I want you to imagine this, the person you've been crushing on for so long (okay, maybe to some of you six months is not long but to me it is. Do you know how it feels to see and be with the person you love but you can't touch or hold them? You don't right? No wonder you are all here judging me.), anyway, where was I? Oh yes. Imagine the person you have been crushing on for so long has just confessed to you. What would you do?
Adrian stood there looking at me and he looked like he was crushing and breaking when I didn't say anything. To say I was flabbergasted would be an understatement. I was over the moon. I couldn't believe that Adrian was in love with me. (Wow! Okay, deep breath. I need a fan. Anyone? I need like the Chinese one. Caramel or hazel coloured one. I need to fan myself. Ah, this heat. Sorry, what are you thinking? Pervert! *Ahem*)
"Gael, it's okay if you don't... mmm-mmm."
I stopped him before he could go on with my hand. I covered his mouth before he could retract his statement and I still could not find the words to reassure him. So, I did the next logical thing I could think of so as to tell him what I was feeling without words. I also needed to assure myself as much as I was doing it for him.
I took his lips. (Waaaaaaa! *ahem*) I locked his lips with mine and I intended for it to be a peck. Something to assure him that the feeling was mutual. But I was entranced by his lips. It was my first kiss, yes I didn't have any experience in kissing but I couldn't just let those lips go. I had to taste more. I felt intoxicated just from that simple taste
Adrian stood there transfixed for a second or two and then regained his senses. He responded and used his hand to lock my head from the nape. He pulled me to him and he deepened the kiss. We tasted each other. We kissed like the way one would drink water after a long journey in the sun. We kissed like our lives depended on it. We were not subtle. We used tongue and all. We licked, sucked and felt. It was the sweetest taste I have ever experienced. I wanted more.
I wished at that moment that I could hold my breath longer. I had to train. After we separated for air, we still held onto each other. We took deep breaths and panted as we still held each other's gaze then we laughed. We laughed because it was surreal. Then we hugged. It came so naturally and it felt so right. We held each other and it felt so right.
I started talking as we hugged, "I love you too Adrian. So much that it hurt me to keep it in. You don't know how happy it makes me that it's all out there now. I love you so much."
Adrian let go of me and held me at an arms length. He looked at me like he couldn't believe it then asked, "are you sure of what you are saying? You saying you love me too? You know you can't take back your words, right?"
I nodded and smiled. Then we hugged again. I held him so tight that it was like I wanted to glue him to me and he reciprocated. We matched each other in height and so our body parts were perfectly aligned. This was the
feeling I have always looked for. This was what I had been waiting for for all those years. I didn't regret waiting. My heart was home.
We let go of each other and he pulled me to sit down again. We were both looking at each other smiling. It's like we had a mutual understanding. We understood each other even without words. I loved it.
"I'm so fucking happy right now," He said as he smiled at me.
"And I am so sorry happy too and..... I have something to show you," he said and stood.
I'm still stuck at the point where he said that he loves me. I. don't think that I would get used to it any time. soon. The man of my dreams said he loved me too.
What more could I want?