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"Now tell me the real reason what is all this about. It just couldn't be because of all that bullshit you just said." He asked his tone riddled with disbelief.
"I am not lying and whatever I said is the truth so stop trying to distort what I said. Instead leave me alone from now on." I yelled back.
He grunted with a scoff, "And now all of a sudden, you are suddenly very conscious that I have a wife and you seem a bit too troubled about the fact." He paused before continuing, "And even if that isn't anything then tell me does it matter when you were kissing me her husband? when you were fantasising about me, touching something which was not yours to touch. you didn't think then and suddenly you are being overtly concerned about her. You are just two faced selfish women who doesn't know what she is saying who thinks that you know what you are doing by trying to be righteous when you are just a liar from the start." he spited out with an indignation, hate clearly etched into his face.
And I snapped back," Yess, I don't know whatever I am saying or doing and yes, I am selfish because I didn't realise this sooner even after knowing the fact you are married I let myself fall into this situation, because the moment you said those words in your balcony which were the most genuine words I have ever heard in my life from anyone, I was a goner. And that was my fault. I fell for you even after knowing all that is between us and all that you are, a husband to someone else. Your identity didn't matter in the face of your words which left me completely unguarded against you. I am sorry to you and myself for letting us come to this moment even though I tried so hard to pull myself back. But even after letting us to this moment, nothing is changed. You are still married and I am still the other women and that is the reality and I am not going to let myself continue with this."
I left it at that letting all the vulnerability in my voice as I couldn't stop my voice from faltering but towards the end I hardened it to be the way it has to be, to cut it off completely and I am not more better than I ever was.
His eyes which has softened after hearing my initial words became glaring towards the end. His stance oozed ferocity as he looked as if someone wounded him deeply.
And I welcomed the heartbreak shining in them, because this is the right thing to do, no matter how much it pains me, atleast it would be better than hate that would be present in them if my identity is revealed.
"I hate you" He condemned before storming off to God knows where.
I stood there rooted as the boat docked and Si Yihan stormed off into the night.
I stood there as silent tears poured out of me making my agony intensify as I felt too drained to move.
After standing there like that for I don't know how long, I finally moved and got off the boat.
There was a car waiting for me when I got off which I realised has been waiting for me to drop me off. I didn't turned it down as I know it is a remote place and there is no way out of here without a vehicle.
And after getting into the car I realised that even in this anger he didn't forget to think about me. I didn't dare cry and only told thr guy to get me home.
I don't know how I made my way back home but I did and headed straight to the shower, to the bathtub and sinked into it after bringing a bottle of vodka along with me.
I drowned myself in self pity and hate and didn't realise when I dozed off.
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A buzz sound in the clear of the night woke me up as I scrambled up and around to look for the source of the noise.
I reached across the nighstand to draw my phone and scrambled to put it up when Claire my manager from the art gallery called to inform me about the dreaded deadline that is set for the next presentation of the artwork.
I sobered up during the call and remembered what happened last night. I didn't even remember how I got out of the bathtub let alone on the bed. I was so out of the character last night. Usually there is nothing that rattles me but last night was a breaking point for me.
I tried to focus back on Claire and to stop my mind from wandering back to last night.
Claire detailed me on the needs but I didn't heed to anything as nothing can infiltrate my brain right now other than what happened last night.
She gabbed some more as I got out of my bed and moved to the bathroom and turned on the lights.
The reflection in the mirror are two big giant panda eyes staring back at me cussing up on my dreadful appearance but I know this is something that I should have expected after last night's crying spree.
I couldn't help myself as all these years I have stayed back from everything that could be potentially dangerous to my ire,never making any friends or letting anyone get close to me then what was necessary, to protect myself from any potential heartbreak that I might face from it.
I snapped out of the depressing thoughts as I tried to focus back on whatever Claire is saying and I cut her off mid sentence, "Schedule it today, I will start it tonight"
I hanged up before she could reply back and turn on the faucet to clear off the dreary look and washed my face. But the cold water hardly helped as the swelling in my eyes didn't go down and I was met with a pair of pale skin and hopeless eyes.
I sighed and took a shower and rinsed off the tiredness and tried to look better for the first day of university.