And the day has come. I have been very nervous since last night and I had trouble sleeping adding the fact that I was in the same bed with Zach but I forced myself because I don't want to look ugly the next day.
I looked at myself in the mirror after taking a shower. I moved sideways to see how much the baby bump has grown. If I am not mistaken, I'm in my first month and the bump looks like whenever I overeat and my stomach is bloated. But it's not, it's the baby growing inside.
My first day with Zach seemed fine. It wasn't that awkward during the day since we didn't get to talk much. It's not the weekend but he's at home yesterday he holed inside his office almost the entire day. As if I wasn't there and I find it kind of annoying.
I dressed myself in a baby blue dress and a white cardigan. I wore flats and took a small bag with me. I went out of the bathroom and saw on the bed Zach looking at his phone while looking at me.
Zach is wearing those white long sleeves and black slacks again. I wonder if he does dress like that wherever he goes. "Ready?" he asked me and immediately put his phone down.
"Yeah," I answered. I went out of the room first and he followed me. I was walking down the stairs wondering why the floor seems wet or if it was just my shoes feeling glossy?
"What's wrong?" he asked me when I stopped walking,
"Nothing," and continued walking but after three steps, I almost fell down. My eyes widened and it felt like I had a heart attack.
"What the-- be careful," Zach said while holding my elbow. I was too stunned to speak for a bit. I felt like my heart did a screenshot.
Luckily, my shoes slide only on glass floors and not on the tiles themselves so I haven't had another trouble walking all the way out. We went inside the car and went to the said clinic.
While on our way, I felt nervous and excited at the same time. My hands were almost trembling so I had them clenched the whole time. A few minutes later, we got to a huge maternity clinic. We went in and the nurse welcomed us. They know Zach.
"I didn't expect you to be able to come here, Alfonso," said a woman wearing a lab coat with her hands inside the pockets. Her hair was braided to the side and she was looking at us with such a huge smiling face.
"Come in," she said when Zach didn't bother answering.
Without saying anything, they started doing some sort of things to me and asked me things that is related to the pregnancy. Zach was just sitting there looking at us while I was answering the question.
"What's your name?" she asked me while pointing her pen on paper.
"Xhyrah Jeace Jimenez," I answered. She stopped and looked at me again,
"Alester's sister?"
I was surprised that she knew my brother's name, "How did you know him?"
"Tch," she smirked and wrote my name on the paper. "Alright, let's start,"
At first, they made me change into a gown and made me lay in a bed. They put a gel-like something on my stomach and the device. "Where are you?" she asked as if someone can answer her question. She looked at the monitor and as the black and white images show on the screen, the more nervous I became.
I gulped and couldn't help but clench my hand as I wait for the baby's image to come out.
"There it is," she said. I looked at the screen and couldn't see a baby-like image at first. "It's around your 7th week right?" she asked me.
"Y-yeah," I answered her. I looked at the screen again because she just started pointing.
"That's the baby, right here," she said and circled a little circle on the screen using her fingers. I looked up at it and my nervousness began to fade away.
It doesn't look like a baby to me at all, it doesn't have legs and hands so it basically just looks like a little slime ball. But it made my chest warm just by seeing it.
Then a small movement caught my attention and realized that I was not looking at it in the same way alone. I glanced up to Zach while he was looking at the screen intently like I did. Just by seeing it the way, it is made me feel like something just touched my chest and it gave me a strange feeling.
I looked away immediately and stared at the screen much longer until I got over it and the check-up was finished.
We still have a lot of check-ups to attend to and today is just the first one. Along with the copies of the ultrasound and check-up schedules, we went into the car to go back home.
"You want to go somewhere?" he asked me,
"No," I answered him. "Don't you have work today?"
"No," he answered and that's it, silence took over the inside of the car and I was left with nothing else to say but stare at the road. But after a few minutes, I got tired of it,
"Do you know that doctor?" I asked wanting to talk about something.
"Yeah, she's my high school classmate," he answered and that's it again,
Does he usually talk less? I wondered but couldn't ask him.
Finally, we got to the house. He went into his office and I went inside the room to change and take off the flats that I wore earlier.
I took the white envelope with the pictures in it and continued staring at it again until I felt like I'd had enough. I decided to go to sleep but since it was still lunchtime, I couldn't.
I went out of the room wearing an oversized shirt and pajama shorts that I put on when I decided to go to sleep but didn't. I went out and walked around the house again as if it was my first time coming in.
I still couldn't get enough of the house. I still find it a very new place to me since I grew up in an old-fashioned house back in my parent's place and seeing the modern interior of the house still amazes me.
I feel very ignorant but who cares, Zach is up in his office.
I went to the kitchen first and took 2 mini boxes of milk and brought it to the poolside. I rested myself on the lounge as I sip on my cold milk while staring at the sparkling water.
"What do you want for lunch?" I got surprised when he suddenly talked coming from the back. I looked at him while not letting go of the straw in my mouth.
"I am not craving for anything right now, you can make anything you like," I told him and went back to staring at the water. I thought he'd leave and go to the kitchen but he sat on the lounge next to me instead.
I started being uncomfortable but forced myself not to show it to him. "It's hot in here," he said and opened a canned drink that I don't even know where it came from.
"I like it in here," I answered and continued sipping my milk as if I doesn't mind his presence. I tried staring at the water but couldn't help but look at Zach who's simply just sitting on the end of the lounge unlike me who's completely laying on my back.
His hair is being blown by the wind but he seems like he doesn't mind it and is just staring at something. I looked away again and a few seconds later, I found myself staring at him again.
I think I just blessed my kid with a source of high-quality genes.
I almost laughed out loud because of what I thought. If my baby is going to look like him, whether it is a girl or a boy, it will still look good wearing that face.
Why am I thinking like this? I should have a part with my child's face because I would carry him or her for 9 months. I will never let him take over my child's face.
"Aren't you staring at me too much?" he suddenly asked me which made my cheeks heat up and looked away.
"You always catch me when I'm staring," I said remembering the time when we were building the stick figure and he asked me that too.
"Tss," he said,
Silence took over the place again and made me remember something.
"About telling your parents, I think I can do it tomorrow," I told him, I looked at him and he was already looking at me.
"Yeah, sure, I'll call them for dinner tomorrow," he answered right away, "Are you sure about it? Am I not putting any pressure on you?" He asked and I immediately shook my head.
"Of course not, It's just that I kind of feel the urge to tell them right away because I feel like I'm lying or something. It's not you, it's just that I always think like that," I said and looked away.
"Alright, I'll call them later," He said and looked away again, "Aren't you nervous about it?' he asked a few moments later,
"Of course I am, but you did it and I have to do it too,"
"If you can't tell them, I can tell them alone," he suggested. I looked at him, I can agree with him doing that but it would only make me feel bad that I let him do it alone.
"No, I can handle it," I said, "It's just that.. I'm scared of what they might think,"
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know, they might just turn out fine or the opposite," I sighed, "Especially Aira, she must not have any clue about it,"
"I know,"
"She might get angry, pfft," I said,
"They won't," He told me, "They have already known a lot about you, they won't be that mad even after knowing we did it by accident." he paused for a bit. "And even if they get angry, they can't do anything,"
He's right, if they get angry, they can't do anything about it since the baby is already here.. unless..
"They might want us to abort the baby," I said.
"Like hell, I'd let them do that," he answered in a very calm manner. "I'm a grown-up man," he said while standing up with his can. "They can't meddle with my decisions anymore, I want the baby to stay and I won't let them do anything,"
I couldn't say a thing so I looked away,
"As you said at your parent's house, we would only come to let them know and not to let them make decisions as if they're part of it. This is between us two, it doesn't matter to me if people get angry about this sudden news. I have already chosen a decision and there is nothing changing that." he said with a period and left.
I gulped. What he said wanted me to cry, He doesn't have to say that much but he was right.
I have already decided to take care of the baby and if ever somebody thinks that I shouldn't, I shouldn't get affected or anything.
And in my eyes, Zach's family wasn't that kind of people. They are good to me though I don't know how much they can take. They might snap when I tell them that their Oldest son just got their daughter's best friend pregnant.
And it's a good thing having Zach along with me when I tell them. I wasn't alone with this after all,
I took the last sip and went to the kitchen. "Can we do it tonight?" I asked him. I don't want to think about it anymore so I want this done right away.
"I'll call them," he answered.
And he did, I dressed up in another dress. Something that I don't usually wear when I come to their house. I don't know how they will react once they see me coming out of his car but since I have already made my decision, I don't care what they think anymore.
I just want it over. I will tell them that I and Zach just got married and are expecting a child.
I had pretty high confidence back at home but as we come closer to their house, my body just want to take back what I said. I gulped multiple times in the car and stopped myself from trembling many times.
"You're feeling anxious," he said while driving,
"It's normal,"
"Calm down, you know them, they're not bad people," he said.
An hour later, we are both standing in their receiving area waiting for them to come down for dinner. Zach is keeping an eye on me and he's making me think like he's thinking that I might just pass out anytime now.
The first one to come down was Tita Amelia wearing a fancy dress. "Oh? I didn't know you were here," she said and continued walking down the stairs. I was expecting her to kiss me on the cheek like she usually does when she sees me but she didn't.
She was only a few meters from me when she paused and looked at me for seconds.
I felt like that was the longest 5 seconds of my life. She even put her hand up and closed it. She's starting to make a weird position as if she's not sure if she's thinking the right thing when she saw me.
"Are you pregnant?"
WHAT THE HELL?
I gulped hard because something seemed to block my throat. I expected us to eat dinner before I reveal it but I was caught right away!
"Y-yes, Tita," I answered with all the courage I had left. And I can't seem to continue to tell her I was pregnant with Zach's baby.
"OH MY GOD! CONGRATULATIONS, BOTH OF YOU!"
Wait what--