Ps- i changed the pov... SORRY, it was driving me insane :)
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Eddie is jumping up and down. He physically can't hold in his excitement. "Oh my god!" He shouts, "I see him. Ronnie James Dio." My eyes are fixed on him, and I feel his excitement transfer to me. I get a sudden spike of adrenaline. Dio is speaking in the microphone, but it's hard to hear with all the excitement around Eddie and I. It's crowded. Very crowded. Eddie grabs my hand, making me instantly calm. The crowd quiets, and I realize a song began playing. I tried to zone out and attempt to only hear the song. "Fallen Angels," I declare. "How'd you know?" Eddie laughed. "What? You think I don't know his songs?" "Well, I never said that," he smiles a dumb smile. One that means he loves whatever I'm saying. One that makes me mad. "What are you smiling at lover-boy?" Eddie grabs my hips. Maybe his touch is like lava or something. Yeah, that would explain it. I'm constantly melting away. I pull myself closer to him. "We are diamonds that shine without fire," he sings softly. I can't help but laugh. "Hell yeah we are," I chuckle. Eddie pretends he's holding a microphone, "We're fallen angels." I laugh, dropping my head. Eddie moves, his arm close to me. I feel him touch my chin, and he lifts it up with his finger. Eddie leans down, kissing me gently at first, then it hits him, turning more desperate. He finally pulls away, lets go of my waist. The look on his face says it all. I wrap my hands around his neck, startled, his hands travel back to my waist. I pull him back to me. Breathe. These little moments are what keeps my heart beating. For once, Eddie smells really good. Please breathe. I'm kissing him like he's air, and I still can't breathe. My hands are in his hair. His knee is between my knees now. I feel dizzy. His hands are grabbing tighter. I hear a new song playing. "No no no no no no no," I faintly heard Dio sing. Breathless. How fitting. I start seeing shapes and colors, like when you rub your eyes for a long time. I pull away to breathe. "'Cause you're breathless, ready to burn," Dio sings. Air has never tasted so good. Eddie takes a step back, breathing heavily. Where we are standing there is a lot of space. I love this day.
I think it's been an hour. Eddie is so engaged, contantly singing, pretending to play his guitar, and pretty much anything else a teenager would do. But he isn't a teenager. He is classified as an adult. The place reeks of weed and alcoholic men. But, in a sense, it is comforting. Maybe because since all of the shit I've been shoved into caused a major break down. Or that my role model was murdered in front of me by a person I trusted. A person who gave the effort to birth me. A person who chose to raise a family. Maybe she was tired of it. Maybe she realized her mistake. Maybe I was the mistake! What if my dad got her pregnant on accident, and had a grudge since! I was her pretty little mistake. I hope she rots in hell. Yet, after all of that, the two things that built me back up were Eddie and drugs. Maybe some alcohol too. Now, I'm comfortable with this lifestyle. I want to become a druggie. Why? Because I want a life.
"You okay?" Eddie asks. Thinking. Reflecting. Pondering. Ing words. "I'm fine," I smile. He doesn't ask again. He won't, he knows what's best. I'm exhausted. Collapsing on the ground. Eddie knows. His arms secure me around the waist. The world wants to fade away. I want to with it. The only thing I understand is his words flooding in my ear. Eddie pulls me into his lap and suddenly I am secure. Secure but not safe. I still want to cut off my limbs. Slit my wrists. Take boiling hot showers. Hold ice until my hands physically can't function. Anything that will take away my guilt. I can feel him looking. "It doesn't exist, Ellie." Suddenly my heart stops. Of course! I finally have the courage to look at him. And he is looking at me with such emotion. I nearly split down the middle. Eddie wiped my tears. Forgetting years of suppressing emotions is incredibly difficult, but not impossible. I keep filling my mind with lies like 'dad is in the hospital' 'mom loves you' 'Jason never raped anyone' 'A demogorgan is just a Dungeons and Dragons character'. I am stupid enough to believe it. I hug Eddie. "Don't live by it though," Eddie pulls away, "it's unhealthy. Just pretend it doesn't exist until you are strong enough to face it." I nod, not understanding anything.
Then the crowd got silent. Like deadly silent. Then the noise gets obnoxiously loud, and we can finally hear it. "It's a new song!" Eddie shouts. "Do you like the dark?" he's singing, "do you like the way it moves?" The song is very intriguing. Then I hear the lyric that determines the title of the song. "Night people," he says slowly. Eddie looked at me, "we're night people." "What are you referring to?" I ask knowing full well he isn't talking about the song. "Nothing," he shrugs it off with a smile.
(Psst- this next part is referring to chapter 21)
"Eddie," I ask. "Hm?" he turns to me. "Do you remember when we were in Steve's pool with everyone?" "Which time?" he asked. I ignored his question and continued talking, "and Nancy told me to do something." Eddie looks at me, searching for an answer hidden in my eyes, "and that was?" I grab his belt and pull him in to kiss him. This time, Eddie melted. Leaning in for more. "Fuck," he whispers in between a kiss. He abruptly stops, "I told you not to do that. That I wouldn't be responsible for what happened after!" "That's fine," I pause, "I will take responsibility." Eddie nearly fainted. "No turning back now," Eddie grinned, and without thinking, I pulled his collar. Kisses. Leading to my neck. My chest. Pause. Back up. "I am going to love tonight," I groan softly. Hot breath. Loud concert. Gorgeous brown eyes staring at me. It's been hours. "We're leaving early," Eddie finally declared. "Not yet," I pause, "I want you to have the best experience." Eddie whines, "you're torturing me." "Just listen to him a bit longer, then we'll talk." We came here for Dio. Eddie has to remember some of this concert.
He lasted a solid 15 minutes. Eddie grabbed my hand and pulled me through the crowd towards the exits. I'm pretty sure the concert ends in 30 minutes. There was already a crowd to leave. "Fine Mr. I-Can't-Wait-Until-One-Of-My-Favorite-Rock-Artist-Is-Done-Because-My-Girlfriend-Is-Very-Hot," Eddie cuts me off. "Please, call me Mr. You-Said-You-Would-Take-The-Responsibility...Munson." "Okay, Mr You-Said-You-Would-Take-The-Responsibility...Munson." Eddie shoves my shoulder, "Shut up." He smiles. I smile back. Fuck, am I happy. I don't think I have felt such a rush of emotions. I feel his hand on the small of my back. Suddenly, memories of when we first met flood into my brain. When he took me to the store when I had nothing, demanding to take me. When we first kissed. When he saved me from the awful man that was going to kidnap me. I am smiling so brightly, that Eddie looks at me. "What?" he laughs as he asks. "You," is all my stupid brain would come up with, "god you just." Eddie smiles and looks at the sky for a moment. We are almost out of the gates. "You loved me from the start, I can tell that now." I stare at the ground as we walk. "Damn right," Eddie interlocks his fingers with mine. We make it out of the gates, but continue walking. "From the minute you saw me from across the street," I think, "you weren't watching the show of Steve, but of me. Damn, you were obsessed." Eddie laughs to himself. We approach a darker part of the sidewalk. "You were so patient, waiting for me to grief. And when Jason raped me, Eddie, I don't think you have ever left me." He stopped for a moment, realizing what I have just accepted. "Eddie, you are one of the first people I have trusted," I'm choking on air, "you have been waiting for so long, I have been waiting for so long, and you are right here!" I hug Eddie. "Thank you," I say, he wobbles around losing his balance, but eventually hugs me tightly, "thank you for waiting." We stay like this for a long time. "I love you," he says softly in my ear. Eddie's voice rings in my ear. His arms are wrapped around my waist. I close my eyes.
We eventually catch a cab. Eddie's hand is in the slit of my dress between my thighs. His thumb moving constantly. I mess with his foot, pushing mine below his foot pushing and pulling it around. He looks at me, not turning his head. I stop. Eddie pulls my dress up. I just about die. A sharp inhale. I place my hand on Eddie's hand and my head shoots back. We are both breathing heavily. His rings are ice on my skin while the rest of his hand is lava. Eddie is whispering something to himself. My focus breaks when I heard the driver say, "Almost there." I learn how to breath, only for a moment. Eddie takes his hand off my thigh. I see the hotel. I am a little nervous, I realize. I know exactly what is going to happen. When it will happen. But not how. Eddie has changed. He was sloppy and unorganized before we got together. But he changed. He woke up. He is prepared for almost everything now. He has already decided how to kiss me, where to kiss me, when, how-shit even why- that's what scares me the most. I'm sure he dreamt this night for years, even if he didn't even know me, but I'm sure he saw it coming.
We are in the elevator. Eddie has his hands on my waist, and I'm pressed up against him. I'm breathing heavily. Eddie gets the memo. "Ellie," he drops his hands to grab my hand, turns me to face him, "don't be worried. You're supposed to have fun." I realize how soft he's gotten. I smile. The door opens.
Eddie gestures to walk into the room. I sit on the edge of the bed. Eddie stares from the other side of the room. "What?" I ask softly. "You know," Eddie walks closer to me, "you can always turn back, I am fine. I don't want you worked up over this." I look up at him, thinking. "No," I say, "I am ready. I don't give a shit about what happened with Jason. All I want- all I need is you Eddie." Eddie smiles. The kind of smile that makes me melt. All I can do is blink. He leans down and kisses me.
I know I won't forget this night.
Because this is everything.
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sorry if this chapter sounds kinda off, if feels off to me idk. took me a little while. well, this was supposed to be ellie finally getting what she wanted, without being interrupted by life or annoying kids.
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