Aeon's POV
This will be a dreadful morning. I can barely walk straight and I can barely even open my eyes. Inaantok pa ako. Bwisit naman kasi si T eh, kung ano anong sinasabi sakin, ayun tuloy hindi ako nakatulog ng maayos.
Pinilit ko nalang bumangon kahit antok na antok parin ako. Dumiretso ako sa banyo tsaka naligo, mabuti nalang at medyo nahimas masan ako dahil sa malamig na tubig. Paglabas ko ng banyo wala si Dark, hindi ko siya napansin kaninang pagkagising ko, hindi ko alam kung pumasok na siya kanina pa o kanikanina lang. Nagbihis na ako. Suot ko ngayon ang school uniform namin. Mukha naman siyang okay, mabuti nalang at maroon ang kulay ng skirt at coat namin dahil kung sakaling pink o kung ano mang girly colors, susunugin ko talaga to.
Dumaan muna ako ng cafe para bumili ng kape para sa antok ko bago ako pumasok sa klase. Saktong pagkapasok ko, wala pa ang teacher. The day goes on fine except the fact that I slept through my class with almost all of my subject. Kaya eto hindi na ako inaantok. Last subject of the day. Literature.
"So good afternoon class" bati samin ng guro namin. We didn't bother to answer. Magsisimula na sana ang klase namin ng bumukas ang pinto at iniluwa non ang grupo nila Ire.
"You might want to drop the subject Mr's if you keep on coming late" sabi ng prof sakanila. Taas noong naglakad lang sila na parang walang narinig. He is our professor in Literature and Creative Writing. Mr. Sanders is the only professor in the school that can speak to them like that. Siguro dahil paborito siya ng headmaster o dahil sumisipsip siya sa headmaster. I don't know but I have to investigate this guy.
Umupo nalang ang limang lalake sa harapan at nagsimula na ang klase.
"So as you all know we finish discussing Jane Austen's famous novel The Pride and The Prejudice which is a literary masterpiece in the old era, now we will discuss one of the famous novel in this generation that takes a lot in both Jane Austen's novel and Emily Bronte's Wuthering Heights" she paused then write something in the board.
"Anna Todd's After series" she then said.
"So who among you here have read the novel already?" she asks but no one answered. They seem to be busy with their own little businesses'.
"So what can you say about the characters?" tanong niya ulit.
"The guy itself is a masterpiece" someone said.
"Pardon?" tanong naman ni Mr. Sanders, looking at the boys in front.
"You heard me" that someone added. Napataas nalang ang kilay ng propesor.
"And why is that?" he then added.
"I admire him for being a 100% asshole" napasinghap nalang ang professor dahil sa sinabi niya at napatawa naman ang ibang estudyante na nakarinig sakanya.
"Excuse me Mr. Howard?" mukhang galit na sabi ni Mr. Sanders.
"Come on, who wouldn't admire him for being such an idol? Parties? Frats? Sex? The only mistakes she did are not involving some twist such as killing-and including that bitch of a girl, what was her name? Tessa? Tessa Young?" he said while leaning on the chair, both arms and legs cross.
"Excuse me?" it's my time to raise my voice with what he just said. Napatingin naman silang lahat sakin, including those four boys except Ire. I know right now that he is wearing his famous smug.
"Oh, so you must really love that idol of yours because you take so much of him and for the record Tessa is beyond nice for putting up with his sh*ts." sagot ko naman sakanya. Lumingon siya sakin wearing a proud grin.
"Well thank you and for your information no one forced her to do that. Hardin is just perfectly right when he said that she's throwing herself into him, actually all three of them" he said. I narrowed my eyes on him. That wasn't a compliment. Oh well, what can I do? He's a dick like his idol and what does he means by that anyway? Napatingin naman sila sakin expecting for a comeback.
"Excuse me?" I ask in disbelief.
"Well, you know what I mean. All three of your favorite female protagonist are just an obnoxious bitches" he just shrugs.
"Oh is that the reason why you mess with every girls you met? Because you want to become like him? Like them? Well at least he's better than you, isn't he Mr. Sanders?" I said at the same time asks the professor.
"What do you mean by that?" Ire said grimly.
"Nothing much. If you already read the book then you should know" I just shrug.
"I actually did, all of it and there's nothing there that makes him or them better than me," he said proudly. Tignan natin kung makakangiti ka pa sa sasabihin ko.
"Come on then, enlighten me" he added. Nagpalipat lipat lang sila ng tingin sa amin, as if watching a debate. They look at me expecting an answer.
"Do you really want to know my answer?" I ask him. Mabuti nga't tinanong ko pa kung gusto niyang sagutin ko ang tanong niya. He just raise his eyebrow, waiting for an answer. You gave me no choice.
"At least he's capable of loving someone and to be loved by someone even if he's a dick. How about you? I mean are you?" I ask him. His face becomes gloomy even more.
"Are you capable of loving someone? Or you're just capable of killing someone? Or did someone ever loved you?" I added. His jaw clenches but a few moments later his face recovers. He smiles viciously.
"You did," he said grinning. My body becomes rigid. I can't feel anything. My whole body felt numb.
"I didn't actually. Not in the slightest moment" I said emotionless. I felt numb. My eyes, my body, my heart. He looks at me intently, looking for something but when he found nothing, his eyes are cold mirroring mine. Then the bell rang. Hind pa nakakalabas ang professor ay nauna na siyang umalis, sumunod naman sakanya ang mga alipores niya.
Pagkatapos ng ilang mga paalala ng professor ay lumabas narin kaming lahat. Pagkalabas ko ng building ng school ay dumiretso muna ako sa library. Pagkapasok ko ng library ay naghanap ako ng tahimik na pwesto, yung ako lang ang tao. Pumunta ako sa pinaka dulo ng library at naupo sa isang upuan. Inilabas ko ang aking libro para sana magbasa ng may mapansin akong parang lumang libro o kung ano man na nasa sahig, mukhang nahulog. Pinulot ko ito at ibabalik ko na sana ng may nahulog na litrato mula rito. Pinulot ko ang litrato at binuksan ang libro. Iiipit ko nalang sana ang litrato ng mabasa ko ang nakasulat sa libro. Class 2016-2017 Section A. Yan ang nakasulat.
Parang may kung anong humihila sakin na buksan ko ang libro kaya binuksan ko ito. Mga litrato ng estudyante. It's a year book. Tinignan ko ang mga litrato. Wala naman akong makitang pamilyar na mukha sa mga ito. Isasara ko na sana ang libro ng may nahagip ang mata ko. A picture of a guy. Tinignan ko siya ng maigi at hindi nga ako nagkakamali. It's Ire. Tinignan ko ang nakasulat sa baba ng litrato niya. Ire Trasher Howard. I continue looking at the pictures as if I am searching for something. Nakita ko ang mga pictures ng grupo ni Ire. I flip through the next page, then scan their faces until something caught my attention. It was her picture. Tinignan ko ng maigi ang picture hanggang sa parang may nagflash na memory sa utak ko. There's a photographer that is taking a photo of me and telling me to smile then something flashes. Then I am back to reality. Napahawak nalang ako sa ulo ko ng bigla itong kumirot dahilan para mabitawan ko ang librong hawak ko. My head hurts so much. It's like someone is smashing my head over and over again and as my head aches that memory keeps on flashing through my mind like a kaleidoscope. It's as if I am taken back to the past. It seems so real. The photographer telling me to smile and the camera's flash. It all seems so real. What the hell is wrong with me?
I grab my book then ran outside the library. I don't know where to go. I just keep on running until I bumped into something or should I say, someone. I look up to see who it is.
"Trasher" I muttered. The feeling of his name coming out of my mouth seems familiar. It seems like, I've said it before.