The water is coming from all direction. The surface level riseing and I sink like a rock. Although being submerged in the water make me uncomfortable, I don't feel the need of oxygen. I walk in this abyss.
Each step feel like instant or eternity, If i stop even for a moment, I feel like losing myself. I try to use energy but to surprise there is nothing I can do.
I just walked. Step. Step. After countless step or one step, I saw the iron bar, coming from the depth of water and ending in the loneliness sky. Behind the bar, I saw a glimpse of something. A boy.
I reached at the bar, the moment I touch it, the strange flash and image pop out in my brain. I feel sadness, loneliness, anger, resentment and the last one is more hurtful, madness. My heart was twisting and I feel the whole world weighting in my back.
Before I could comprehend the information, I was blast away. I lost contact with the bar, the emotion I feel vanished like a thin smoke.
I stabilise the landing, look behind the bar. The young boy who look exactly like me in 12 years old look at me with horror.
I connect all the dot in my head, why I feel empty?
Why I start to forget my memory after evolution?
I feel great that I lost it but at the same time I forgot who I was.
My decision toward certain things, interaction with other people, feel unnatural It I have this memory, I would become a real me.
I stand up, walk toward the little me and said, " Why keep this things? "
The boy replied, " Because this is the only way for you to free."
I shouted, " Free from what? I'll be nothing if I don't have this. And I'm not talking about those fake memory with that shitty family. I'm talking about earlier feelings I connect with. "
The boy rub his hair harshly, " You don't have enough strength to face. You're weak."
I smile at those harsh words, " No, I'm not weak."
" How would you know? "
I took a deep breath, and smile, " Because I'm you. If you can endure it why can't I do the same. Beside how bad it can be."
The boy looked me to check if I said to him was really a true.
" Fine, I was supposed to give you these when you have necessary strength but it look like someone forced you to get here. I'll give you a piece of advice. Beware of those around you."
With those word the iron bar collapse, the water around me disappeared. I was floating inside the gate.
***
" Do we really need to push him that hard, Kate? "
The man in weird masks asked Kate. They are in the Aguilar room. Aguilar was in pain expression. Kate said without looking at the mask man, " Yeah, he need to feel despair. Because if he doesn't feel despair, who can we depend. Let's go. I already aid him to pass the barrier. All we had to do is wait and follow the master command. "
The mask man touched Kate shoulder, soon the energy around them twisted and cracks appeared. With a flash, they disappeared.
***
I saw flash of my past. I saw how my father abuse my mom. I saw how I was bullied at school. I was at desperate situation. I thought about suicide.
I have no friend in this past. No friend. Nothing.
I work at the part time job and support my family. My father take all my salary, he beat me everyday.
Someday, my mother run away from home, leaving me with this situation. I want to run away too but where could I can go. I don't have any skill to make money. I don't have a place I can sleep. I don't have nothing.
Day in and day out, these abuse keep getting worse. I'm loosing my mind. I saw myself thinking about killing that motherfucker.
But I control myself. I was afraid day and night. And then wonderful things happen, I met my first friend in last year high school. He helped me with so many things.
With his help, I escape from my father grasp. I moved into new town, I met new people. I found love.
But the fate is playing to me. When i turn into 17 everything gone. All of it. The person I thought trustworthy betrayed me. The person I love abandoned me.
With sorrow and depression, I began to distance myself with people in general. I began to resent human. And then evolution happen, I awaken ability.
The ability is different from mine, and yet feel familiar. The ability name is gluttony. I can disintegrate matter with my hand and turn the matter into orb and absorb it.
I rampage, I kill other people for pleasure. I shivered in satisfaction. I lose humanity for a first time. Some people with good moral call me evil, that I'm weak that I can't handle that tiny amount of hardship.
Human declare me as demon. I was happy. I create new life with my ability. I built an army with these being.
After 2 years passed since evolution, new human with advanced power come down to our planet. Human formed a contract with them. I heard they call themselves " Protector".
I always thought that was a lame name.
They attacked me. I had to admit that they are powerful. Within a few second, they annihilate me. But I survive due to a spacial cracks resulting me getting teleport in some planet.
I observe the planet. Just like mine they are filled with rotten human. But I don't dare to make appearance. I built my strength.
I learned from the beast. My power grew wider and more fearful.
I trained with some weapon. I like sword so naturally I train with it. It was hard but I was happy making progress.
I always scream on top of mountain that I'll get my revenge on those " Protector ".
At the age of 21, I feel loneliness for a second time. I have always filled that hole with killing, training and abusing myself. I torture myself with these thought.
My mind become weak, ' Maybe they are right. I don't have the strength to face those situations. '
I wavered but I don't change as a person.
In the forest, I hide, I saw many adventures fighting against monster. I saw their friendship. The more I saw, the angrier I get.
I resent human for making me this way even though that is my fault. I am hypocrite. I blame my problem to other people.
I am aware of that mistake and I don't fix it. I trained again. I found myself immersing into ability. I found out that my ability is more than just gluttony.
I control my energy to molecular level. I connect my energy with the world's domain and change it.
At 25, I'm bored. One day, I walk inside the forest. I hear the screaming and went towards it. I don't know why I'm doing it but maybe I need some hope or some changes in myself.
I met the girl fighting for her life with some wolf. She was bleeding furiously.
That is the start of my tragedy.