You know when you have a dream and it goes all perfect and then sometimes when you let it go on it goes bizarre?
I have had these dreams for two years and by far this is one of the most strangest ones.
I mean, no one knows what will happen next in a dream but these dreams happen in the same place every time: the forest.
I drink more of the potion that was given to me as a kid. I have a good supply of the potion but sadly I don't remember the kid who gave it to me; he disappeared a few years after we became friends, I go to sleep instantly and go straight into the dream.
*dream*
I'm waiting for a person that says we are friends right here in the middle of the forest. A dark foggy night with a beautiful blood moon in the sky. Well, it's not that foggy but a bunch of mist from our waists and below. It's a cloudless night with a bunch of stars in the sky.
I'm standing downhill of where I usually am when I meet up with this guy who some how got in my dreams.
He told me to drink the potions from my childhood to continue seeing him. I've been having to ration it to a teaspoon a night maybe less.
Every time we meet; he gives me a gift that somehow is never in the stores until a week later and when I wake up, they're on my bed or me.
For instance, he gave me this dress for my birthday the other night and when I woke up it was on my dresser in a box with a large pink bow.
So I'm wearing it to show my appreciation while I wait for the wonder boy that I've known for two years; he hasn't gave me his name yet, but I hope he tells me tonight.
"You look beautiful." He says walking downhill towards me.
"Oh! You're finally here!" I exclaim with anticipation of seeing him.
"I was worried you wasn't going to come." I add shyly tucking my hair behind my ear.
He looks at me in a way that screams "are you going to say anything else besides 'oh you're finally here'"
"Thank you for the dress! It's beautiful!" I blurt out like an idiot.
"You're welcome, Helang." He says softly with a small smile at his lips.
Oh.
My.
God!
This is the first time he's actually said my name...it's so cute.
He's cute!
Crap stop thinking!
"So I wanted to ask you something..." he says nervously while fidgeting with his fingers.
"What may that be?" I tease him hitting his chest lightly.
He rubs the back of his head and I get nervous.
"Heh, you sound like you're uncomfortable to ask me." I say looking down.
I kind of have this good but freaky feeling about what's going to happen.
I know he's probably nervous and been waiting for the right time to say what he wants to say.
Out of my peripheral vision I notice he is looking me up and down; it's kinda weird but oh well.
The dress I have on is somewhat of a cocktail summer dress. It's beautiful and black with pink going around the borders of the bottom.
"I kind of am. I shouldn't be because I've been practicing for a long time but it's still nerve wracking."
He says being open with me.
He pulls a blanket out and gestures for me to sit down to which I happily accept.
We sit in silence for a bit while he works on getting his courage back up.
I listen to my surroundings and close my eyes in comfort.
I always feel safe and at home in nature.
I breath in the scents around me and happily shake my body at the earthy smells.
"Helang, are you okay?" He asks me with a raised eyebrow.
I blush deeply and let out a small laugh.
"Yea I'm fine!" I says cheekily while scratching my head in embarrassment.
He simply nods and we go back into our silence again.
He lays down and pats the blanket softly so I lay down too.
I giggle in glee being this way with him.
The only times I feel happy is when I go to sleep to see him. He always gives me a reason to wake up and push through when all I want to do is stay still and numb.
I shake my head to stop thinking. I don't want to bring negative energies into my happy space.
I subconsciously let a whimper out and he grabs my hand and gives it a gentle squeeze; I squeeze back in appreciation.
"You sure you're ok?" He asks with concern.
I open my eyes and look at him with a sad smile.
I wish I could tell you everything...
"I'm fine...I have to be...otherwise...where would I be?" I say tears trying to fall.
He gives me a sad smile and cuddles me to him where I cry for just a moment. I'm dreaming after all.
What's the harm?
"Helang?"
I hum in response.
He clears his throat and sits up.
In confusion I sit up as well.
"I'm...I'm ready...to ask you."
I nod in encouragement.
"Do you want to be with me forever? You know if you want to I'll let you and all you'll have to do is ask me…I'll find a way to save you…" He says trailing off in nerves.
In shock; I open and close my mouth several times before I can form any coherent words.
"I don't know…I barely know you…" I stutter out not really sure what else to say.
Why am I freaking out so bad?
I have a major crush on this guy but I don't even know if he's real or not!
What would happen to me if I say yes?
Would I just not wake up….
"You've known me for over two years!" He bursts out.
"How can you say you don't know anything about me?" He says with hurt in his voice scooting away a bit.
"But I don't even know your name…who are you?" I whimper out.