I don't know what to say at all. I am very tired at the same time very sad seeing my twins this quiet even Hikaru didn't wanna go to school and just lock himself out of his room so is Hikari. Maybe they felt the same way since they knew they are twins as their emotions are connected as one.
"Hikaru, You need to go to school now you've been absent for three consecutive days," I said but I received no response as Hikaru is in his blanket.
I sigh as I touch his head when it's way too soft so I take the blanket off and see the pillow on it.
"Saginsia!" I shouted as I heard him running towards the bedroom.
I open the window and saw the clothes that Hikaru mended to make an escape. "Hikaru went out to save that girl," I said as Hikari looked at me.
"Did you know about this?" I asked Hikari as she slowly nodded. "Then why did you hide this from Mommy! Do you know how dangerous it is in the outside world?!"
"Savia Chill..." "What Chill?! Hikaru is out there and in danger and you tell me to chill?!" I asked him as he sigh.
"There is no point in shouting Savia, We will fix this together." He reassured me as I start crying. Saginsia ad Robert went out to find Hikaru as Hikari stayed with me.
"Crying is for weak Mommy." She said as I smiled.
"But sometimes you need to cry in order to express the pain you feeling inside," I explained.
"Are you in pain Mommy?" She asked. "No, I'm just worried about your brother's Safety," I said as she look at me.
"Hikaru seems to be in love," she said as she smiled sadly. "And I am quite an in pain now that his dealing with such thing." She added.
"It must have been a pain in the ass for you," I said. "When both of you were born here in the world I could only wish to be with you guys.
I am deeply aware of your father's underground life and illegality business that is why I was afraid for the future of my kids so I-"
"You run away because you were scared." She continued.
"You didn't bother thinking that as his children we will be needing his assistance and guidance too as our father?" she asked making me silent. Both Kids are clueless about the situation and it was all my fault.
Maybe if I was a better mother to them they could grow properly in a proper environment rather than be confused like this.
"When you almost died that day Hikaru and I realized that maybe you left dad because he's some sort of monster." She added.
"But it turns out you are the monster and you just take us in since you never planned on having us at the same time you wanted to live your life."
"How could you say such cruel stuff to me Hikari!" I said furiously as she look at me. "I don't know Mom, Things aren't the same as they used to be before. When we finally got to understand how Dad was living his life we get to understand that he been living hard and didn't even have emotional support from his family or his own children since we left him alone."
I never think about such stuff until now. I just realize that the twins are growing up so fast as they catch up on what really is happening now while I'm here still stuck and confused.
"Mom We needed you but we also needed Dad to be there for here in hard times like this. All you do was blame stuff on him but you never noticed how hard he worked to fix this stuff and how many sleepless nights he spent working and tracking down the event of the upcoming auction. You might not have seen it Mom but I did."
She explained and by that my heart broke into pieces.
"Dad is trying hard and his very best to fit well in this what we called family but Mom please at least let your heart open for him. We are not dumb to see how much you keep your distance from him. Do you even love our Dad?" as she asked that question all I did was stare at her.
I never knew what I felt for Saginsia since he just come to me one day and announced that we are married and we signed some appearances and contracts.
I never get to say no since my parents supported such stuff and I was with him the whole time meeting his family and rude sisters-in-law.
The thought of loving him never came to my mind and I knew that this would break the twins heard if they knew about Andy.
Even if Saginsia told me that Andy was in jail I cannot help but think about how was he doing at all. I sigh as I look at Hikari when her face was about to cry.
"You don't need to answer an obvious thing, Mom," she said as she stand up.
"Maybe it was best for Hikaru and me to be with our Dad after all you look like you regret having us," I beg Hikari to not do this as Robert appeared on her back looking at the commotion.
"What happening?" he asked as Hikari start walking away.
"Hikari wants me out of her life," I said as Robert sighed.
"I don't know what you just talked about but let me tell you this Savia. Your Son was safe and Saginsia is in the living room with him. We just found him on the park sitting on the bench and he looked like he's been thinking a lot Hikaru told Saginsia that he-"
I didn't let him finish as I immediately went to the living room and saw both of the twins behind Saginsia.
"The twins have decided and they wanted to stay with me forever." I was shocked hearing that as I was confused about what did I do for the twins to hate me.
"Did you just brainwash my kids?!" I asked which made me push Saginsia's buttons as he stand up.
"Me? Brainwashing my own kids is the last thing that I would do! I am not that desperate on owning them that is why I always let you be in charge of them since you are their Mom. Hikaru decided to be with me to learn my business and Hikari decided to come. Now it's your choice if you're coming or not." I look at how the Twins avoided my look as I sigh in disbelief.
I look at Robert with the twins and Saginsia's things as I smiled.
"Y-You can leave without me," I said as I just turned my back without looking at them.
What's more painful than seeing your children hate you for not letting them have the chance to know their father well as they should do.
I am a bad mother and I should also admit that I am not yet done with my first Love Andy and I need to have closure with him.
I look out the window as AI saw them leave me. And just like that I just want to disappear I don't deserve to be called a mother or what. I am very sad and hurt by what had happened to us but things should change by the end of the day.
I will meet Andy and have the closure that I wanted.
But is this really the right thing to do?
I feel bad doing so but there are lots of things that I should learn from life too and on how will I face the twins again.
I am such a bad mother and I really have to admit it myself how bad I was. Saginsia would give them a better future than I could.
I called Mom and Dad and they were not shocked about what happened as they told me to go home since there are some things that they need to tell me.
I immediately book a flight the next day as I arrived at my parent's home I saw Saginsia talking with them and didn't mean to overhear their conversation since the maid was busy helping me with my stuff.
"I am very sorry Sir I didn't get the chance to take good care of your daughter and hurt her more than I could think. " Saginsia said as he bows down his head towards my parents as Mom let him raise his head.
"You don't need to bow down we are all part of this plan, It was also our fault for set upping Andy with that girl," Dad said as I gasp and they saw me.
"Savia, You came home early as we expected." Mom said brushing off the topic as I clenched my fist and look at them with disgust.
"YOU DID ALL OF THIS MESS IN MY LIFE! FOR WHAT?!" I shouted as Mom started crying. "The business is about to go bankrupt and we need someone as powerful as Saginsia to step back again in the industry," Dad explained as I shook my head.
"So all those stories that you told me about how we met Saginsia is a lie?" I asked as he can't even look me straight in the eyes.
"Yes it was all a lie," he answered as I give him a big slap and run to my room and didn't want to hear anything from them anymore.