"I'm sorry, Stu. I am too sad and miss Alex. It hurts so much, Stu. I'm sorry that I even forgot that I still have you. I was wrong, I'm sorry," Sarah lowered her head while crying.
Stu lifted his head and shared his guilt for making Sarah cry.
"Don't cry anymore, Sis, you can get sick and feel sorry for your baby if you are sick. I'm sorry and don't cry anymore, Sis. What if your condition deteriorates again and there's currently no mother and Brother Spencer?"
Stu starts to panic and tries to stop Sarah who is crying. But a moment later, Sarah lifted her face and showed a smile amidst her tear-soaked face.
"It's okay, Stu. I'm crying because I feel guilty for you guys. I'm too selfish because I think about my sadness for Alex,"
"From now on, I will not be sad anymore. Even though it's the truth. I want to keep smiling for you all and for Alex too. Now that I have a little one, what other sadness should I cry about? Nothing, Stu!"
"Thank you, huh? You reminded me and made me realize that being sad for a long time is of no use to me and all of us,"
"Please help me or remind me again if I forget it later, Stu!"
Sarah turned her tears into a smile at Stu. Her younger brother taught her that sadness is not only hers but that everyone feels sad too. However, they continue to try to cover the sadness with a smile at her.
'I'm sorry, God. With sadness, I seem to forget everyone's love for me. Sorry, God, and please help me to let go of my sadness for Alex,' Sarah said a prayer in her heart. Trying to accept the real situation of her life.
"Sis, I don't want to interfere with your heart's problems. But, have you never looked at Brother Ben once?"
Stu's question made Sarah's face turned gloomy. Sadness came back, but her mind immediately remembered that she could no longer be sad.
Sarah changed her silent face and gave Stu a small smile.
"Don't think about that, Stu. And now I'm still in a position where I don't want to think about matters of the heart. I want to focus on improving my emotions and taking care of your little one. You understand, right?"
Without answering her younger brother's question and allowing Stu to understand, Sarah spoke with a calm expression. With a nod of his head, Stu showed that he understood his older sister's current situation.
'Ben is a good man, Stu. But he too good for me,' Sarah thought back to the reality she had in mind when she remembered Ben.
***
Mrs. Katie and Ben arrive at a shop selling baby goods. Mrs. Katie watched Ben carefully inspect the clothes the little one was going to wear.
Ben carefully sorts and chooses a soft cloth for the little one, and such a scene is usually found by an adult man like a father who gives full attention to his child.
Seeing Ben act like that made Mrs. Katie smile. She walked over to Ben who looked cool alone. Mrs. Katie reached out to pat Ben on the back.
"Uh, Mom. What's wrong, Mom?" asked a surprised Ben.
"It's okay, Ben. I'm just really touched to see you work so hard for Sarah. Are you serious about Sarah? Don't you mind Sarah having kids now?" Mrs. Katie asked Ben seriously.
Ben put the clothes he was holding into the baby clothes rack. Ben then turned to Mrs. Katie with a serious expression.
"Mom, I'm serious with Sarah. Since Sarah is still Alex's wife status, I don't give up even though it's hard to beat Alex,"
"And now when Alex is gone, Mom. Sarah needs a companion. Sarah needs support for herself and her little one, and I need Sarah. I love Sarah, Mom!" Ben explained calmly with a sure and determined expression.
"But you and your future are still long, Ben. Your life is not just for you. There are still your parents and other family members, and you are still very young!"
"Don't because you love Sarah, then you have to sacrifice everything you have for Sarah. Don't, Ben. I don't want my daughter to be the reason for destroying your future,"
"And again, is your love for Sarah not just because of your young soul? You're not an adult, Ben. There are many good women out there with good futures like you,"
Ben smirked and shook his head curtly.
"Why do you even think Sarah is that bad to me, Mom? Don't you know that Sarah is special?"
"Sarah like a beautiful song that calms me down, Mom. I'm happy, I'm happy to know Sarah. Especially now that I can be this close to Sarah. I can't imagine what a day would be if Sarah wasn't near me, or I was far from Sarah, Mom,"
"You're right, I'm still young, I think all I have for Sarah is my youthful passion that overflows. I also made sure of this when I was away from Sarah. I let Sarah with Alex happy and I tried to get to know other women, "
"But they're not Sarah, Mom. I can't give my attention or my views to other women. I still remember Sarah even though we haven't seen each other,"
"If this feeling is just an overflow of youth. Well, let it be, Mom. Just think of me as Sarah, or like as Alex. They fell in love too at a young age, but look! How much pain Sarah lost Alex,"
"Me too, Mom. Maybe I'm going crazy because it was so stupid to let go of that special Sarah,"
Everything Ben said made Mrs. Katie cry. The middle-aged mother was so sad when she heard Ben who was so praising her daughter who had been scratched wound by such a young age.
So lofty a Sarah in Ben's eyes to be able to convince the heart of a mother like Mrs. Katie, and now, there was no doubt about Ben's love for Sarah.
"Mom, please bless me. Please help me make Sarah believe that I love her. I can't let go of Sarah anymore, Mom. Moreover, now that she has a little one, I feel the little one is like my own child, Mom. I love them," continued Ben again and managed to make Mrs. Katie even more touched.
"Thank you, Ben. I thank God for being there for Sarah. Alex is gone and it's sad for Sarah. So I asked God to bring Sarah back to happiness again. Thanks, Ben. Thank you so much!"
said Mrs. Katie who couldn't hold back her tears anymore because she was grateful to God, who had brought such a good man to her daughter.
"I bless you, Ben. I hope you succeed in winning Sarah's heart. I hope you are happy, son!
***
Sarah has a new busy life after the little one is born. Sarah is a young mother who is also a high school student. She tries her best to be the best in every role. Both as a mother and also as a student.
School holidays are over. It has been two weeks since the birth of the little one. Sarah's body is very healthy after giving birth, but the little one still has to be hospitalized for her health.
When students her age started going back to school, Sarah also went to school, but Sarah studied with the Online system, which did not require Sarah to come to school, but still received lessons online.
That way, Sarah's education was not hampered at all. Her duty as a mother is also not neglected.
Every morning, Sarah starts her activities by pumping her breast milk after the Fajr prayer, and the breast milk will be delivered by Spencer, who is all going to work.
After that, as usual, Sarah went to school face-to-face virtually with a dedicated teacher to teach her every day until class ended at noon, according to school hours.
After lunch or in the late afternoon, Sarah returns to pump breast milk to take Stu to the hospital after school.
Sarah became a loving and responsible mother, as well as a student who remained smart in terms of studies. Sarah is often seen staying up late to prepare for entering college later when the little one is sleeping in the intensive room to strengthen his body. Sarah always instills positive suggestions in herself. What she is experiencing now will surely bear sweet fruit in the future, for her and her children.
Sarah's preoccupation with education and her child slowly makes Sarah forget her sadness about Alex. Her mind opened more and more to believe that there was no point in continuing to dwell on sorrow. While the child needs the love of a strong mother who must raise him alone.
Sarah's life is getting more colorful even though her duties are increasing. However, Sarah tried to avoid asking Ben for help as much as possible, which she had been causing so much trouble.