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Bai Xi's Pov:
I don't know why after hearing all this my heart aches. Aches for something which was never there. And even though technically he is right and everything, but I can't seem to accept the hate and frustration that he feels about me, as his wife.
We have never even meet before and our marriage was completely based on the factors manipulated by our families. I didn't have a say in it, only my father had. He actually had given me an ultimatum about it. And I think the same happened from his side as well and this maybe the only reason that I could think of that he may not like me and that is acceptable but his hate, that is what befuddled me.
He started with a grave tone, "My marriage was a matter of convience and a decade old promise between my grandfather and his friend, which until now, was a duty..... I needed to fulfil it in order to honour my grandfather's promise. I accepted it wholeheartedly and I did my part." He paused before continuing, "But before I got married, I put up a condition in front of my grandfather that if I get married, I can divorce and get out of this marriage whenever I want. And now the time feels right as I have fulfilled my part and I am free to proceed however I want." He solemnly explained his reasoning.
I stood stunned into the silence as I tried to make sense of what he just said. I never knew that he had a choice. All this time I thought we both have been living in the decisions made by our families, but clearly I was wrong, so wrong!
Only I was the helpless one, he from the start had it all under control and I had been the only one with no choice in this marriage. I got into it all vulnerable with no surety and now what he just said made me realise how stupid I was to get into it.
A lone tear escaped from my eye, I discreetly wiped it. I refused to let him see me more vulnerable than he already had.
His side was facing me, so he missed that. I inhaled deeply before letting my emotions recede back, because right now I don't want to show it to him more.
Without letting any emotion betraying my voice I asked him, "Then, What now?"
He turned to me and told me with surety and confidence radiating in his voice, "I am going to divorce her." He said without any hesitation.
My heart thudded against my chest at his decision.
I felt emotionally empty by his sentence. I gulped deeply before putting on a straight face and masking my hurt by putting on a neutral face.
He bent over me and cradled my face as the words of promises spewed out of his mouth, but this time they only make me feel hollow.
I pulled back slightly, his hand still cradling my face but I subtly pushed them away as I looked up— at his face, but not meeting his eyes.
Taking a deep breath, I started to say something but nothing came out. Before I could crumble, I changed the topic and asked him, "When would we be reaching the shore?"
"You want to go back?" he asked with a frown marring on his forehead as he tried to discern my expression. Nonetheless he wouldn't find anything as I have already put on a neutral face after I asked him.
But I think it didn't as well as I hoped, as he still asked me, "Is anything wrong? Tell me what's wrong?" his expression changing into one of tense as if he really cares for what I feel.
Duh! As if anything could be more wrong! But I am not ready to confront anything to him as I still don't know how will he react to the situation.
"Did I say something wrong" he asked with a contemplative look on his face.
"Is it about all that I said just now?", he asked with a frown edged on his face.
I sighed before I faced him directly and told him with a sure tone, "Listen, I don't want to do this..." gesturing with my hands between us, "..not anymore. I shouldn't have done any of that. Our relationship or whatever it is between us should not have happened and it was a mistake from the start. I thought that what we have is something and maybe it could have been but it isn't and I realise that now, clearly, and all this time I feel we were just playing around the truth." I said with as much conviction sounding in my voice as I could muster.
I turned around to face the sea as the night sky slowly took over the Sunset and offshore lights shined brighter in the sky. The view looked fantastic but I didn't get to enjoy it more as I was forcefully turned around as the man's presence loomed over me.
He looked shocked and a little scared as he took hold of my hand to stop me from turning around again, "What do you mean by saying, this is a mistake?" he said forcing my chin up to look in his eyes.
His eyes spitting fire as if he would scorch anything that would cross his path now or denying what he believes as the truth.
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