Behind Shelves | Feelings
Steven's Point of View
So magkakilala pala sila. Never knew David has a beautiful childhood friend, If I were him I will never leave her.
Ever since iniwan kami ni mom, lumayo ang loob ko kay dad. Well, si David lang din naman ang nakikita niya palagi. Isa lang naman akong walang kwentang anak.
It was awful to hear that from my dad but he did said that to me. Aware naman ako na nasasangkot ako sa mga gulo particularly sa school, gusto ko lang naman na mapansin din niya ako.
That's why I hate him.
David Miraculus.
So shame to even use the surname that I am supposed to use. He's not even blood related to dad. Funny how things go but this is my family. My weirdest family.
Huminga ako ng malalim matapos makitang umalis si Selene, tinarayan niya pa ako na tila ba may nagawa akong mali.
Hindi ko alam pero bakit ang hirap niyang kunin? I don't like her, nachachallenge lang talaga ako sa kanya. She's so hard to get and I hate it.
"Steven, are you coming on my party tomorrow night?" Marie said with such a flirty sweet voice, tracing her fingers into my ears just to make me tickled.
I cleared my throat and shook my head. Refusing her offer before I stand and bid my goodbye just to follow Selene.
I saw her from a far, she is talking with some girls and she look so small. I laughed and scratched my nape and a sly smirk escape from my lip as I start to walk near her.
"Ah yes, and please Diana can you make my part be shorter since I am the one who will make the powerpoint?" I heard Selene said.
Nakatalikod siya sa akin kaya hindi niya ako napansin agad nang huminto ako sa likuran niya. Lumaki naman ang mga mata ng dalawang babae kausap niya pero nanatili naman silang tahimik dahil sinenyasan ko sila.
I am Steven Mcgrey. I am known as Steven the bookworm here in the school, I play basketball too.
Tila ba napansin na ni Selene na nanahimik ang kausap niya at lumingon sa likuran niya para makaharap sa akin. Awtomatikong lumaki naman ang mga mata nito at tila ba may mga usok na lumabas sa tainga nito dahil sa inis.
Luh ano ginagawa ko? Wala pa nga eh. This girl never failed to amazed me by how she reacts.
"Bakit ka nandito?" She said with her brows arched like she was about to threw a punch on my face anytime if I said something nonsense.
I shrugged and smile with all my heart. "Just standing here. Why? Masama ba?"
Those brown orbs of her stared at me with death as she start to laugh. Slowly my world stop and all the people faded, all I can see is her.
Dude what's happening?
I then blink my eyes many times, trying wake myself by slapping my cheek but she is so beautiful. I felt my heart is beating so fast that my ribs will break anytime from my chest.
What's happening? Am I witched?
"Hoy!!"
"Ha?"
Bumalik na ang wisyo ko at nakita ko siya sa harapan ko, winawagayway ang kamay na tila ba nag-alala kung ano na ang nangyayari sa akin.
"Are you okay?" She asked and I nod slowly before averting my gaze and walk away fast as I could.
I hate to admit it pero ang cute niya. Hindi lang height pero pati siya, cute. I felt so gay right now, I felt melted by those smile and the way how she laugh.
"Ahhh! Gago." I cursed and tooka deep breathe beforewalking inside the library and find where my blank notebook is.
Nang mahanap kona ito ay agad naman akong naupo sa gilid ng library at sumandal sa book shelve at nagsimula nang magsulat ng kung ano man.
Para akong sasabog sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. Napakabilis ng tibok ng puso ko at tila ba may lagnay ako dahil sa init ng pisnge ko.
Hindi naman ako nagdodroga ah!
I calm myself. 2 hours before my next class, dito muna ako magpapalipas ng oras. Suddenly I remember the first day I saw her.
When I first saw Selene she was sitting in the library. It was not in chance, it was destined because she is sitting on my chair that no one dared to sit. She was afraid that she might not pass her test on french. I have a french blood and I can talk very well in french that's why I did not hesitate to offer a help on her but she refuse.
Noong una akala ko katulad siya ng iba, tipong mahihiya kapag nasa harapan na nila ako o mauutal man lang pero she is so brave and she even talk back at me like she is some sort of Avenger member.
I try to be friends with her since I find her cute. I even tell my friends about her, they even said that she is cute but I said she is mine.
Things get complicated since she is not the other girl I knew, she is different and so I decide to distance myself on her.
I don't want to get involved on her. Tipong lumalayo kana nga pero siya naman ang lumalapit, kung nasaan ako nandoon din siya. Minsan nakakagulat pero bigla rin namang tatalon sa tuwa ang sistema ko.
She's different, I know it. If only I could tell her what I am—
My thoughts get cut when my phone rung. I immediately get it and answer. It was Fred, my friend.
"Hey." Nakarinig naman ako ng mga boses at sigurad akong boses iyon ng ibang teamates sa basketball. May practice kasi at hindi ako dumalo.
"You're coming tomorrow night on Marie's party, No for no. Bye." I rolled my eyes when he hung up the call.
Kaya ako napagbibintangang playboy and f*ckboy dahil sa kanya eh. Palagi niya akong tinutukso sa mga ganyan.
I shook my head and scratch off my thoughts. I closed the blanknotebook and put it in the upper part of shelves so that she'll never get it and even read it.
My feelings is written on that book and my feelings is the least thing I want to share especially on her.
I put my bag on my shoulder as I walk out the library to meet my team mates, I want to watch them practice.
Things really get worse when I saw David talking with some of my basketball teammates.
Lahat nalang inaagaw?