Right now Sarah was endlessly grateful. Having a baby of her love with her husband. This baby is a sign of their love, the link between her and Alex. In her son, she could see Alex's smile in it.
'Alex, look at our child, the fruit of our love. Look at the results of our love. You have given me a gift that is very similar to yours. Don't you want to see our child? I hope you can come home soon. I miss you, Alex,' Sarah said quietly in her heart when she looked at the little one who was still in Ben's arms and was giving him prayer and hope.
Sarah's tears were seen again by Ben who happened to turn to Sarah. Then he walked over, pulling himself close to Sarah's side. As Ben approached, Spencer's voice came from the doorway.
"Sarah? Oh God, I'm sorry, Sarah. I can't be with you. I was busy at the office, and I forgot to turn on my cell phone. I'm sorry, Sarah!" said Spencer who repeatedly apologized to Sarah for not being able to accompany his sister at an important time in his sister's life.
"It's okay, Bro. Ben and Doctor Archie have been waiting for me. You don't apologize to me, just say thank you to them," Sarah said casually while holding her baby who had just been handed over by Ben.
"Thank you, Bro. You have given the first prayer and hope to my baby," said Sarah who smiled at Ben who kissed Sarah's tiny baby's forehead again.
"Already prayer and hope? Oh God, so I missed that moment too? I'm sorry, son. Your uncle is really bad at this!" said Spencer while stroking the top of the little one's head gently.
"Ben, until now, you have done a lot of services for me. I thank you very much. I don't know how to repay your kindness anymore, which is for me and my baby," Sarah again said a big thank you to Ben.
"Sarah, my ears hurt so much when I hear you keep saying thank you like this. The first until now, you feel that my love for you is only considered a debt, huh? But by God, I love you!" Ben replied, stroking the top of Sarah's head gently.
"Ben, I can't say anything more." Spencer hugs Ben and pats Ben's back lightly.
Spencer is grateful to have met Ben, until now Ben is the one who has always been there for his sister during the vulnerable times of Sarah's dark life.
"What is it, Bro? Just relax. After all, you guys are my family too!" says Ben to Spencer who is still getting carried away with gratitude for Ben.
No one knows how happy Ben is right now. While being a part of important events in Sarah's life.
Their conversation stopped when a nurse came and asked the baby to be brought to the nursery. The nurse from the nursery picks up the little one to be put into the newborn room so that it is not contaminated with bad air that can be inhaled and for the adjustment of the baby to the new environment.
The nurse also said that according to the pediatrician's instructions at the hospital, baby Sarah had to be in intensive care due to premature birth and also because his weight was not yet normal.
"For further questions, you can ask the doctor in his room. Or to Doctor Archie after him is out of the operating room, huh!" said the nurse explained in a friendly manner.
Sarah handed her baby slowly to the nurse there. Spencer and Ben looked at each other confused.
"I'm or you the one who went to the doctor's room?" Ben asks Spencer.
"I can't. I haven't seen mom yet, because I need your help again, Ben!" said Spencer as he gently patted Ben's arm.
"How are about mom? Is she feeling better yet?" Sarah asks Spencer.
"I haven't seen mom yet, Sarah. I just came here right now because Stu only said that you don't have anyone to look after you, only Ben. That's why I directly come here first," said Spencer explaining to Sarah.
"That's it, you just need to see mom first, okay! I will be back, Sarah. And please watch over Sarah for a little while longer for me, Ben!" continued Spencer again.
"It's okay to keep her all the time, Bro! As long as the woman is Sarah, I'm always happy, Bro!" Ben replied to Spencer's words which made the three of them laugh together.
Seeing Ben act like that made Sarah heartbroken.
'O God, he should be the one beside me at this time? Why do you present to my side right now as Ben and not Alex? I'm confused, God,' said Sarah in her heart when she looked at Ben who was full of concern for her child and herself.
***
"Doctor, the nurse said earlier, Sarah's baby must enter the infant intensive care unit?" Ben asked Doctor Archie. Ben is currently in Doctor Archie's room.
"Yes, Ben. Sarah's baby is categorized as a baby born prematurely because the age of the baby born is less than 37 weeks of gestation,"
"Babies born prematurely have a risk of developing complications in the early stages of delivery. This is because premature babies are born with bodies and organs that are not ready to work properly. So intensive care must be carried out. Moreover, Sarah's baby's weight is not normal yet,"
Doctor Archie explained clearly and it made Ben understand.
"So how and what to do, Doctor?" Ben asked for more details.
"We'll see Sarah's progress first. If Sarah is healthy within two days after giving birth, Sarah is allowed to go home, but the baby must be left for some time after her condition is normal," explained the doctor.
"And I'm also going to talk to Sarah about some things the little one needs while mother and child are apart for a while."
"For now we all have to pay attention to Sarah who is still weak. Plus the condition of the mother who is also sick. So I hope, you can continue to accompany Sarah and her family in times of need like this. maybe not material help, but moral support that Sarah's family needs right now!" Doctor Archie hopes in Ben.
***
the next two days. That afternoon Ben took Sarah and Mrs. Katie home from the hospital. After Mrs. Katie felt better, she planned to shop for necessities for Sarah after giving birth and also baby items that Sarah and her mother had not prepared beforehand.
But she will leave after Spencer comes home from work this afternoon, so Ben quickly offered himself to take Mrs. Katie who wanted to do some shopping for Sarah and her baby.
Ben takes Sarah's mother leaving Sarah with Stu at home.
"Ma'am, can I ask you something, Ma'am?" Stu approached Sarah and sat on the edge of the bed in Sarah's room.
"Hmm, what do you ask, Stu?" replied Sarah who also with a question.
"Can you not stress about Brother Alex anymore, Sis?" said Stu who sounded doubtful, but from the look in his eyes, Stu was holding back his annoyance to the point of almost crying, and what Stu had just said made Sarah feel sad too.
"Could it be that you don't cry anymore because of Brother Alex? Bro Alex is no longer there, Sis, but he left a lot of sadness for you!"
"You were pregnant and yesterday, because you were too stressed because him, you gave birth prematurely. Thankfully, the little one is okay. Even though he has to separate from us first,"
Stu managed his cry when he stopped his angry sentence. Stu took Sarah's hand and took it to rest his forehead.
"I don't want to see you sad again, Sis. I don't want to see you and your little one, why is it because you are stressed thinking about Bro Alex! Not again, Sis. I'm afraid that you will get sick!"
"We don't have a father anymore, Sis. If you continue like that and you get sick, I also don't want it until I don't have you anymore, Sis!"
Stu couldn't continue his sentence. He poured his sorrow into Sarah's hands and wet Sarah's hands with her tears.
Facing her younger brother's attitude like that made Sarah feel guilty. Everyone was right, Alex had left her with all the grief too heavy for Sarah to bear, and that grief had left her down without caring about the people who loved her. Mother, Spencer, and Stu are always ignored when she sinks into grief for Alex.
Until yesterday, Sarah had forgotten that she was pregnant and instead expressed her sadness about missing Alex, resulting in premature birth.
In bowing her head, Sarah also cried while stroking Stu's hair, which was bent down in front of her.
"I'm sorry, Stu. I'm too sad and miss Alex. It hurts so much, Stu. I'm sorry that I even forgot that I still have you all. I was wrong, I'm sorry, Stu!" Sarah bowed her head while crying.