'Everything was in a state of confusion.'
I don't know why walking out of the school gate and seeing my sister again with Lucas annoys me to the core but it happens that it does so highly.
Last night I put myself out there to her, I allowed myself to bow down to her and confide in her about my worries and here she still is?
What the fucking hell does she want from me seriously?
She had the nerve of lying to my face that nothing was going on with her and Lucas and here they are talking their shit out like a couple on an outing or passing time.
Sam turns and finds me staring at them, I don't shy away from being caught staring instead I glare at them. But within the distance between us I don't know if she could tell the glare of annoyance that is in my eyes.
Yarrow passes me and walks to the car, I know I don't want to seem like a bitch to him like Sam is to me so I turn away and follow him to the car.
I got in the back seat while he took the passenger seat. I sit there and keep on contemplating what to do about Sam and Lucas but suddenly I realize where I got it all wrong.
'It's the ride she has, I mean how could I compete with her when am stuck with my brother.'
I can also use the car card if I get it and try to approach him again with it.
Lucas is the guy type that I always wanted to be with, I knew that the moment my eyes landed on him in my physics class.
The swag he always carries with him, the one that means; collide with me and you will be fucked.
He is all the bad boy that I always wanted to date, I had that in America.
Damien, the school bad boy king.
Damien was always found in every situation in our school back then in America when some students broke the rules, you wouldn't miss Damien in that.
He broke up with me when he heard we were leaving the country but it's not like I blamed him because seriously I also knew I wasn't up for the LDR shit.
Am too young to be stuck with a guy that is a hundred thousand miles away from me.
We reached here and I found my Damien in Lucas, we hit it off so quickly and nicely but when he called it off saying he did a one-time thing only. It was the second time I knew he was the one meant for me here.
All the one-time bad boys kind are the ones.
Getting them to change that course of their life is not my problem because the way I know they are my type, the way I also know am theirs and they can't resist.
But now a sticky someone really can't stand to let me have my way and the problem here is not she is in between me and Lucas.
No—the problem here is fighting with a two-faced bitch that pretends to not want something when behind the scenes they are doing everything in all their power to have it.
'Really, when did my sister even turn into this kind of person? Dad, Mom, and the father of heavens seriously what is Rwanda bringing to us?'
I sigh and look forward and my gaze lands on my brother, I let out thick breaths because I feel like punching, spitting in his face, or doing something to vent my misery on him. He is here chatting away with the driver as if they are buddies or something and am here running mad due to my twin sister.
I clear my throat and request their attention. "Yarrow, did Sam tell you what's happening between her and Lucas?" He turns to look at me and I watch his expression carefully not wanting him to play me tricks that he plays everyone.
He clutches his eyebrows together almost making them one.
"Not that I know of." He is lying to me.
I roll my eyes feeling the annoyance grow so bigger in me.
I turn to look away not wanting to say anything to him because now I know whose side he is on.
We reach home and I walk out and head to my room.
I lay on my bed on my belly and put the pillow below my head and yell and scream my screams in it.
I fucking hate this country, I fucking hate everything in it and I fucking hate my sister for her two-faced mask she is started wearing ever since we got here.
Why can't she show herself and her sneaky actions?
I let out my miseries in my screams on the pillow before I get up and head to my bathroom for a shower, I get out and when I hear the engine cut off a car I know it wouldn't be Sam, and that only leaves me with an option of dad.
I put the towel around my body and walked out of my room quickly and ran to my father.
We meet when he is entering the house, I bounce into him and hug him tightly.
"Daddy." I feel his arms around me and it fills me with a happy feeling at least someone is here for me.
We pull back and he takes my head in his hands and lays a kiss on my forehead. "How is my lilac doing?"
I smile cutely at him because I love it so much when he calls me that.
"Am doing goo..." am about to say good but I remember something, this is my time to revolve my situation and my time at a chance of something.
I look at my father he has a questioning look on his face at my sudden stop talking without finishing what I was about to say. I smile at him but before I say something to him, I put my arms around his waist and he automatically puts his around my shoulder and we start walking out of the living room.
"Dad, am not good. I have something that I so badly want dad, I feel like if I don't get it I might even collapse." He gives my right shoulder a small slap and when I look up at him he is shaking his head.
I turn my head downwards to his side.
"I need my own car, Daddy." He hums and turns to look at me.
"What?" ask and he just shrugs his shoulders in response.
I look at him and I know he needs more convincing but that's not a problem because I have facts to fight for my case.
"Daddy, I have my own life that is bickering with Yarrow's, sometimes he stays for soccer practices and sometimes I need to meet some classmates for school work or studies which a lot of other time collides with Yarrow's too, Remi can't be there the same time for both of us." He pats my arm that is circled on his waist before saying.
"We will see what we will do about it." I frown not liking that answer at all.
When it was his favorite daughter Sam he wasn't acting this hard to deal with but with me, his eldest he is starting to play tricks with me. I smack my lips together determinedly because who is he joking, I know what I want here and am not backing off before I get it.
"Daddy I know we will see of yours and it can't work on me, I need the car ASAP Daddy for many reasons." We are reaching my room and I don't want to let him go without the answer I wish for.
"Please look something for me very soon, please please please, please. I won't stop begging if you don't and I might die because it's stressing me out, Daddy."
He frees me and turns to hold my hands in his as he looks at me. "Stop, you don't have to do that my sweet pie. I will talk to my secretary and see if we can get you something too." I beam at him happily with his answer and throw my arms around his neck as I hug him tightly.
He smiles and I free him because I did get what I wanted and step on the side of my room.
"Thank you, daddy."
"Anytime sweetie." He walks to his room and I stay behind beaming so uncontrollably happy.
'Now I have what it takes to compete, Sam, wait and see how I snatch Lucas from your grasp.'
I walk to my room and just play my favorite songs and go to chat with my friends and use my social media.
Am going through some posts on Instagram when there is a notification of my sister's new story on my screen.
I click through it and I frown sitting up and wondering where she is.
It's a picture of a place that am so sure it's not in the embassy, am so sure because I toured the whole embassy and no place looks like this picture she just uploaded on her story.
'I know ever since we got here she she has grown another hidden face. She always lied she went to work in the embassy after school and here she is posting up pictures of whatever she is fooling at.'
I stay on the app, impatiently waiting for her to add another picture of who she is fooling with but I get so highly disappointed when she doesn't post again.
I just cursed to myself and waited for her to get home so I could get answers from her myself. 'But I just hope she wasn't with Lucas of all people.' If she were, God I would be so highly annoyed. 'I mean she is the one that said they weren't a thing in the first place, why can't she stick to her words.'
I hear her when she gets here but I don't go to her instantly in case she figures out how desperate I am for the answers I want to have.
I only walk back downstairs to have supper and when I find Sam there I suddenly feel the sudden urge to rub it in her face that am getting my car.
So after supper, I make it my own that she doesn't get out of my sight as I follow her to her room.
"Hey, are you busy?" She turns to look at me and shakes her head. "No am just heading to bed."
She walks in her room and I follow closely behind her. "Okay, I will be quick," I say to her which doesn't matter anyway because am already in her room.
"I wanted to ask you about the picture you posted on your Instagram story."
"What is it?" She walks and goes on to sit on her bed as she turns to look my way. "Could you take me there?" I ask and she nods looking dazed for a second. I feel like smirking to myself but I don't even help myself because I still pull an evil smirk on my lips. 'Got you, you two-faced liar.'
For the second time, I don't help myself as I say to her.
"I know it's also not in the embassy of America though." She blinks at me looking surprised at my words. I mean how couldn't she?
Usually, my sister wasn't this conning when we were still in America but somehow ever since we got here, she turned into someone else that I don't know of.
Our parents don't know, they are under her curse as if they had forgotten how she didn't want to come in the first place.
Yarrow doesn't see his sister as on a destructive road, all he cares about is putting Sam in the first and me in the second, I mean why does he even want to fight destiny if he feels so competitive about it shouldn't he go and make Sam a firstborn and me the second.
Sam my twin sister changed and am the only one who sees it and wants to do something about it. Technically I also wouldn't have cared but her lying to me that she had nothing going on with Lucas and then going after him behind my back really annoys and disgusts me so much.
'Seriously how much more bitchy can she get?'
Thinking about her two faces and sneaky life makes my head spin and I suddenly feel like vomiting.
I look at her dazed face and I feel disgusted that I can't keep being there because, first I feel so suffocated that I feel like I can't wait another second to ask more of her so I quickly say. "Anyway let's go this weekend, Goodnight Sam."
I rush out of her room not wanting to make my night any more disgusted than it already got with my sister's doings.
I walk to my room and sigh a relief breath feeling the good air from my room fill my nostrils. 'God, even her room is suffocating as her life.'
I walk to my bed and sigh one more time feeling now determined to get to the bottom of my sister's two-faced life here in Rwanda.
I mean how despicable can she get that I couldn't?
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