so little inspiration.
I decide to keep going for the sake of my family.
With that small resolve, finally found a new inspiration, but it still hurts every time I think or hears about Seer.
Even sniffing his shirt will sometimes make me sad.
Every day was either me trying my hardest to become smarter and stronger, for my family and so make Seer proud, So when the spirit of Seer looks at me he will praise me, be happy, see how much I grew, he won't be disappointed in me, say to himself "what a wonderful woman she became".
I will attend the funeral with my family, it was for everyone in the mansion that died in that incident.
I asked my parents if I could get him a bundle of Proteas (a type of flower) for his grave.
The day finally comes and I wear my best black dress while my family also dresses in black. There were many different colored dresses and suits at the funeral. I could tell everyone was sad and even the king was there.
There was Elevena right next to the king, wait? Elevena was right next to the king, oh yeah he announced that she didn't die because she was at the blacksmith at the time of the fire.
I don't know but my instincts seem off that the whole scene doesn't look right, the next moment I see Elevena kneel at the grave and place a bundle of Gladioluses (more flowers), after she does that she lowers her head and some water starts falling from her face.
It made me feel horrible, to see his mother, which was almost like an aunt to me because of how much we were around each other and she treated me like family.
After recalling that horrible memory I try to remedy it by sniffing his shirt. The smell is still so calming and makes me feel safe.
The next moment my parents call me down to read the letters addressed to me.
It read: "Ms. Katrina Astley
How are you? I heard you lost someone close to you and I also happen to know that person. He was interesting and still is, and the amount of effort he puts in is impeccable, but I am not writing to reminisce.
You may be wondering who I am well I am writing this to you so because a certain someone is worried about you. He was one of the first things on his mind when he went to our manor. Isn't that funny instead of worrying about being at a different place with no one he truly knows well he worries about you.
If you truly want to know I will give you a hint. "I see you always pick the cat in Man-O-Poly, My favorite is the Wheelbarrow". Also, that person will be putting in an application to attend Secarlla at the normal time which would be when he turns 18.
From, a butler and maybe an old friend? residing at Vanessa Valtera Manor
I started crying my heart out in happiness, So many memories come back to me, and now doesn't sadden me that much. It is a bit sad I have to wait that long before seeing him again but it is so much better than him being dead. Once I see him again I will be a grown woman.
Ahh, the things I can show him when we meet at the academy, I must work harder from now on to protect him and to impress him.
Heeeheeee, AHHh I can't wait to see him again!
I must tell my parents that I am not going to accept any marriage requests and they shouldn't accept any until I enter the academy. I also said I have an eye on a person that might become a friend and potential partner at the academy.
They agree, I jump for joy now all I need to do is wait and work hard.
I will show him just wait, wait. He is someone I need, he has come back to me.
WE must be meant for each other, the butler said he first thought of me. AHH
He shouldn't have said that. I feel ecstatic, I start smelling his shirt and slowly drift to sleep while giggling