May's POV
What the hell is happening..
"Mr. Alex..Mr. Alex please take your hands off...Alex" i know that he heard me but his arms around me only seemed to tighten.
"Please let me go" again i begged trying to move while his nose was pressed on the side of my neck breathing harshly in and out.
"Mine no one else's but mine..my mate only"
he kept on chanting like a toddler would when someone takes away their toy. It was a few minutes later that he began to calm down and started to let go.
As he did he look at me dead in the eye, with so much dominance that i want to cower away. Those were not the eyes that use to look at me with twinkle for the past weeks but rather the eyes that made me ran away from him the first place, the ones that made me never want to see him again but even then could i have really?
"You...you are no one else's to hold but me, you are no one else's to touch but me, no one else's to kiss but me and no one else's to love but me do you understand?"
No this is not him it can't be. Not the man i was falling for or not the man who told me all those sweet words this can't be his true self right? All the things he just said would have been really heart touching and sweet if not only for the fear that was growing inside of me. His eyes, lips, his body everything about him right now looks like they want to chain me up and not in a good way.
The problem here is that i know i am good at what i do and even consider myself quick witted but right now in this situation it was different. I cannot tell if he wants to murder me or devour me right now but either way it was no good.
Not hearing me reply to his question he again release an unusual sound that rather sounds like an animal than a human. His eyes shifting from left to right as if reading every detail on my face. As i continue to watch him i can see that his iris was begining to darken and now was fully covering his entire eyes and were no longer the sweet honey brown colour but the dangerous black color.
All this time i was not aware that i was slowly backing away from him until my back had hit the wall across my bed. Alexander continue to stare at me as he slowly stalk towards me like i was his prey.
"My Love i said do you understand me when i say you are mine and only mine?" he said.
My body was shaking , tears falling down my cheeks and my breathing was starting to fasten. I tried my best to keep my body from shaking but it was a lost cost.
"Please..please" that was all i could say. I want to go home. I want to disappear. Mom
When i was 9 years old i use to wait up for my mom to come home from work and would pretend to be asleep once i know she was home. One night as i was again waiting for her in my room i heard a sound coming from the railing outside the window. Thinking it was just another stray cat lurking around i did not pay much attention to it but when the sound did not stop i decided to got up and check it. Bringing my torch with me i went towards the window that was across the room next to the kitchen.The thing i saw that night would always leave a scare and make me daunted.
An animal that look like some kind of a dog was outside out window on the railings biting onto a woman's shoulder . So affrighted my hold on the torch weakened and fell making a sound. The wild animal look towards my way releasing a threatening growl , the side of his mouth dripping with blood hunching down ready to pounce at me.I stood there froze just then the woman hold on to the animal's leg stopping it from it's action making it more infuriated.
The animal then without a warning bit the woman's head off infront of my eyes. The nine year old me too scared to shout i wetted myself shaking tremendously. Seeing the animal still distracted i decided to run back to my room and as i did I locked the door and hid myself under my bed. Later that night my mom came home and freaked out at first when she didn't saw me on my bed. I laid on my mom's lap the whole night crying after telling her what i saw and instead of telling me i may have mistaken she console me by rubbing her hands up and down my back chanting sweet words to my ear.
"Remember my baby panda mama will always be there to safe you , even if i am not there with you like today i will always look after you from another world like papa okay now don't cry my baby you are my strong brave little girl, mama's here now"
The growl..the sound that animal made that night is just like....no it is just a dream May stop..it is not real wake up! wake up! wake up!
Something was shaking me awake from my flashback. There he was Alexander Dravis.
The worry in his eyes were evident as he continue to look at me for any trace of pain.
"Mi amore are you alright? Please answer me, look at me and tell me if you are hurt anywhere my love. I am so sorry for scaring you please say something".
I heard him but i was in no state to talk. A sob was release and i can no longer control my tears the stress, the anxiety and the pass that still haunts me it all came crashing to me like a bomb and there was no way of stopping it.
As a reflex Alex pick me to his lap and hold me tight to his body kissing my head from time to time. The memories i want to forget, they were all coming back to me. Not just that night's incident, every hurt, burden pain every little emotion from the past was coming back to me and i cannot stop it.
"It's okay it's okay you are safe" he said.
No i am not. Not with you. But i realise that too late. My hearts wants you but my conscience wouldn't let me, after what i just discovered.
I released myself from his hold so quick that he was not ready for it as i could tell from his confuse face.
"No no stay away from me" i tell him. The hurt from my words was perceptible on him.
" My Love it was all my fault please.."
"No" i was not going to fall for his tricks again.
Without another word i ran towards the bathroom and lock the door. He bang on the door begging for forgiveness. Will i ever be able to?