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Bai Xi's Pov:
The sense of relief coursed through me making me breath a sigh out. It was scary to think that I almost completely lost myself and went reverting back to my old self. From then on I am scared of myself. My scarred old self which never saw anything other than disappointments and worse of everything. It always makes me scared to even think about that. Any possibility that I might turn back to that has me feeling broken all the time.
Seeing my uncle in that car made me think of all my nightmares and I was relieving them all in that single moment. I would never want to revert back to that, ever. I got out of it after breaking and then reshaping every single piece of myself that now all I have is a bandaged body and I cannot afford another break down.
If not for Si Yihan today, it might have taken me longer to snap out of my stupor. It was the look in his eyes which made me snap out of it all. Seeing him standing there looking worried about me made me feel that I am not alone, not anymore.
I pulled back from his embrace as he was caressing my back gently. I looked up at him and I couldn't be more relieved to know that he came when he did.
"Are you okay?", him asking that soothed my burned heart.
"Yeah, I am fine." I replied back still looking at his face. It has been a week since I last saw him and I realised how much I missed him. His warm glance and his secured arms.
"You scared the fuck out of me, Love. Don't do that again. I almost died seeing that look on your face. It made me think of just getting you out of whatever you were stuck into. Please don't do that again" he said almost pleadingly.
I nodded at him and he pulled me to him saying, "You are so cold", pulling my hands upto his mouth blowing warm breaths over it. I didn't realise I was cold until I felt the warmth of his breath.
After warming them he pulled me to his car which I now see is parked just beside the street I was standing on. He pulled open the back door and helped me inside. He got inside from the other side and asked the driver to turn on the heater. He took my hands back and held them in between his hands, keeping them warm.
I smiled at his gesture and asked, "How'd you came here? And weren't you supposed to be in London?"
"My work finished earlier than expected so I came back as soon as the earliest flight could get me here. I landed an hour ago and came straight here cause I was dying to see you because I missed you so badly! I was coming to meet you, when I saw you standing there. I pulled over and then stood before you , tried to snap you out of it but you didn't respond and that really freaked me out." his tone etched with concern.
"I am really sorry for worrying you like that."
"Shh, don't be sorry love. Just be okay!" he said as he kissed me on my forehead.
I realised the car has already stopped but we were too involved in the conversation earlier that I didn't notice. We were at the gate of the residential area. I lowered the window and after seeing my face the watchman allowed the car inside.
I directed them to my building which was a few metres inside. We stopped by at the entrance and got out. I took his hand this time pulling him to the elevator. We didn't decide on my house, it was random and mutual, silent decision of coming here.
I keyed in my passcode and asked him, "Come in", as I felt a little conscious of my house and mentally thinking if there is any mess I left.
I put the keys on the table and pulled out my slippers from the shoe rack when I turned to him and realised that I didn't have any for males. He was looking at me without saying anything, leaving me to contemplate on what to do with this situation. I told him to wait and got a new pair of slippers which are also—female as I really don't get any male guests, even Shen hue has never been taken a step in,since I always send him off before he could ever step a foot inside.
I said in a slight sheepish voice, "You will have to make do with this", his lips twitched on seeing the slippers but he didn't say anything just wore them on. The slippers covered only a little more than half of his feet, the rest left hanging out from behind. He didn't say anything and looked back at me, as if asking me to what to do next!
As if I can dictate him!
I only said, "Hm, pink Suits you" teasingly, as I judged his feet and I have to admit that even with these hideous slippers on, his feet looked nothing less than fine.
I mentally shook my head at this guy and his ability to nail every look. He has got me perplexed with how someone can look so good, respite of whatever he is wearing. I am sure by now that even with rags on he would still ooze masculinity at it's finest.
"Well it's your pink baby! And everything with your tag suits me more than just fine!!"he said smirkingly and then winked at me.
He...winked...at....me!!!!
Oh my god!!! That smirk and that wink together made me feel a tingle shoot up my spine.
The audacity of this guy to flirt anywhere.
I gulped and motioned him to move inside. I took a moment to calm my rattled nerves and then went in to find him already standing in the living area, looking around. He went to the shelf and looked through the stuff there, which is actually small hand sized square shaped paintings lining up a small block of the shelf.
He looks pretty comfortable with the place already! And I also didn't feel any aversion to his presence here.
I rarely like anyone else in my personal space but with him I actually forgot about all this and didn't think about it before just now...to let him in.
Even after realising the fact, I feel okay with him and his presence.
His presence seems to have an effect of relaxing me like no one else. I was never this close or comfortable with anyone not even with Shen hue or feng jun, even though they know a little about me and have been a part of my life longer than anyone else ever.
So knowing that I feel comfortable with him here, only makes me realise that this situation is so fastly escalating into something which I don't think I would ever wanna let go.
Because what he is making me feel is more than anything I have felt and he is already making me feel more than addicted to him....
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