Have you ever found saying goodbyes to someone you really love or close to you, difficult because I found it quite difficult plus exhausting. As there would be this feeling which would be forcing you to let hold it on for some time, on the other side time would running out from your hand too. At last with your numb eyes or may be your are crying a bit then saying good by to that one special person of your life.
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Next day I wake with a severe headache and rapid beats of my heart like always, working in dreams is quite exhausting but I can't stop my nightmares because I don't know how to? However, leaving all this I aside I sit on my tide, first I rub my eyes tiredly then I stretch my hands to pick my phone from the side table. After taking phone in my hand I checked the time which says its six in the morning, that is I wake up according to my morning practice schedule.
I take good fifteen minutes to processes whether I should stay at home, try to study for my exams in such awful environment or I can go to school not for practice/classes but I can simply go and study their in a calm and relaxing environment. And I come to the most appropriate conclusion which is to go school as there is only one day left for the exams to start so, classes won't be taking place plus I won't be going for the practice as I have already plan to leave it without telling anyone.
As my decision got final, I start getting ready. While doing so, a thought pop in my mind "just five more days then my now one and only friend would be going to married and leaving the town for living with her in laws, I can't even go and attend her marriage functions because of exams."
Once I get ready like as usual I go to dining room to pick my lunch box, which I found to be not prepared so, silently I move inside the kitchen and start making my bread jam and bread butter sandwich. As I was about to finish making bread butter sandwich, then I hear parents' room door opening so, I look at that side and there I can see my mother coming towards the kitchen while yawning. I cruse myself internally for working slowly as, now I have to listen her taunts or may be some hurtful words from her, for me.
I speed up my process a bit, in nearly two minutes I am all set too keep them in the lunch box and here mother also entered in the kitchen, start drinking water. As I kept the lunch box in my bag, mother initiated the conversation,
Mother: Hey, where are you going?
Siya: (Professional lier) I am going to school as I have some important notes to take from the teacher plus she is going to help me in studying about some chapters for tomorrow exam?
Mother: (Doubting) O really? what type of teacher is she, who is going to teach you at the last moment?
Siya: (Acting all innocent) What can I do or say if she ask me to do so at last moment. If you say I won't go.
Mother: No. You are going, though I don't believe you but you are going because I don't want you too fail again.
Siya: (Though her words hurt me a bit but I choose to ignore it because at least I am going to school too relax) Okay.
After saying this I pick up my bag with lunch box plus water bottle then I leave the the house, took a local transport towards i.e. a car which I would be sharing with other passengers because I don't have enough money to afford regular cab. In around two hours I reach school and same time I received a ping on my phone, I check my phone which says its Erik's message saying,
(Message Conversation....)
Erik: Hey are you coming to school today?
Siya: (After thinking for a five minutes or less, if I said yes then I would have to tolerate his presence then how study would happen and another thought that come to mind is that, I think it would be easy for me tolerate his presence then my family members) I am in the school itself.
Erik: Cool I am in the library, searching for some book now I would see you after fifteen minutes.
Siya: Yeah okay, I will be in the longue room near the canteen.
Erik: See you soon.
Siya: Yeah.
The moment our conversation ended I move towards that room, once I entered that room I got surprised seeing Ketty and Zoe sitting their and studying. And internally I rolled my eyes because now I know we won't be able to study at all, as when the whole group is here study would become quite impossible because we would be having more fun than study.
I move close to them but without making any noise because one they are to much engrossed in the studying and second I would like to to give them a surprise. I moved swiftly and kept my bag beside the chair of Zoe, feeling a moment beside her chair she got startled at first then she stand up abruptly and I speak up suddenly,
Siya: (Yelling a bit) Hey Zoe!
Zoe: (She looked at me with shocked expression and her right hand palm kept on her heart. And she yelled at me in return) Are you mad?!!!!?
Here, I started laughing and Ketty too joined me, we laugh out whole heatedly holding our stomachs. Soon we both get sober up, looked at Zoe again who folded her hands on her chest and pouting slightly in anger, she is looking so cute like this. Seeing this me and Ketty both speak out together,
Siya & Ketty: Awwww someone is angry sooooo cute.
After listening to this she turned her face away but we both heard a chuckle from her, Ketty secretly look at me and wink at me. Then she goes near her, start tickling her and soon I too joined her. After a minute or so all you can hear is fits of laugh from three of us, to be honest this is the peace which I am looking for everyday and being with friends laughing out loud I am founding it to be truly blessed one.
I takes whole ten minutes to get all sobered up, we settled down on our seats. Our sitting position is like, they both are sitting side by side and here I am sitting in front of Ketty. In around five minutes we heard the room door open, so we all look at the door and we found him coming towards looking all smart and handsome. Sometimes, I really think how tough for the girls to reject him because for sure if I was one of the girl who has interest relationships then I would be definitely attracted to him.
However, soon my trance break down by Erik's voice calling my name,
Erik: SIYA!!
Siya: Uhhh Yeah
Erik: Where were you lost?
Siya: O nothing. Let's start studying as tomorrow we have exam to give, yeah?
Ketty to Erik: See I told you she is so boring
Erik: Yeah but I guess she is good.
After this we started studying, however, it only me, Ketty and Zoe are actually studying and Erik is playing game as well as sometimes distracting me by showing some dance video and one of the lap dance video grab my attention so, before he could stop the video I hold off his hand and watch video carefully, to this Erik questioned me,
Erik: What happen Siya?
And listening to this Zoe and Ketty too look at me ask the same question, I showed the phone screen to three of them and then I initiated the conversation saying,
Siya: I have never watched a lap dance before plus I have never done it.
Erik: (Chuckle out lightly) Ohhh this is more of a couple dance, if you say I will show you?
I was about to say "Yes" but Ketty spoke up first,
Ketty: Yeah I have never seen it too please show your moves.
After this Erik get up from his seat, pick books from my lap and keep on the chair beside me, then only I realized that he is going to give me a lap dance. My eyes got open up wide with this realization but before I could do anything, he started his lap dance with music and with his intimate steps I am really getting uncomfortable and except Zoe I guess none of them is understanding my situation, because I can see all this on her face.
However, the moment Erik sat on my lap, I pushed him away from me and he somehow manage to balance his steps, keep standing. Though, he looked at me shocked, a bit angry too but here I just focus on my increased heart beats and making my self comfortable and to my rescue Zoe initiated to conversation and all attention got focused on her,
Zoe: Wow Erik what a wonderful performance is this, we just loved it.
Ketty & Me: Yeah we too.
Siya: (Lying, try to act as all innocent) And sorry for pushing you, actually you are so heavy.
Erik: Okay cool.
After this we again start studying with a little bit distraction, but we manage to study good. I reached back home around three in the evening, with a happy mood which turned a bit sore because I heard my Aunt yelling and crying voice coming out from Grand mothers room. However, I tried to ignore this, then I go to room and after getting fresh I again started studying.
Just like days goes by,
(Now till a week I will be focusing on exams only, because no scene would be created by family or friends or relatives because of exams)
Exam - 1
Like as usual I tried to keep my focus on studying before exam too but when it got started my mind goes vacant and I start remembering songs, they started playing in mind. Whatever I write in the exam, I don't know.
Exam - 2
In this exam, my mind started his own conversation and all what going in my mind is, how house issues will be solved and what should I do? What will happen in the next novel of twilight series? Yet again whatever I write in exam I don't know because I forgot after giving sheets.
Exam - 3
Here also music started playing in the back of mind plus focus tuned upon different food dishes which I can explore next. Yet again I forgot whatever I write in the exam.
Exam - 4 & 5
These two exam also goes above like this but this time I read my answers again and here I got to know that all I am writing is stories into the sheets which is though somehow related to questions only but my words are over lapping or getting repeat. But I can't change it now because I have only five minutes left plus as this was my last exam so, I have to reach Vicz's house to say goodbye to her before she left the town.
Soon I bid my good byes to my friends, leave the school premises and then I book the cab for Vicz's house, this time I come know its already past six so, I would positively going to be late home. After thinking this I called father to told about this,
Siya: Hey Father.
Father: Yeah Siya speak.
Siya: I would be late for home because I have to go and meet Vicz because today was her wedding.
Father: Yeah I remember don't worry I will pick you up from her house and then we will reach to our home back together.
Siya: Okay.
After this I hang up the call, get hell excited to meet her for one last time. At least she would be one of my those friends, with whom I got the chance to say good bye. However, after an hour I reached her home, there I found her house fully decorated and beautiful lighting everywhere. Without thinking anything I enter in the house, there I found everybody having dinner and even Vicz too but her back to my front so, I drop my bag near the voice without making any noise.
Then I go close to her, covered her eyes with my hands to this she sit straight and stop eating her food, everyone else looking at us fondly especially her own family but in laws family looked surprised and confused. However, soon she removed my hand turn herself and look at me happily, then she hugged the life out of me and later she excused herself and take me into one of the closest room.
Siya: You are looking beautiful. Are you happy?
Vicz: Thank and yeah I am very happy but forget all this, all I want to say today to you is that, please just take care of yourself as you are too kind and innocent but world is not so, just be careful and take care of your self.
Siya: Yeah I will and I also want you to stay happy and take care of yourself.
Vicz: I will miss you.
Siya: Me too.
We hugged each other again tightly, soon all the family members call us outside as she has to leave for her in laws house same. At the same time father also called me, saying he is waiting for me at one of the main road so, I bid my final goodbye Vicz and all of them. I move outside of the house, start walking toward where father would be, while doing so, I also try my best to control my tears because I don't want to cry in front of father. As soon as I found my father car, I sat inside it but keep looking outside with one of my fist closed in my lap so, that I could control my emotions.
After two hour when we reached home, I directly go in my room and thankfully no one stopped me. The moment I entered in I let my tears flow, after ten minutes all fresh up, I go outside to have my dinner and later I called it a night.