Mino's P.O.V
I had never imagined myself getting caught up with this bitter feeling. I never thought that I will feel this little and unwanted. As a normal human, I am always proud and confident with myself but ever since I felt the pressure of being the right man for her, I felt so belittled.
I looked up as the Goddess is now visible on the night sky. Kanina pa kami tahimik na naglalakbay sa nagyeyelong kagubatan ngunit kapwa kami ayaw magsalita.
It's for the better I guess dahil alam kong ayaw na niya sa akin. Snowflakes landed on my forehead as I looked at the bright lit of the moon.
I just want to ask her, why me? Of all the humans and vampires here, why the hell she chose me? I have nothing special on me. I have money, connections and wealth but that was all.
I will never be the right one for her. She's too high and unreachable for me. Marahan kong iniyuko ang aking paningin ngunit napatingin din ako sa mga nagyeyelong halaman at puno sa aking paligid.
I saw how the snow covered the flowers and grasses along our path. I smiled bitterly as I remembered the old saying that I used to hear. "A good winter with snow makes all the plants grow."
See? Even their powers are perfect for each other. Snow is very beneficial for plants, flowers and nature in general. In short, the snow prince and the princess in front of me are a perfect match.
Without snow, extremely cold weather can cause the soil to freeze deeper and deeper. This could damage the root of trees and shrubs in colder climes. Snow protects plants from the effects of freezing temperatures as it covers the flowers and the ground.
In the absence of snow, warmer temperatures and sunlight may cause soil heaving, which can break roots and dry out plant parts.
Snow also helps to keep soil moisture in check during the winter. Furthermore, did you know that nitrogen binds to snowflakes as they fall through the atmosphere?
That is why The Old Farmer's Almanac refers to snow as "poor man's fertilizer," since nature offers plants with a moderate fertilizer boost!
I smiled bitterly, may silbi din pala ang pagbabasa ko ng libro but I don't know if I should be proud of those facts because it only indicates how their powers are a match. While I have nothing that can perfectly match her.
So far, all I got from this freaking feelings in my chest was anxiety, self doubt, problems, negative thoughts, a pierce in my heart, pressure and a huge feeling of unworthiness. Great! Good start!
I was in the middle of that pitiful ideas nang pareho kaming natigilan sa paglalakad dahil sa tunog ng kabayo na tumatakbo. What is that?
"Hide!" she said with the same cold tone she's been using earlier.
And this is when everything I thought and read about her came crushing down. How the hell she can whip an innocent child? Why the hell she need to put up a show for that merchant then cry after all of she did.
I felt rage towards her as I pity the child gasping for his breath as if pleading for life. Every whip coming from her is making me hate her even more. Tila mas lalong tumindi ang galit na nasa aking dibdib habang naririnig ko kung paano tumawa nang malakas ang mangangalakal habang halos maghingalo na ang munting lobo sa malamig na lupa.
Damn Vreihya! Fucking stop it! How can you hurt an innocent life like that. Is everything I saw about how you care for life are just for show? Hindi ko lubos maisip na kaya niyang gawin ang ganitong bagay.
I saw how his tiny body flinched until it didn't move. I closed my fist as this excruciating urge to come out to save him is killing me.
"Tama na 'yan! Lubos na ang aking kasiyahan," the merchant stated and burst into laughter again. I want to slit his throat open!
"Sa iyo na siya," the devil added. Why the hell didn't she just kill that beast rather than hurt that poor wolf? Alam kong kayang-kaya niya na mapatay ito kaagad kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung paano niya nagawa ang bagay na kahit kailan ay hindi ko inakalang magagawa niya.
I thought you are not capable of such cruelness, ano itong nakikita kong ginawa mo! The merchant is now gone with his horse at mabilis na akong umalis sa aking tinataguan. Right! Mga halimaw nga kayong lahat!
You're all savages! I thought you're different! I thought you're not like the images that I saw pero ano itong ginawa mong kalupitan? It's an innocent and helpless being!
I just found myself pushing her hard that caused her to tumble on the ground. I looked at her intently, as I saw her threw away that goddamn whip. She shouldn't held it in the first place. This is not the one I should admire. She's cruel!
"BAKIT KAILANGAN MO PA SIYANG SAKTAN NANG HUSTO!" I exclaimed harshly as I felt rage making my mind unclear. I turned my back away from her and I lifted his body away from that dead cold ground.
Fuck it! His bleeding! I can't help it anymore when my vision started to blur. My arms begun to tremble as I held his poor body, I lightly caress his face and I felt devastated when he made a weak moan of pain.
Why the hell you did this Vreihya? Hindi ako makapaniwala!
"MGA ASAL HAYOP KAYO!" I exclaimed and looked at her madly. I can't believe this awful thing she did. Everything I thought about her just shattered in pieces after I saw what she is capable of. I don't freaking understand what she did!
I quickly grabbed a thick cloak from my bag and covered his shaking body. I saw how his body glowed and from a tiny bloody wolf, I am now holding a weak and hurt child. Damn! Vreihya, look at what you did!
I can't freaking believe this! He's a harmless child. How fucked up this world is? Paano niyo nagagawa na manakit nang ganito? This world is cursed!
"Ama?" the child weakly said as he opened his eyes and looked at me. He can't barely opened them properly because of the pain he is into right now. I saw how tears started building on his eyes.
You cried enough little one, this will never happen again, I promise. "Huwag ka ng matakot! Ako na ang bago mong ama," I whispered as I hugged his tiny body. I just can't believe what I saw. The reason why I admired her like this was flushed away on the drain that quick.
My feelings for now is like a switch that was instantly turned off. What have you done!
I will never let you touch him again, now I know that you have the ability to inflict harm to anyone even to an innocent child.
But...
Upon witnessing the greatest sacrifice that I had ever seen, I just confirmed how foolish I am. Napakababaw pala talaga ng pagkakakilala ko sa kaniya.
My emotions and views about her seems like a crazy roller coaster rides. Kung kanina ay halos isumpa ko siya dahil sa aking nasaksihan, ngayon naman ay halos gusto kong murahin ang aking sarili kung bakit hindi ko man lang siya binigyan ng pagkakataon na magpaliwanag.
"No! You will not leave me!" I desperately exclaimed. You can't leave me this way! I want to make up with the wrong things and accusation I made about you.
I panicked as I saw how she became paler than she used to be. No! No! We have so much things to clarify, I want you to see me become strong enough to be worthy for you.
"I will never left alone again," I almost whispered as I felt how light her bloody body on my arms. You will not die on me! I slowly laid her body on the cold floor as I harshly stood up and looked for something sharp to cut myself.
Damn it! I can't see anything!
Mabilis akong lumuhod at pinatalas ang aking mga kuko. This is sharp enough! I quickly cut myself deep on my wrist using the sharp nail of my pointing finger. Damn! Hindi ko na pinansin ang kirot na agad kong naramdaman at muling sinugatan ang aking sarili.
Please Vreihya! I don't want to be alone!
Mabilis kong ibinuka gamit ang aking isang kamay ang kaniyang bibig at agad na itinapat doon ang dumudugo kong palapulsuan. Shit! Hindi ako nasiyahan sa mabagal na pagtulo nito kaya sinugatan ko pa ito ng mas madami at mas malalim.
My arms trembled with the pain ngunit mabilis ko na itong itinapat na muli sa kaniyang bibig upang makainom siya. I will drain all of my blood if it's necessary just to keep you breathing the same air with me.
I still want to see the moon Goddess rise in the night sky with you. I still want you to experience my warmth in contrast to your frigid body.
There are so many flaws in me that I want to conquer in order to be the right one for you, so you don't have the right to leave me while I do my best to be the perfect one for you.
Both my head and my heart are in turmoil of panic and worry as I saw that nothing is happening. Marahas at madiin ko ng pinisil ang itaas na bahagi ng aking palapulsuan na malapit sa mga sugat para mas mabilis na lumabas ang mga dugo ko.
Oh God! Just please! Every drop of my blood is just for you, so please! Just please!
I am terrified of losing you, yet the harsh reality is... You're not mine, but I don't mind as long as I can watch you smile or raise your brow whenever you're annoyed with me. I'll always want to smell your wonderful scent, which is the most fragrant I've ever smelled.
I don't know what I felt inside me along with this strong emotions as I feel how my body is starting to heat up from the inside. My whole body started to tremble and some of my blood spilled on her cheek.
I gradually felt as if something was trying to escape from my veins, but the startling brilliant light that had replaced my blood had almost blinded my eyes. Instead of blood, my fresh scars were releasing a torrent of liquid light.
I saw how the veins on her face are being trailed with the bright light, her breath of relief echoed on the four corners of the room as I feel how my eyes ignited.
I felt even stranger when I recited a weird prayer in a language I couldn't identify. I continued to recite those phrases as the streaming light over my wounds intensified and my senses got sharp enough that I could hear every drop of snow outside.
As I glanced up to pronounce the phrase more forcefully, I felt my and her body slowly levitating. I suddenly heard someone else's voice reciting the same prayer that I do. I knew exactly who that voice belonged to.
The Goddess!
As I felt a sudden brace of warm light engulf my entire body, I heard her breath of life become more audible, and I couldn't help but feel a skip of ecstasy in my chest.
She's alive!
My princess is alive!