Ashton looks like a mule right now with so many bags in his arms. We had drinks in our hands. I had a regular mocha coffee. While they had Boba tea. Strawberry was Scarlet's. Blueberry was Sarah. They made me taste it and it didn't taste bad but I am more of a chocolate fan. I kept following them as I wanted to buy the dress I want for the party. Just that. I don't want to spend money on Luke's card. I'll earn money my own way.I sighed out and just followed them as they giggled and pointed to the shoe store we're about to pass by. I rolled my eyes at their enthusiasm. But I hear the grogginess of Ashton behind us. It was really funny.
My arm got grabbed and I was hauled into the store. I looked at Ashton to save me but he just smirks waving good bye to me. Oh no. He knows this girl too well. I am in danger. The hauled inside as the lady told us we got to throw away our drinks as drinks and food aren't welcomed. I drank mine for a bit and then threw it into the trash. I noticed black heels. Beautiful. Just plain black heels.
"I see you got something caught in your line of sight!" Scarlet smacks my back
"Yeah but I don't know how much it costs so I am ok with what I have" I tell her gently
They thought it will be funny to just grab the pair smack it on my chest and then take me to another side of the path and show me other pairs of heels with different designs and brands. I felt very confused as I didn't want to spend much money. Sarah on the other hand was having too much fun grabbing a pair of heels from the Gucci brand. I look back to search for Ashton but he was nowhere to be seen. I felt complete and utter fear as Sarah and Scarlet are very shop enthusiast. They love shopping so much and you can see it in their eyes. I decided to look around as I had the pair of heels that I wanted by force. Sarah seems to be a good friend but I still don't know her that much so I'll get to know her bit by bit.
my mind kept wondering on to Luke to see what he will think about all the money spent on his card. Will he be mad? Will he yell at us? Or will he watch us with disappointed eyes as much money was spent in clothing and shoes. I will still think about the job offer as the payment is very good and how their little community is so peaceful and so relaxed that I would love to live in that little community. Waking up with a fresh scent of the morning dew from the forest trees. The sounds of crickets and birds chirping all around me. The howling wolves at night as it's relaxing. Are there wolves very nice or are they dangerous? I am for some reason excited to be able to see an actual wolf in real life not in pictures or in videos.
I would really like to have my own pet someday. If I feel brave enough to own my own pet without fear or without concerned or even worriedness I would really enjoy the company of an actual pet. I'm still traumatized at how my mother treated every pet I tried bringing home. She loved seeing me cry she loved seeing me beg for forgiveness. I feel like I should never forget all the trauma my own mother did to me. All the abuse all the bruises all the scars. It's still implanted deep in my mind.
I finally noticed Ashton walking in with no bags in hand as I noticed the lady putting away the bags in one corner. I presume he wants to buy something for his girlfriend or wife. I still can't get Luke out of my mind as he is very handsome the electrifying sensation that brings shiver down my spine will always be fresh in my mind. Even the words that he said during breakfast as I felt so down but his words cheered me up so high that I wanted to look good at the party. If Luke ever had a girlfriend she would be treated right and as a Queen instead of a princess.
But anyway with just that thought about seeing Luke with a girlfriend or a soon-to-be wife brought jealousy anger deep in my heart. I actually see myself this I look everyday every morning and every evening. I see us running in the forest. I see us having children. I even see us getting married in the future. I don't understand why these thoughts haunt me ever since I met Luke a few days ago. But they keep lingering in my mind and I don't know what to do.
The sound of a crying child rang across the halls of the mall and it was bringing back the thought of a child with Luke came back into my mind. It was so weird to have that thought deep in my mind and so fresh even if it popped up just by the sound of a child crying. I look back to the entrance of the shoe shop and noticed the mother carrying the child in her arms soothing the child's cries as I noticed the sweet treat on the floor.
"I wish I had kids one day!" Sarah pipes in
I swallow the lump when I heard those words but I calmly say to her "Yeah one day... But for now we're young... Learning is a virtue..."
She giggles and gives me a light tap on the back as she says with a big smile "Completely true..."
"I see you wish to have children in the future..." Ashton terrified me
I tried answering to Ashton but all he did was just smile even wider as he knew something that I didn't know about. I wanted to know what was in his mind but he walked away to the children's eye of the shoes and got the smallest pair of baby boots. I didn't know Ashton has a child baby even but then again I just met Luke and Ashton a few days ago. I did my very best not to ask questions or say anything as that is Ashton's private life. I did wanted to look even further into the shoe shop before Scarlet and Sarah started going crazy spending money again. I feel like if I become best friends with Sarah also I would go bankrupt. I can see Sarah is more of a shopping Maniac then Scarlet is.
I looked around searching for Sarah and Scarlet as I felt so lonely out of the blue. But I finally noticed them at the very corner of the store where there was an aisle just for makeup. I wanted to walk towards them so badly but I felt afraid of them bombarding me with types of mascara powder and eyeliner. I am not a makeup person I love being makeup free. I don't like how it feels whenever I wear makeup it makes me feel gross and dirty. I am so used to seeing my mom wear makeup just to go on dates and bring men home that when she placed the makeup on me to try and marry me off to a stranger I felt disgusting.
I looked at the entrance of the shoe shop again as I felt a presence in the air. And speaking of my mother there she is with a different man walking towards the Gucci brand across the shoe store. She looks very happy as the man is letting her by this expensive brand of clothing and glasses just for her to sleep with him just one night. I know it's not my business to be there by her side and tell her what to do and what not to do she is a grown adult and she has to learn what she's doing is wrong. But I don't want her seeing me inside this shoe store buying some shoes and a few items for the upcoming party.
I feel somewhat afraid of her appearing at the party out of the blue because she wanted to date some rich guy as I noticed that there is going to be a lot of rich people in this party. I am slowly starting to regret accepting the invitation to go to this fancy party I feel terrified to see my mother all over again after everything she's done. I looked at Sarah once again and Scarlet and the regretting feeling of going to this party started washing away. In some way I feel like they would defend me from my mother if I spot her there. I know Scarlet is terrified of my mother but she's only terrified if we are both alone with her as we never know what she would bring or do. But in an area with a lot of crowd she is not terrified as my mother does not dare embarrass herself in front of other people. Even more if it's rich people.
I should ignore her and let her have her own little fun I'm going to have fun with my own friends and just enjoy my day. I can see that Sarah and Scarlet are going to be part of my family and just seeing how Luke treats me so well and the way he talks to me I feel like things will go to the next level without me noticing. I want it to go to the next level in some odd way as I feel so warm fuzzy and floating whenever I'm near Luke. His warm words always makes my heart flutter enjoy and makes my stomach feel like a raging stampede of animals. I really want him to keep staying by my side but I am very afraid as I barely met him and these emotions are bombarding me out of the blue.
Would we be happy in the future?