Xander
Arriving home, I heard some murmuring and sniffing coming from the living room. Concerned about my house's situation, I walked in to check if everything was okay. I had scheduled some messages to be sent to Kendra today, I hope she found some of them.
In the living room, there sat my mother, with Kendra beside her. Mama was holding Kendra like she needed the hug and love more.
"it's going to be okay, everything takes time," says mama. I know she wants Kendra to feel safe and loved. Trust me, This girl has been loved and pampered ever since she was young. She doesn't care about it anymore.
I quickly pick up my new phone and send a text to Vee that I am home safe, I promise to text her when I get a chance. I give the phone back to my guard for safekeeping before walking into the house.
Like I know nothing going on in, I walk in clueless and act shocked when I see Kendra crying on my mum's chest.
Raising my brows a little, I walk to her and hug her, "what happened baby?" I ask trying to cool her down. She loves it a lot. My mother gives me a sorry face and I know she is crying because of the baby.
"She is still fragile, she needs you to be home often," mama says to me and I can see it. I place a peck on Kendra's cheeks. No, this doesn't smell like vanilla, this smell like some old batteries with an acidic taste. Wait, I have been tasting these cheeks for months now, why didn't that come earlier? Fuck, I think my brain is playing tricks with me.
"I am sorry baby, I will be here for you, now and always," the same stupid promise I say every day. Ever since our wedding vows, it had been the same thing I say over and over and now I think I am convincing myself that, I might be there for her but I know whom I want to be there for, isn't it funny?
It's funny when you don't know the true feeling. When you realize that your true feelings are for someone else, the one you never chose in the first place, as much as you try to convince yourself that it's all an obsession and after some days of pounding the 'love of your life,' you will get rid of him or her, you end up fucking the person your tied a knot to because you see your soul mate in your spouse when you fuck.
That is what has been happening to me, fucking Kendra but in my fantasy world, I am fucking Vee, I need her, I fucking want her in my bed, legs spread wide, or her back on me and she is riding me like crazy. Thanks to my mouth, it has never slipped and mentioned her name, stupid right?
Kendra wipes her tears and lays on my chest, she trails her hands on my collarbone, something I am used to, but I try to act as if I am feeling her, I don't want to create suspicion. I don't want my mother to be angry at me, she doesn't need to be, I just need to show my outside appearance and everyone will accept it.
I lift my eyes from Kendra's fingers that were busy roaming around and look at mama. She is still beautiful, placing the same scarf on her neck every day. The same scarf my dad used to hold for her when they went out. He would lace it on her neck to keep her warm sometimes my mum would place it on his neck, even though my dad protested that it was feminine, he started enjoying it, it gave him peace every day.
"How was your day?" she asks while resting her head on the sofa. I smile as I try to play with Kendra's shoulders. I nod to her, she knows what I mean by that. "Just some work stuff but not in the office, I was tired and had to take a walk, my head is also hurting." My mother moves closer and places a hand on my forehead, she raises her brows at me, she knows am lying. "looks like it cooled down?" I nod and look at Kendra's top before looking at my mother.
She told me that she was spending the day with Kendra today and she needed to head home. Today I can't escape Kendra and head home to mama, close my bedroom door, and masturbate with Vee in my thoughts, as I pull my brother more and more.
"Hey, why don't you calm here as I escort mama, I will come back in a second." I lay Kendra down after she nodded and walk with mama outside. She is still fragile, she doesn't have any major episodes after she has severe coughing and I like it that way, without any problems.
Walking her to the car, she stops midway and looks at me. I want to say something but I know better than to talk back at her before she says anything, "Wherever you were today, I don't think it had anything to do with work, just make sure you know what you are doing." I wanted to open my mouth and ask her what she meant but both you and I know what she is talking about. She got into the car and her driver drives away.
Fuck, I hate annoying her, she is my life, even before Kendra or Sofie, she is the only woman I trust. Sofie is second, after she seduced my girlfriend and licked her like some last supper, she comes second. Though she has good instincts, sometimes she is just using that to steal a girl from me. I stood there and look over at my guard, he walks over and hands me the phone, sliding through the screen, Vee has already arrived home, I had to say an early goodnight because I have to shove my dick into her step-sister since I lied to her about my whereabouts and the dick is the only medicine to keep her calm with some stupid presents.
Kendra was not in the living room, I walk to the bathroom and hear the shower running, just perfect timing, a perfect time to do what I want to do. I reap my clothes and walk to the same bathroom, she was busy in the shower to even notice me, I place my hands on her waist and she squirms, I put my hands to her mouth and she knew it was me.
"How are you feeling baby?" I asked massaging her waist a little bit. I wish this was Vee. "I am okay, just a bit tired." I look over at the mirror, as if I don't believe the person I have become, I avoid the mirror before my thoughts start invading my space to shout at me for being stupid. She moans as my hands find their way to her thighs, I want to hear my name but I know she rarely says that maybe she is also missing someone which is why she holds my name and doesn't want it to come out. I wonder who is this person she misses so much.
"Baby, please, it's enough," she moans while holding onto my hand but she wants more than that. I pin her to the wall and do my thing, something that makes her forget what she is thinking. Rinsing her, I help her tie the towel to her body before leaving me in the room to finish up. Yeah, finish up with my thoughts on Vee and my dick rising to every little thought about her.
Today we get the privilege of having our supper in bed, some china nodules, and minced meat. I watch as Kendra separates the minced meat and only eats the nodules and the vegetables placed on the side.
"Have you talked with your sister?" I ask. I wanted to know if she keeps in contact with her. She needed to do so. She shook her head and rolled the modules on her spoon. "Hun, we need to take good care of her, I know you are still mourning but can we take care of the baby the way you wanted?" she leaves the nodules and glares at me with an angry face, the nodules left on the spoon while her lips are shining from the nodule fats.
"Are you going to speak about him, or you are going to ask me if I am doing well?" She asks while shouting at me. I am used to her shouting. I am used to her getting angry every second. I shake my head, I know I don't need to talk about Vee with her every second. I need to think about other things, "Then we shouldn't have forced her to have a baby if you didn't care, you are messing her up!" That came out abruptly. I wasn't supposed to be on her side like that. What is the need though? What is the need to force someone to do something when you know that you don't care about it? Maybe she didn't want a baby in the first place.
She eats her modules even after my outburst, maybe to show me that she can do anything she wants. I spot a hickey on her neck I didn't fucking put a bite mark on her neck! Why is she having one?
"That girl has been messed up ever since, maybe saving her from that was by that pregnancy, so chill, we will get the baby I so much needed and she will be gone! Don't start me in the evening!" She warns and pushes the bowl away with the spoon falling on the ground.
As much as I hate that she is this way, she doesn't need to treat Vee with that hatred every second.
"Just get her a good place to stay in, I don't want my baby that she is going to deliver to be traumatized while in the belly!" I know I am angry and it's not necessary to do that but it's also not right to act the way she is acting.
"You know, you are going to decide who you want here, you met my sister first and she never loved you, what makes you think she wants you now, the way you were sitting desperately in that hotel waiting for her but she kept you down because she didn't fancy you! Stop being so childish, she can take good care of herself!"
Why is she even bringing that up? I didn't ask that. She is just so insecure to think that I am going to leave her here the next minute. Yeah, I want to leave her and go somewhere else.
"What about your hickey, Kendra? I don't remember placing my fangs deep inside that neck!" she is shocked and looks at me with angry eyes as if she doesn't understand what I am talking about. She places her hands on her neck and touches it slowly, perhaps, still reminiscing on how it was placed, did she enjoy it? It doesn't concern me if she enjoyed it.
"I hit myself in the morning, and stop making this about me!" Is she serious? You know if she wants to lie to me, I can as well show her that I don't need to be lied to. I stand up and grab her hands, to the mirror and show her what I mean.
"Tell me, what hit you again? A rat gnawed on your skin? An Eagle flew from the sky and are you, or I the one seeing wrongly?" She doesn't say a thing. It's not like I was angry, I just want her to see the mistake she is doing. Maybe we don't love each other, maybe each of us knows what we want from each other.
"Maybe you are the one who bit me? What about I use that against you?" she asks while widening her eyes catching me unawares. So she wants to frame me for doing such bad things to her? "Maybe we use DNA to prove the result!"