ALEXA'S POV .
With the cheating in my head , l kept myself lost in my thoughts that l didn't release that Mark had entered in the room . It was after he showered that I noticed his presence . As usual , I soon enough felt the bed sink besides me but this time he shockingly wrapped up his hand around my waist .
At just that touch , l felt anger run down to my spine but then just as l slowly reprimanded myself to calm down , l felt his erection pressing against my back and that ruined all my moods . Feeling it , I closed my eyes tightly in dilemma . I was now angry and puzzled . After him lying to the kids , he seriously had the guts to just come over and wrap up his hand around my waist .
Besides that , l now didn't crave for him . When I was sex starved he didn't care , he ignored me . Adrian gave me the attention that l was wanting from him for a long time and now l didn't want him . Uninterested , l stayed stiff with no word and movement made . I inwardly knew it already that he might had a thought that l would react quickly in excitement and willingly give myself to him .
" Hurry up and open up your legs for me " , When l didn't say or do anything even after feeling him near , he groaned out in an angry voice . Hearing him say that , l bit my lower lip in anger . I didn't want this , l wasn't in the mood but I had to do it , l had to do it for the sake of kids . I have beared him up all these years only because of the kids . Am beneficiary not stable so l wasn't sure whether I would manage to take care of them in case l move away from him .
" You know I don't appreciate being ignored " , He growled again distracting me from my thoughts . " I wasn't ignoring you , l Know it that you here " , l replied calmly though l was dying with anger inwardly . " I don't appreciate the attitude " , He barked angrily while sitting up . " I don't also appreciate your a.... " , Recalling my kids , l helplessly shut up my mouth . " You going to do your best to please me and make up for this poor attitude tonight " , he sneered out and just before l could respond to him , he gathered my hair at the top and pulled it the thing which made me scream out in pain .
" Haven't you heard me , just open up your legs and stay still ". He seethed . Just for the sake of kids , I did speechlessly as he said and in just one one hard thrust he was inside . With him inside , l clenched my eyes shut in pain . I wasn't surprised when he didn't check whether I was wet or not . This was him , he only wants to satisfy himself .
With my hair in his grip , he pounded in to me hardly without caring whether l was enjoying or not . Feeling nothing but pain , l tried to move my ass to meet his thrusts but it was all useless. He rammed in to me while showing me that he was the master . After some time , I brought my hand down and started to play with my clit .
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I did it with a thought that l would feel just like the way l did with Adrian but then just when it began to feel good , he grunted out and pulled his dick out . With no o****m , I laid there in disbelief , l had a thought that he would at least make me feel good since it had been a long time since we last had sex but nothing changed .
" Uhmm " , Humming in disappointment , l crawled from the bed then l walked in to the bathroom . While in the bathroom , l cleaned myself while staring at myself . Just one night with Adrian made me feel like I was in heaven . He ran his hands all over my body but Mark did nothing .
After some time , l lastly walked back in the room but I unfortunately found him snoring . Shaking my head , l climbed back in to the bed and tried to snuggle in to him but he instantly moved me away . " Get away from me am tired " , He snapped and my stomach dropped that instant. People change but Mark will never change .
The next day was still the same , he acted like he hadn't slept with me in the night . He even walked out of the house so early so that he could avoid the questions of the kids . " I really need to start something " , Done with the home chores , l sat down on the couch while inwardly murmuring to myself . After that night with Adrian l found out that I have lost myself in one more way than one . Maybe a part time job will help me find myself and also stop being helpless .