I push him off and remove everything that was on my hand not caring whether they were hurting me. I removed the blankets and threw them away. Why would the doctor lie that I was pregnant? How did Xander know that I was not carrying anything in my belly? Why was I vomiting every day and I had stomachaches sometimes? Unless this man here is trying to lie to me to make me think that I am stupid.
I stood from the bed, the hospital clothe covering every bit of my body, and walked out. I don't care what is going on now, if I am not pregnant the doctor is going to explain to me why and why she lied. Does he know that I am anxious to get money so that I can save my dad and myself from this situation?
Trying to open the door, but it was all locked up. Twisting the knob but all in vain, my hands were turning red and it was hurting. My frustration grew and my heart raced every time I tried to turn the knob. My tears were already knocking and they started to wash my face making my mouth taste their saltiness. I swallowed them, knowing very well that I will have to swallow their salt every second I am alive in this world.
My head hit the door, my body was too weak to stand, behind me I don't know why Xander was there watching me, try all I can to get out but I couldn't.
"I was supposed to be pregnant, I was supposed to be pregnant, a this is a lie, the doctor said it was true!"
I know lamenting will never save me from anything, I have been lamenting every day of my life, and I have never taken any action on my own. Look at me, helpless, distressed, weighing a little more than my kilo, in hospital clothes thinking that I was going to get half a million dollars to save myself as I wait for the other amount, how stupid!
"Vee, am sorry, I am the one who told the doctor to give that statement. I didn't want your sister to stress you out, maybe she will think of sheltering you somewhere else." Xander was kneeling behind me, his scent crawling up my nose and it made to feel nauseous, maybe I am just hungry and I think am pregnant. "I need to take you to the doctor, there are things we need to discuss," he says and tries his best to grab me from the floor.
It's not like I can't walk, sometimes I love the touch of his body on my mind, and sometimes I love when I close my eyes and placed my head on his chest to hear his heart beating weirdly. Not forgetting his beards, they are always ticklish and I would want to caress them every second but that is inappropriate.
"Please, turn over I need to change my clothes," I said waving my dress. He stood there looking at me, hands on his hips, "I have seen girls' boobs what is there not to see?" I widened my eyes at him, "I am Vee not girl, excuse me," he chuckles and went to the bathroom for a while while I changed.
Funny how my moods change when he is around, maybe it's just. Xander Effect that I will never understand. "done," I shout and he walks back in. He smiles and walks to the door, unlocking it easier than I could. Peeping from every side of the door, he beckons for me to follow him. Looks like we all love this hide-and-seek game we are playing here.
We used the stairs and went to his vehicle. There were no guards, just him alone and his car.
"Am I going to get the process done again?" I ask, I needed answers because, I need to get pregnant, or else this is going to be a very bad thing on my side if Kendra realizes that I am not pregnant.
He didn't say anything, instead, he sped Through the streets and we were once again at the hotel he brought me after my IVF process. I don't know what we are going to do here but I needed to get pregnant very first before I am killed.
"Come," he stretches his hands at me and I gladly picked them. Funny, in the hospital, we were acting like total strangers avoiding each other but now, in this elevator, my hands are in his while his other hand is on my shoulder, and my legs are wet making me feel things, various things that I don't want to feel right now. I am afraid to feel them at the same time.
"You haven't told me if we are going to do the process again, what should I tell Kendra?" I ask, I am curious to know everything. I need to know what he is planning to do. Have me wear a fake pregnancy kit to lie to Kendra or if he is planning to make me do some other things that will convince everyone that I am pregnant.
Instead of a reply, the elevator opens and the bodyguard points him in that direction. "Thank you, Mike," he says and walks ahead. I am ashamed that this man knows about us. About us? We haven't done anything bad? We haven't had sex if that is bad, but doing this behind Kendra is so bad. I hope he doesn't judge me this way.
"Hello, Vanessa?" he asks looking at me. I widen my eyes, turns out he knows me, I open my mouth but Xander raises his fingers at him and grabs me in the direction he was heading to.
He inserts his card into the door and we get in. The same bed I was laid in, the beautiful windows that make me want to stare out every time.
I stop moving and wait for Xander to say anything. I can't be pushed everywhere and just walk there as if I don't have any other place to be at.
"What are we going to do, Xander?" I shout this time round. I know it's not good to do that. Mike walks in and widens his eyes at me. He quickly walks past Xander and disappears. Xander walks back and grabs my hands but I don't want to move, "unless you tell me, I am going to scream and embarrass you here." he looks at me and signals for someone I don't know.
Bending down to my position, he stares at me, the frustrated wrinkles on his face can be seen as he tries to rub them off. His moist lips are tempting me to touch them, just to feel how soft they are, his throat, throbbing up and down, fuck, I can't do this, I gaze at the floor and start picking the carpet that seems too clean to have anything on it.
"She is ready, Sir," Mike's voice startles me and Xander gives me his hands, "Trust me."
I don't know what to trust about him, Maybe I should look at what he has planned for me to know what he is talking about.
I walk to an adjacent room and the same doctor who gave a false report to Kendra and I is standing there. I look at Xander confused because I don't know what these two have in mind.
I want to talk, I even open my mouth to say something but the lady in front of me smiles and shakes my hands, Xander takes the Chair and sits down while I watch him rub his jaw.
"Hello, Vee, am Doctor, Millan, we have seen each other several times, but today I need us to have a real talk as to why your IVF didn't work." My heart skips a beat as I hear the last statement. Please don't tell me that I am barren and can't give birth. Pregnancy was my only solution. That was the only thing that could have saved me.
"Wait, you think I can't give babies, I always have my menses every end month. I can get pregnant, maybe we can just try the process again!"
Dr. Millan looks at me and smiles. I didn't know if whatever I say is funny to her. Xander raises his brows and looks at me, he quickly stands up and brings me to the sit, "give her time to talk, you are very fertile but we just had complications, okay?"
I nod to his statement. Dr. Milan sits opposite Xander and me and clears her voice. I can sense some hesitation in her position. She clears her voice and looks at Xander and me.
"Vee, the IVF, is usually a trusted process but as for you, we think it won't work. You are not eating well, you have a very poor hormonal balance and we think, 'one-on-one contact' is going to help," she looks at me.
Why is she placing the one-on-one contact in air quotes, what does that even mean?
"I can see you are worried about what I am talking g about," she says why look g at me? "Yeah, given that you are using air quotes for a statement that is direct."
She smiles and looks at Xander who then looks at me, what are they afraid to ask tell me? They can say anything, I am eighteen years old.
"I think I will leave you and Xander to digest what I have talked about, Xander tells me the decision, so I think I will leave you." She stands up and walks away, and my head is left with a lot of unanswered questions trying to answer themselves. I look at Xander who is now at the window.
"Maybe you should get some rest, Vee, you are tired and exhausted," he says looking at me with concerned eyes. "No, I think we need to think of what Dr. Milan just said," I reply standing from my sit.
He signs and looks at the window again. I walk to him, I just need answers. And I need a way to make sure that I will be pregnant.
"The only way you can get pregnant is through sex," he says and walks to the next window avoiding my gaze and his hands in his pocket as if he didn't just say a bomb shocking word.
"What? Kendra will get mad, and Kendra will kill me if she finds out that I did this. I will have betrayed her trust and your marriage as well."
I can't have sex with Xander! I can't even wear clothes when he is around me, leave alone think of sex with him. I think we should just rely on IVF instead of doing that.
"Vee," he turns around and walks closer to me, my body is shaking and I don't want to imagine that he is up for that idea. "Vee, Kendra already knows you are pregnant, having sex with you won't change anything. We don't have to romance, we don't have to kiss or do any of the foreplay," he hesitates and looks at me. If only I know what foreplay entails, if only I know how it feels to be kissed, I don't know any of that. "At the same time, I can give you money, you can escape and run far away from this place. You can hide in another country where no one will find you. You don't have to carry out baby, Vee, you are young, you have the whole world in front of you. If your sister cared about the baby, she would have been with you through the entire process."
Run? How am I going to run and leave my dad behind? I can't do that! I can't just pack my things and leave him behind.
"You can go with your dad, I know you love him, just don't let people who don't care about you drag you down!" he says holding my hands and caressing them.
"What about you Xander, do you care about the baby? You have been there, you wanted to make sure that, I got every treatment, I know you care about the baby." I say trying to look at him and see his reaction.
He sighs and looks at me, his hands fall on my shoulder and one of the traces my cheeks, "I want the baby, Vee, very much, I sometimes wish you were the one going to take care of the baby, I am afraid of the mother. That's why you don't have to do it."
This is confusing, what does he mean by 'afraid,' Kendra also wants the bay as much as he does, maybe she is just still distraught with the pregnancy that she lost.
"Vee, go and take your dad from the hospital, run away, I will send your dad's upkeep money every month and everything will be okay. Go!"
He leaves me and walks out of the room. I look around me and there is nothing good like being given a chance to do something like that. Maybe I should leave everything behind and escape. I would have run away from Josh, Kendra, and Xander.
I walk out of the room to even say thank you but only meet Mike, he has me the envelope and wishes me good luck, "tell him am grateful" I say and walk out of the.