"I'm not letting her leave. I promised not to let her out of my sight, I can't let her go!" I cry out desperately to the guys.
Seth blows out a breath in frustration and seethes out:
"Jessie; you barely know this girl! Why the hell are you sayin' that you love her?"
I explode in frustration and despair.
"I do know her! Believe it or not, she's known me for two years, and I've known her since she was a little girl. I'm just a year older than her. She doesn't even remember me cause she was so young. But we were friends at the time until I was abandoned by my parents."
I pause to take in a breath and I wipe my face aggressively.
"Jessie....this is probably not even easy for her. When you kissed her; their wasn't even
a spark of light before she slapped you. She's terrified. Being that you're a werewolf, she'll be even more afraid. She's a human for moon goddesses sake! It wont work out for you two!" He rants.
"I dont care if it wont work out! She knows me!" I despair.
"I gave her something when she was little, and it allowed her see me in her dreams. She knows that I love her and I'm not letting her out of my sight. She knows I wont.
She knows!"
I say to myself getting more desperate by the minute.
She's been gone now for hours and I'm on edge.
Especially knowing that Steven is the one hiding her. I already warned him to fuck off from her but then he did this?!
I'll make him pay.
Seth clears his throat to bring me back.
"Jessie...you do realize that if you want her to stay here forever, she'll have to die and become one of us. Right?" Shadow says cautiously.
"I'm not gonna let her die. I can't let her. " I say too quietly.
"Jessie what Shadow is trying to say is that her lover or mate is the one who has to kill her. And we know that it's not gonna be easy for you to do that."
"You know what! I
don't care what you guys say. I'm going to go find her! Steven better pray to the moon goddess!" I shout out in warning.
" John Carter! Stay here until she at least comes back.
If she is not here by tomorrow, then you can go look for her. Until then stay here."
Shadow hisses at me.
I huff out but I know what he's saying is right.
She's scared and it's all my fault.
I storm off to my room and slam the door.
I guess all i can do now is wait.
I lay down in my bed and stretch my arms before comfortably laying them under my head.
I hate being called John Carter....
"John Carter! Come here my precious baby. It's time for dinner..."
The faint remembrance of my mothers soft voice and I fade into a dreamless sleep.
.
.
.
"Helang..." I gently shake her again.
She groans but doesn't wake up.
I smile.
We fell asleep last night cuddled together hence leading to the best sleep I've ever had.
I know it has to end now. Helang is my mate yet she doesn't seem aware of it.
I want her but Jessie doesn't want me near her.
"I hope you don't freak out when you find out what we are." I softly whisper.
...I hope you know I'll always take care of you...
It took some convincing but I finally got her awake. She was really jumpy but she calmed down a bit.
"You hungry?" I asked her.
She nodded her head and sat up.
I zoom in on the scar at her stomach and she looks down and instantly covers herself with a crimson blush.
Looking very uncomfortable, I decide to change the subject and ask her what she would like.
She gives a thoughtful look and shyly asks if I have any cereal.
I smile and we head to the kitchen.
"Steven..." Helang says cautiously and almost too quietly.
I turn around absolutely loving the way my name sounds rolling off her tongue.
"Where are we?" She asks.
Tears prick at her eyes and I realize she's still terrified.
"We're at my dads house. He doesn't let anyone come here besides me." I say calmly to her.
She takes in a deep breath and exhales shakily.
"Did you put me to sleep last night... when I was freaking out?" She asks averting her gaze to the floor as soon as I look at her.
She's so broken. Only thing I can do is be absolutely honest with her even if she becomes more terrified.
"Unfortunately not. Jessie has the medicine kit that contains your emergency PTSD medication. When he saw you having an episode; he used it. Shortly after, I grabbed you and took off when you whispered out for someone to help you."
I calmly relay to her and she starts sniffling.
"I understand that you're going through a lot of changes right now and that you were just thrown into a house full of random people; but I promise you that we're not bad people. We just make stupid choices sometimes."
She shudders at the memory of my idiot brother trying to strangle her.
i seethe with fury on the inside but remain calm as to not startle her further.
She nods her head seemingly unconvinced of my promise but does her best to be optimistic of her current situation.
Her stomach growls, I crack a half smile and grab a couple different cereals from the cupboard.
She hungrily eyes the different boxes before grabbing a colorful crunchy cereal that tastes like pure sugar. I grab the milk from the fridge as she navigates the pantries for a bowl before crying out with a triumphant AHA!
She pours herself a bowl and starts hungrily wolfing down the food; I pour myself a bowl as well.
We eat in silence but I look up at her every now and again to keep watch on her well being.
She finishes her food and lets out a sad sigh.
I look up and notice tears streaming down her face.
"Everything ok Helang?"