South Jakarta,
August 2021
Abel is a pluviopile. She really likes the melody of the rain. But not with thunder. Abel hopes that lightning will be mute. Lightning is arrogant, because the most luminous can be angry at will. But tonight Abel must have the same fate as lightning. Want to be angry, explode, but she can't be as free as lightning.
Abel took a deep breath for the umpteenth time. The man beside her made Abel unable to be angry anymore. She don't know, she was tired of expressing everything he felt but the man didn't change at all. Abel knows he is a super busy worker. But how busy he is is still an excuse for not being able to accompany him to prepare for their wedding day.
At first Abel understood and accepted but more and more why did Abel feel he was just looking for excuses. Wouldn't it be better if he said 'I'll take my time for you' instead of 'Sorry I'm busy today, so next time'.
That man didn't know that Abel was getting tired of shedding tears just to cry over something like this. Finally, that man said that he missed Abel. Believe it or not his confession really made Abel's heart happy. Enough to make him smile all day almost mistaken for a madman.
But when he met his longing confession, it was not what Abel had imagined. That man was still silent, not looking at Abel while he was talking. Until in the end Abel had to throw away his wishful thinking about his longing. Abel pushed away the man's hand which he used to hold Abel's hand, holding Abel so that Abel wouldn't leave him. But it was too late, Abel was fed up with him. How long will this man last like this? If you want it to end, why not just say it.
"Bell, wait." He managed to grab Abel's hand again. made Abel have to stop his steps. "I'm sorry. You have to understand my situation. It's not that I don't care about our wedding plans. It's just that my work at the branch office is piling up."
"I see. I'm fine if you want to cancel this wedding plans." Abel said, still looking calm even though deep down he was getting angry
"Honey, what are you talking about?!" He said half shouting. "Don't talk carelessly. I will not cancel our wedding plans. Our wedding plans will go according to what we planned."
"Which is our plan?" Abel spat out a disdainful laugh. "We never talked about our wedding plans together. I planned this wedding." Abel pressed the tip of his index finger firmly against his chest. Enduring all the pain and fatigue in there. "So this is my plan. Not ours. And you, just minding your business. I'm tired, Tristan."
Right. Abel was already tired. Her chest was already too tight when talking about engagement. Abel just wanted Tristan to spare his time even if it was only for an hour. This was not only for her benefit, but also for Tristan's.
"Abel, honey, I'm sorry. I know I'm too busy. But I promise I'll make time for you." This sounds better. But it's too late. Abel was tired.
"Then I ask for your 24 hours starting tomorrow." Tristan was taken aback. Abel knows this is impossible even though tomorrow is a holiday. "Why? Too much? 12 hours?"
Tristan rubbed his forehead with the back of his hand.
"How about after lunch? I'll be with you all day." He offered, as if they were in a supermarket.
"It's not all day if it's after lunch. Never mind, forget it. I was just kidding. I'm asking for just one minute of your time, that's really hard, isn't it? - you just came to see me."
A gust of wind that touched the skin, made Abel's hairs tingle. She can confirm that the wind tonight will bring rain. She looked up at the dark sky briefly. The sound of thunder was still deafening. But that woman didn't care at all. She kept walking away from Tristan, without thinking about where she put her umbrella when the raindrops started to fall.
***
Even though everything seems so clear that a super busy Tristan Adiguna will not be able to make time for Abel. But still here, Abel still hopes that the man will come to her and meet her with longing words that he spit out at night. Ten minutes to lunchs Her heart is still hopeful that Tristan will come as promised last night. If he comes, it means that the word miss at that time is correct. But if not, the conclusion is that he doesn't remember Abel. Then what is the meaning of this relationship that will end at the Altar. Pseudo.
Abel checked her little watch that she had put on the nightstand. Time seemed so very slow. Many times Abel paced in the room waiting for his fiancé like a fool. Her legs, which she kicked lightly in the air, accidentally kicked a box that was sticking out under her bed. Abel frowned then bent slightly so that his hand could reach the object. Abel found a maroon box with a thick top of dust.
She blew off the dust so the shards flew into the air, causing her to have to move his face slightly away from the dust particles. With full curiosity Abel opened the lid of the box to find out what was inside. Her eyes suddenly heated up. Her whole body suddenly stiffened. Why did Abel forget about this one?
Abel sat limply on the bed. It's all stuff from Kevin a few years ago. Kevin, who she believed would recover from his amnesia, then as soon as he recalled his memory of Abel, would come to see Abel. But the truth is it's not. Kevin never came to her. With that Abel and Kevin finished. over. There will no longer be his figure in Abel's life forever. And that's when Abel's life seemed meaningless.
Empty, empty and giddy. Abel was just like the undead. Until finally Tristan appeared like a light that gradually continued to illuminate Abel, so that the road in front of hers did not become dark.
"Bell, Tristan is waiting for you downstairs. Come on down!" Mama shouted behind the open door of Abel's room. Abel immediately put all the things back in their place in a hurry and quickly threw the box under the bed.
In essence, missing Tristan is not a joke. He really missed the woman he had been in love with since one year ago. The woman who managed to disturb his head, so that his days were always filled with Abel. Tristan claimed the situation with "I love you every single day". It means that not a day goes by that she doesn't fall in love with Abel all the time. However, the problem was he wasn't the kind of guy who could clearly tell his feelings. Plus the nature of work a holic is still very doubtful to disappear.