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It's Just That What Are We?

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"Love," for him was like a virus, the seed planted inside his heart by a touch of a "stranger," which gradually grows larger and spreads its branches all over his body, giving him a warm feeling. That's when you lose control due to the wildflowers inside you blooming and seducing you. And you realize it's too late to back down at this point. In a country where homosexuality is against the law & offensive just like committing a serious crime where 'two male medical students started having weird feelings for each other almost sounds disgusting to society. They had to struggle with their anxieties. After they became roommates, slowly as they knew that they were crossing all the limits so they realized that it increased the sexual attraction between them. They don't care about the consequences. Alas, they became the victims of religious tribes as the same-sex relationship is Haram(Forbidden). The kind of feelings that made them lose their self-control & almost provoke them into a 'Shameful Touch of Paradise'. How long will they hide these feelings? Will the cruel society accept it?! Will they fight against the world to win the Game of Love... It all starts with a question that 'Imon' brought which was the beginner of all troubles into their perfect life and that was, "It's just that what are we?"
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Chapter 1 - Chapter-One

"Inter-arterial anastomoses take place between the adjacent arteries by their trunks, branches, and sub-branches. The anastomosis may be actu... "

Before I could finish the entire sentence, I heard a knock on the door and someone stepped into my room. I assume that person is currently standing behind me silently for a stupid prank. I was ignoring it and started studying for the next anatomy exam, but I can't just ignore it because just when I started reading, the person behind me started laughing silently, and I don't know why, but this is making me angry, so I couldn't help it but turn my face to see what exactly was going on, and then I saw...

I saw a boy with black short hair but not that short ; it is perfect for his oval-shaped head; brownish eyes connecting with mine ; pale cheeks lifted upwards as he looks at me, and he has a shaggy beard. Then my curious eyes get stuck just when they search for his lips, imagining light pink or periwinkle, but the imagination passes out, crossing my mind because all I see now is dark lips, almost dried up due to slackness of touch, mostly burned by smoke. His nose is sharply detailed & his face is so easy to read as he touches his head with his hands while looking at the corner of the ceiling & smiles while he says, "So this room is too small for me, but I'll adjust."

What does he even think of himself? I was talking to myself in my mind, which I haven't done for so long, but I'm enjoying it right now. Perhaps this new stranger brought a little change to my daily routine.

"Excuse me! Who told you to even adjust? For your kind information, this is my room, so please pack your shits and go away. Don't bother me; I'm studying, you understand?"

I said as I raised my left eyebrow & rolled my eyes as I turned again & started reading, thinking that he would leave eventually, but hell no he didn't. He is so stubborn that he pushed himself on my bed & pretended as if he was so fucking tired & needed extreme rest, so I didn't say much & made him think that I didn't care.

"Do you study this hard or are you just pretending?" he says as he grabs the pillow and places it behind his head.

"No, but I'll make you have a hard time if you don't shut up!!"

"I don't think that it's important to tell you, Do we even know each other? " I said that rudely but not exactly rudely because I was telling the truth and it might offend him, but still that doesn't matter to me. He gets up immediately from the bed and slides onto the chair as he sits beside me and starts introducing himself as he begins with his name.

"Well Hi, Tasin here, and I'm your new roommate. Sorry for being late in saying it. I should not have irritated you in this way. It would have been better if I had said it earlier, right?" He says while narrowing his eyes & that's when I realized that studying for more than 4 hours continuously made me so angry that for some so-called reason, I vented it on him, which I shouldn't have because he frowns. After all, he is my new roommate, so he has the right to enter, but anyway, how would I know because it's not even my fault if he wasn't telling me in the beginning? Maybe I'm the rude one because he was being friendly, but I was just avoiding him anyhow, so I should just talk with him for a moment now. We shook hands after he took hold of my hand.

His gentle fingertips lightly rubbed the back of my hands unintentionally since they were warm at the time and he sensed it, which made me question why and how after a long voyage his hands could still be so chilly as if they would start freezing. My palm nearly feels lightly warmed.

Personally, in my perspective, I don't genuinely prefer communicating to new people and I never shake hands with anyone. In fact, I'm worse than that because I sometimes slap my pals in the butt to get them to laugh and that is how we crack jokes, so why am I appearing so formal today? Perhaps it's because this is our first time meeting. We'll get to know one another better since we already share a bedroom.

" Anyway, it doesn't matter whether you said it earlier or later."

"No, it does." Why do you think that it doesn't? " Tasin says while he widened his eyes with confused face.

He was sitting in the chair, but I could feel his right leg bouncing up and down as if he was having a serious conversation with me. Maybe he was a popular kid in his school time & now that I'm not giving him that attention, he gets bored of it.

"It doesn't matter because we're not even that close, so go because you stink. Don't mind me, but please sit away from me because you're stinky and gross, and I want to poke on you. " As these words come out of my mouth, he stands up quickly as if he was embarrassed. Then he raises his arm & sniffs, then he tries to assure me that it's not it. He told me that he takes a shower every day and all that, which made me laugh so hard at him because he was so funny. Whenever I said that I don't trust you and you smell like shit, he would get mad and then shout like a stubborn kid, but I just made a stupid excuse to shut him up because he is so talkative.

"Why were you even laughing at me while I was reading?" I said while I gave him a glare.

"It's because you looked more like my ex-girlfriend from high school. She is boring like you. Always busy with studies, "he says as he laughs out and squeezes his stomach to stop himself from laughing because he saw me with a blacked-out face.

"I'm sorry, I know this was a bad joke. Never mind I'll stop laughing," He says as he still couldn't stop himself from laughing but I just can't find it funny anymore.

"Why are you even telling me about your ex? I'm not even interested in knowing. I'm not like any of your exes or whatever. Why am I even talking about such things? Ahh!! Forget it. You are such a funny weirdo. " Then he leaves for the bath and takes a towel in his hand, and I was shocked by his stupid joke. It sounded more like he was a Kindergarten student who would crack jokes like that.

"Tasin, wait."

"Yes?"

"I forgot to tell you my name. It's Imon." The words come out of my mouth breakingly, but then they form together, and his eyes sparkle.

"What exactly took you so long to just say it?" He says laughingly & I also join him. He seems to be a nice person. This actually sounds more fun because we met only for an hour and now I'm praising him, which is totally strange because I was also being rude to him at the same time. My mind is spherical. It constantly keeps spinning & carries all the emotions around it.

"Nothing. You're one lucky person because you know my name."

"Oh wow, seriously? That is a really funny joke. Oh my God, you see? I'm laughing so hard. Bullshit."

He started mocking me. But I try to keep up with his outgoing personality.

After that, he goes inside the bathroom and tries to lock the door, but he is unable to do so because the door was already damaged by my previous roommate, so I got up from my chair and went there, attempting to repair it, but it still does not work. In fact, I wanna trying to fix it but I think I damaged it more. So he looks at me, his face giving a reaction that could turn into a voice telling me that, "Is this how I'm supposed to shower? while leaving the door wide open?"

"S..so." I say with a voice almost crushing like flower petals under a truck. So low that it can't reach his ears.

"So what now?! Don't tell me that I'd take a shower with this broken door. This is absurd."

"I..It's alright. I'll leave If your uncomfortable with it. Just let me know when you're done and I'll be right back, okay? You have my phone number. It's right here." I said with a voice almost opposite of my reaction and he seems to calm down with a large sign.

Although it should be typical for me because ever since I was in high school and college, I took a bath in a dorm with my friends, and we frequently made fun of one another and played with water, so why does this sound so uncomfortable? My phone suddenly starts ringing, and I'm extremely thankful to that person for breaking the awkward silence between us. I finally found an excuse to break the silence, and there she was, my mother.

"Just a moment ,please. Actually my mom called." I said this as Tasin nodded and began blinking multiple times before unbuttoning his black shirt, and I could see him in three dimensions, but I pretended I didn't see what I saw.

"Hello Imon."

"Yes Mom."

"How are you doing? You haven't called me for so many days. I missed ya.."I could probably hear my mom sobbing so hard but I had my reasons for not calling her.

"I'm better than before. At least I don't get to see that stupid person anymore," I exhaled sounding relieved by the burden that I was carrying for 3 years.

"It's not appropriate to say something like that about your father. He pays your tuition. He went above and above for our family. He adores you tremendously. Please return home."

"Not father, but stepfather." I'll correct it.

"How many times do I need to tell you not to misbehave with your dad, you get that?! Are you even listening to me, Imon? Answer me," My moms voice almost more louder than before and lightens like storms in rain.

Tasin is undoubtedly eavesdropping our conversations, which made me realize how loud my mother and I are. Speaking of Tasin, I believe he has switched on the shower because I can hear water drops slowly rolling from his body. My gaze was drawn to the bathroom when I watched Tasin removing his shirt and wrapping his half-naked body in water drops that dropped gently as he ran his fingers through his hair with shampoo.

He didn't notice me staring at him since his eyes were closed, but then I heard mom say, "Imon, can you hear me?" I was ready to look away when Tasin washed his face and heard my mother's voice on the phone because it was on loudspeaker, so he turned around and caught me staring at him but didn't react. That astonished me. I expected him to become enraged and scream. He was the first to look away before I could, so I wouldn't have to curse myself for the rest of the time.

"Yes, mom. I'll call you back later, Bye."

"Imon....wait," My mom said until the last moment just when I ended her phone call.

I got myself out of the room immediately and entered my classroom finding my sit and after the teacher starts the class I just couldn't focus on it as weird things happened this morning. I still kept remembering the images that I shouldn't have stuck onto my brain that keeps roaming around for the next 2 hours.

The first thought that came to me was, "What must he be thinking about me?"

When we next meet, I'll tell him it was an accident. I didn't mean to do it. That seems even weirder than I anticipated. There's no need for me to say anything; I'll just remain silent for the time being. Things would get normal eventually. I guess he forgot about it so I should too. But I'm afraid cause he was so tensed about the door being slightly opened & now when I saw him will he get mad? Forget it, that's not even my fault. Screw it. It was a mistake. I know he will understand. Why am I over-thinking it. I can't concentrate on the class. I realized that ever since I met him I became so talkative & now I'm an idiot who is talking alone.

"Bruhh, What's up? Why do you look so gloomy today?" Iffat says as she saw dark circles under my eyes. She is my classmate. Her face reflecting concerned effects on me & I smile to make her believe that it's not what she's thinking about, I'm totally fine. I could probably see that she didn't believed me & was looking at me with doubting face. What I see from her is that she is a girl with interesting features. Her smile totally so beautiful just like those flowers blossoming in spring & falling on me slowly. She has chubby cheeks with a cute dimple which makes all the boys crazy. And we are good friends.

"You sure that your okay?" she says with a comforting voice but I refuse to tell her the truth & just changed the topic by saying," I couldn't attend the classes yesterday, can you send me the classwork on Instagram please?"

"Yeah, sure. Why not?"

"Good girl, Hehehe."I said while laughing and she starts laughing too in the middle of the class.

"What the Fuck was that, you idiot?" she says as she can't really stop laughing.

"Did I made you laugh?"

"Obviously not!!"she says with a cute pout.

"Don't lie, your still laughing," I speak out as I pinch her cheeks teasingly and her cheeks gets red. That's when I noticed Tasin entering the classroom & apologizing to the teacher for being late to join the class and informed the teacher that he was stuck on Traffic jam.

"What a lame excuse!" I say rolling my eyes to the left.

"Do you know him?" she says as she stares at me with a straight face & I refuse.

"I don't know him but why are you asking me about that?" I hesitate.

"It's because it seemed like he was the cause of your gloomy face this morning," she says with a suspicious voice.

"How did you guessed it?" I tell her as I look at her & connect my eyes to see her responding.

"It's because I watch too many series," her voice breaks with laughter but I actually still don't get it what she meant by that. And what exactly is so funny about this crap. I wonder what she meant by that.

Because he is new here, the teacher introduces him to everyone.

He got a chance in 'Khulna University of Chemistry' but he came here. Actually I also wanted to go to 'Rajshahi University of Biotechnology'.

Was it destiny that brought these two wildflowers together out of the blue!!

But then I don't know why & how I changed my mind. The teacher seemed pleased with him and told him to take a seat, but all the seats were taken except one in the back, so before Tasin arrived, I saw Iffat give him her seat because it was his first day, and Iffat went to the last seat, showing her thumb finger with a bright smile and whispering something. I know what she's wondering, as she usually says, "make him your friend."

After all, she is sweet. She usually sees me being grumpy and not making many friends, therefore she is always friendly toward me and would encourage me to make friends.

I was getting too lost in my thoughts when I felt Tasin grip my hands. Tasin then appeared as I tilted my head to the left.

"What is it right now?" I murmured, my cheeks red with annoyance, but he paused before he could continue, sensing my recurring irritation with him. But I don't think I'm in a position to complain right now after the bathroom incident, so I bend my head forward and, wanting to hear him, comes closer to repeat those words that formed in his mind and just got collapsed.

"Do we have extra classes today?"

"No, I guess."

"I forgot to bring my book so can you share?" Before the words left his mouth I just put my book in the middle so that he can take a look at it.

"Is there anything else you wanna ask?" I said with a face which almost appears to be shouting & gave him a reaction that, 'none of your questions are important just stop talking'.

"Hmm...Not yet but I'll let you know about it later okay?"

"FINE!!" I said as I let out a large sigh.

I was getting bored in class, especially because Tasin was sitting next to me, and I couldn't find anyone else to talk to, so I looked at my wrist to see the time, but I can't find my watch. Where is it? I couldn't find it and then remembered that I had put it in my bag, so I searched for it in my bag and finally found it just as my eyes fell on Tasin, who was silently watching my activities, trying to figure out what I was looking for, and it was just an old stupid watch. Perhaps it was an old stupid watch for everyone, but it was a gift from my father to me. This watch was a memento from him.

I was holding my watch when the bell rang, and everyone began packing their belongings and leaving the classroom. Someone in the back kicked the bench, and the watch in my hand fell to the floor, its glass shattering in a split second, but the time continued to tick. I'm scared and bend down as my knees touch the floor, trying to fix the watch even though I can't find the person who kicked the bench because it doesn't matter to them because it's already broken. Why would they even care?

Tasin is waiting for me. He does not leave like the others. In fact, he gets down on the floor, looks at the watch, and tells me, "It is something very close to you?"

"How did you find out?"

My voice is as soft as Saccharum spontaneum flowers in the breeze.

"A little birdy whispered it into my ears. Why wouldn't I know you went crazy looking for it in class, so I just witnessed it?" His voice becomes more soothing as he approaches me and pats my shoulder while saying, "It's okay, I understand."

"You don't. So please leave me alone for a while." My voice is either shouting or sounds sad.

There was no one in the class; everyone had left because the class had ended, and the teacher had not even noticed that we were talking under the bench because we were sitting on the floor together.

I swear anyone finding us at that time would have the wrong impression.

I noticed the lights going out and realized we were alone as our heads touched slightly in the dark & he got hurt. I was sitting there,not moving at all when my eyes started to tear up and Tasin seemed confused about what he should do before I started crying, so he leans forward as his right hand is placed slowly on my shoulder & fingers almost touched my neck if he whishes to, eyes looking at the small drops of tears which are desperately trying not to fall from my eyes & it distracted me quite a bit. I blinked twice to erase the nervous expression I'm giving him as he gets closer to me. His gaze searches for mine to clarify that I'm alright, but I'm not. So I stop for a while before I say anything and wait as I try to figure out what he's up to....