It had been almost a week since I had last seen Mateo. I couldn't explain why I felt a certain emptiness in me every time I went to work and he was not there.
We were not friends or anything like that so I wasn't supposed to feel anything. I somehow couldn't stop thinking about the kiss that we had shared.
I know how it sounded, pathetic. I had never found myself in such a situation. What even made it worse was the fact there was no way I could ever be with him.
Maybe I was delusional to think that we could ever be to get here because that was not something that was ever going to happen.
That was not something I would ever forget because it would look like I had betrayed my family. They did not forgive easily.
I made my way to the room where I was supposed to see a patient. My plan had worked out finally as the patient was now recovering given the state that he was in.
"He is doing good", said Erin as he sedated him.
"Yes he is", I said smiling.
I had gotten close to Erin the past few days and she had become one of the dearest fire da that I ever had before.
"Do we have any other patients we are supposed to check ok right now?", she asked me as we left the room.
"No not really do you want to go and get something to eat?", I asked her.
"Yeah sure am starving.
Even though we were close I didn't tell her everything. I did g want her to think of me as some freak. It did t matter how much she liked me there we were just something that people could not just look past.
We both took milk and some muffins and went to the dog by a shed that was outside the hospital.
"When are you goo g to come over, it's lonely with just my brothers ", I said to her.
"Well I don't know maybe the day after tomorrow not sure if I'll sleep at my place tomorrow", she said smiling and I was a little excited thinking that she was going to see someone.
"Who's the lucky guy? ", I asked her.
"No it's not like that, my friend Curtis Arlington invited me over to their palace they have a celebration ", she said chuckling.
"So now you are even friends with royalty", I said sarcastically.
"Kind of but I worked for them when my parents died so I have known him for most of my life", she said a look of sadness covering her face.
I had never asked her anything about her parents or anything because I felt that was something that someone said if only they felt like it a d I did t want to push it.
"That's so sad am sorry you had to go through that", I said and I could tell that it was not something she liked to talk about.
"So you and that doctor? ", she asked.
"I haven't seen him for over a week, I don't know if he is around and just trying to avoid me but maybe it's for the better this way", I said shrugging my shoulders.
Apart if me knowing that I was lying. That was not how I wanted things to go. Maybe it was the fact that I wasn't supposed to be with him that made me want him more.
"You talk like you like him a lot why not just go for it? ", Erin asked me.
How was I going to tell her that our species hated each other? How was I supposed to tell her that it would seem like it was betrayal if I git together with him hit somehow when my brother slept with Alicia it was okay.
That they had double standards when it came to me but when it was them the bar was on the floor.
"My brother Kate's him do if I get together with him he will feel like am trying to piss him off", I said.
"You aren't though if it's something you want I normally tell people to do what they want. Your brother was with that chick Alicia isn't she like Mateo's sister? ", she asked me and I gasped when I heard someone else speaking.
"Which one of your brothers is with my sister? ", came Mateo's authoritative voice.
I loomed back to see him staring down at me. He hadn't changed that much but I still felt like he had changed a whole lot.
I only hadn't seen him for like five days it felt like an eternity. I felt like jumping up so that he could hope me in his hands and I would tell him how much I had wanted to see him but he wouldn't like that.
"You heard something else ", I said smiling as I turned around and continued eating my food.
"I think I heard you perfectly ", he said and I sighed in frustration.
What was it with men pestering someone until they got d the information that they needed?
"What is it going to do if I tell you who it was? ", I asked him as I now turn around to face him.
"It doesn't matter I need to know, follow me to my office ", he said as he started walking.
"You just can't order me around you're not my boss ", I said and he tour we just glanced at me and continued walking so I had no choice but to follow him.
Mainly it was because I wanted to. Could a girl just dream I wanted to be in a room alone with him and see what would happen?
Maybe nothing could ever happen but those were chances that I was willing to take. High chances were he did not even think about the kiss that we shared.
We entered his office and he locked the door behind me. It loomed like I was being taken so that I could be punished for something I had done only in this case I hadn't done anything wrong.
"What your sister doe... "I started saying but was cut off the moment his lips were in mine and he started kissing me