Next day school hours passed normally except one thing that is Jazz wasn't present, this got me worried a bit because she had never missed school. However, I am excitedly looking forward for the night to talk with her, in the evening once I reached home, I decided to spend some of my time with my mother but unfortunately both Aunt and granny call me in to granny's room.
As soon as I entered in the room, my first sense that got alerted is smelling because all I am feeling is the smell of urine, probably because of the attached washroom door is opened and then is second sense got alerted which is because of heaviness of the air in the room probably because of the negativity they are filled with. However, ignoring all this I took the chair, kept it close to the wall which is somewhat near to the door so, when the time come I can exit the room quickly.
Whatever, as soon as I sit at the chair my Aunt initiated the conversation,
Aunt: It has been so longed that we both talked to you Siya so, lets talk?
Granny: Yeah yeah dear, come and sit with us but why are you siting far from us?
Aunt: I think, she thinks we stink or else, see her when she is with her mother in her room. There she sits so comfortably and freely.
And now here goes the slightest chance of me speaking to them freely and calmly. O common, how can someone talk to that person who only have habit of taunting and complaining over silly or nonsense issues continuously, I can't talk to such peoples or bear such types of people but unfortunately I have to because according to my father they are family so, we can't ignore them. However, soon my thought train got stopped with my Aunt voice again,
Aunt: Siya what happen where have you got lost, we are supposed to be talking with you?
Siya: Umm nothing I am listening to you, say what do you want to talk about?
Aunt: Why are you speaking like this as if only me and granny going to talk, and you are just going to hear us?
Granny: Don't talk like this, don't hurt her sentiments like this. Dear its not good to hurt your Aunt, look at her how much she do things for you (she sometimes/rarely do cook special dishes for the whole family) and loves you (by taunting, complaining and manipulating me) so, you know you should respect her more (wow, respect is earned old lady but what can I say?).
Aunt: Hey! just leave mother, she is just like her mother who also talk to us like that.
Yet again, my mind started its own conversation within myself which is,
Siya: Bro, they said they wanted to talk, is this the way people talk? Granny said the term family, does its what family meant, I mean cooking food is fine but taunts, manipulation this can't be the meaning of family, can't it be right? What is the of meaning of love, whatever showed or written in story/movies/shows can be called as love but doesn't it said that these things are part of ones imagination and creativity.
Such type of conversations usually raised too many questions in mind like these and I am unable to found any person or books to guide to know the answers. However, I took a deep breath and try to refocus my mind on what they are saying, once I start listening to them then I just wished to keep the conversation going on in my mind previously because they are talking against my mother and her family,
Granny: She is always in hurry, she stays with me till she give me food and water to brush my teeth but as soon as this get over she start doing new work. I don't know what so hurry, she has no manners.
(I was like seriously! what is she expecting my mother to do. Huh give the food right, what else she should do? This is all so stupid, nonsense and irritating, I mean why she has so many expectation from my mother or from anyone else because I believe expectations can be destructible to ones existence)
Aunt: She is selfish too only think about herself only, ignore me as well as her husband and children.
(Here, I thought what kind of statement is this now, I mean how she knows what my mother is like. As far as I have seen and known my mother I believe she is never ignore us or these two ladies, if she has ignored then possibly she has not given her time in cooking for us or simply given birth to me and bro and moreover she might have shoved these ladies out of this house. All of their talk are illogical and rubbish, huhh I am so done with this).
However, while thinking all this, I choose it would be better to leave now or my mind will definitely explode so, I jump in the middle of their conversation,
Siya: (Hesitatingly I lied to them) Umm hey wait a second I think I should leave now because I have a test tomorrow and I forgot to mention about it earlier so, I need to go now and study for it.
After saying this I got up from the chair, start moving towards the door with slow steps, just to show them that I am not hurrying up or lying to them related to it. However, my Aunt continue to speak
Anut: What is this dear we are supposed to talk and now you are here going.
Siya: (At the door) But I have a test to give, I am going.
I leave the room after saying this but I can still hear them complaining about me sometimes or mostly talking against about my mother. However, when I am at the safe distance, I took a deep breath and in a minute or so, I enter in the room and lock the room. I studied there with ear phones plugged in my ear ( studying with music on is a real comfort plus it distracts me from the voices that I can hear in my head every time) till mother called me for the dinner.
As soon as dinner got over without any nuisance (thankfully), I come back in my room with filled water bottle for me. Here I checked my phone and I smiled seeing a message from Jazz but I first go into the washroom and finished my daily routine which I usually do before going to bed. Once I am done I dimmed my room light and sit completely relaxed on my bed, then read message which Jazz has sent.
Message Conversation (....)
Jazz: Hey are there?
Siya: Yeah, How you doing? And why you don't come to school?
Jazz: I am good. I got stuck in family problem, had to left the the city for some day so, won't be able to come to school for some days.
Siya: Is everything okay, if you need to talk about or share it with me then I am here.
Jazz: No not everything is fine but lets wait for some day then we will talk about it but first we are going to talk about, yesterday topic. I have watched the movie, now tell me what you want to talk about?
Siya: Umm actually after watching the movie, I feel something wet in my panties and I thought probably I got my my periods start. Hence, I go to washroom to check, once I looked there I found some white creamy though most of it was transparent but I seem something white too. So, I want to know what was that and why it happened?
Jazz: Ohh so, basically you wet you panties while watching the movie or if I say in scientific terms you had an orgasm.
Siya: Ohh but why and what these terms means, do you mean I pee my self. Umm can you please explain?
Jazz: Okay, then I shell start from the beginning.
Siya: Okay.
Jazz: Okay first thing first, is that you don't have to feel shy while answering my questions plus asking your doubts out.
Siya: Okay cool.
Jazz: Okay first tell me how much do you know about sex or physical intercourse?
Siya: Umm its needed to be done so the couple could have a baby together.
Jazz: Ohh okay and now what you think of love, attachment, infatuation and attraction?
Siya: Umm love is the the connection which binds ones mind, body and soul to others. Attraction is when see something, we got attracted towards its, I mean it more like they way we got attracted to our favorite things or some random colors. Infatuation is I guess look like love but is not actually love and attachment is more like when we get to habitual to something or someone, initially it can start with liking but its more of a habit only.
Jazz: Ohh cool, its like I don't have to go in deep details, you have some basic knowledge of topics related to it. So, I am going to give you basic knowledge sexual education.
Siya: Okay.
Jazz: So, lets take the example of the movie fifty shades of grey only because, I thinking you will understand better. In that movie, its shown how both girl and boy get attracted to others, first they share some intimacy as in kissing, hugging and hand holding. This usually happens while we got attracted to someone.
Siya: Okay.
Jazz: These gesture of touching can be good or bad but in this case it gives them comfort plus it becomes a way to show that we like each other, care for each other. Then this touching increased and one thing lead to other as in they found themselves to be physically attracted to each other, they had sex but since the boy use protection so, it means sex is done for pleasure and not for the baby.
Siya: Okay, so basically we do this for pleasure/fun as well as for the pregnancy.
Jazz: Yeah. And in answer to your question, I am going to explain to you now what that white creamy liquid was. So here is the thing when two people got intimate in such activities then after some minutes they release seeds out for a girls its a white sticky creamy liquid and for boys to its the same.
Jazz: Sometimes it happen when we take part in sexual activities for it, sometime it happens while watching it.
Siya: Is it bad or something abnormal?
Jazz: No no its completely okay, its normal you don't have to worry. Are you okay? I mean do you able to understand?
Siya: I guess I understood, but I think I need more time to understand it better and if you don't mind if we discuss it may be tomorrow too?
Jazz: Yeah Yeah no problem, even you can take as much as time you need and I will try to clear your doubts whenever you want it.
Siya: Cool.
Jazz: I think I should go and sleep now, because it twelve in the night already.
Siya: Ohh yeah okay good night.
Jazz: Good night.
I kept my phone on the side table, while thinking about todays happening I got tired and call it a night.