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Chapter 15 - I need her

ALEXA'S POV.

How could emptiness be so heavy , to feel unworthy of love , to feel lost . That's how I have been feeling since that night . It has been two weeks since l slipped out of his bed while he was asleep . While sleeping with him , l felt good in his warmth but I instantly changed my mind when I recalled that Mark was going to come back home at 11am . I didn't want him to notice that l was away .

After that night , Mark and l haven't spoken yet which l was glad . After having a good pleasurable night with Adrian , It made me realize that it has been me who always tried my level best to make things work out with Mark . I realized that he felt happy to ignore me , he felt happy for me to be his cleaner , his maid that is what am l to him.

That night l got home at ,4 am with a thought that l was early but shockingly l found Mark already sleeping soundly in the bed . At first while standing up in the door l felt my body freeze the instant l saw him asleep in the bed . I went out with a thought that he would come back home at his usual time but this time , he came back earlier .

Just like someone who didn't care and love me , he never rang me or text me to ask where l was . With my core sore from the heated moment , l ignored him too , just wore my night dress then slept at the end of the bed . The next morning he found me on the shower floor and told me harshly to make him his breakfast .

He still didn't care or ask where the hell l was last night . I was totally useless in his life because even after making him break fast , he didn't appreciate me , he just left without saying goodbye . All l did throughout those weeks with him gone was crying in the bathroom . This time l didn't cry because of Mark ignoring me but what l did the night l went out with Bella .

Right l liked the moment l had with Adrian but every time , my eyes fall on my kids , l felt guilty . I cheated , l didn't think about my kids , l now felt guilty for cheating . " Mummy why are you ignoring me , can we go to the park and buy me icecream am bored " , Seated in the sofa , the thoughts of Adrian and l we're distracted when l heard Ivan's voice .

" Am sorry for ignoring you " , l smiled sadly at him while running my fingers through my messy hair . ". Are you going to take us then ? " , Chrissy asked . " Yes but give me some minutes to prepare myself ,am gonna come back and we go " , l murmured while running my fingers over their cheeks . With my little kids , I really needed to put everything behind and care about them .

" Mum why are you sad everytime , have we done something wrong to upset you , we have tried to be good , it just hard to bear up when we are bored " , Just as I stood up to go and prepare myself , Jessica out of the blue walked in the living room . " Yes mum , you no longer watch movies with us " , Chrissy added and at that a sad smile formed on my face . Her words only made me to recall the time Mark told them that l do nothing except watching their monsters and the way he embarrassed me in the public . Before l could answer them , a tear instantly slipped down but l rubbed it from my face quickly , the last thing l wanted to do is my kids seeing me crying .

" Let me go change and take you to the park " , l murmured before I stood up from the couch .

ADRIAN'S POV .

Two weeks that's how long it has been . She left me in the middle of the night , no goodbye , no anything , no good bye kiss but l did get it , l don't blame her . It was just a one night stand with nothing more . That's what l also told her but as soon as she got in to my bed , l needed her as mine the thing which was impossible because she was already married .

As a CEO in Montane Corpx Company , l have tried my level best to concentrate on the work but I have failed . Instead of concentrating in the different meetings and working as James my father wanted me , l just kept searching her every where . I did everything I could but it was like she had vanished . There was no trance of her. I even went back to the bar and asked but they didn't give me anything about her . It was her first time to go in the club and they had no information about her . " I need to stop this , she is married , nothing is going to come out of this " , After two weeks of searching , l found nothing about her and seated in my office , l groaned out in anger .