Alicia had made up her mind and she had Mauve on her side. There was little to nothing I could do.
'You don't understand Kassy. You weren't raped. You have no idea what we are going though!' Alicia was shouting.
I knew the issue of me not getting raped was going to come up sooner or later.
She was going to ask me to stop accompanying her to see his victims because I could not understand them no matter how hard I tried.
I did not respond to her. She had said what she said out of anger.
I overlooked it. It was something I had expected anyways.
'Alicia, don't talk like that.' Mauve said.
As much as I hated that she spoke for me, I was relieved she did.
The rest of the ride was silent. I plugged in my earphones and listened to some mixes Lily and I had made during our leisure in school.
After a while, I got a text from George. It read;
'Hey, wanna meet up?'
I was still very embarrassed about prom but I wanted to talk to him.
I could not tell him off so I told him I was available to see him the next day at the park.
I was going to tell George all about it because it was easy to feel free around him.
I was going to tell him my little secret and hope he did not look at me any different.
It was dark by the time we got home. Mum was in the sitting room watching a rom-com and she did not ask where we had been.
I expected her to get angry and say she had been calling us, but she did not.
'I will be going to see Nate the day after tomorrow.' She looked at me.
I wondered why she did that. Whenever she talked about important stuff, she looked to Alicia for support but this time, it was me.
'Okay, I'll go with you.' I said and went to my room.
I was going to be in the same space with everyone in my family for the first time in a long while.
It made me nervous. I pictured a lot of scenarios in my head and I knew a lot could go wrong but I was going to be optimistic about it.
Before I slept that night, I called Lily.
She took the call but she sounded very sleepy.
'I'll call you tomorrow, the doctor gave me this drug that makes me sleepy as hell. Bye Kassy. Take care of yourself.' She hung up.
A lot was going on with Lily and I felt really bad that I could not be there for her when she needed me the most.
I was going to see George the next day so I needed some sleep.
Whenever I thought about George, I felt very calm. I was going to use as much time as I possibly could with him.
I knew making plans on what to say and how to say it was a total waste of time because with George, nothing ever goes as planned.
I closed my eyes and tried to force myself to sleep but I kept thinking about Hannah.
Her eyes had gotten all of my attention and I could not help but wonder how Nate had managed to get her to even speak with him.
Nate had a sharpened people skill and he used it for the craziest of things.
Waking up felt like a huge task for me. I barely got any sleep.
I kept tossing and turning, thinking about the weirdest of things.
I thought about Hannah a lot. I knew it was very hard for her but I still wanted to talk with her, to really see things from her perspective.
I thought about mum. Mum was finally working a lot less and she was home most of the time.
I thought about how she met dad and wished she got some kind of sign that he was not the one.
She told me they met in high school. He was a geek who always spent his free time in the library and got bullied a lot, but she was a cheerleader and most of the guys on the soccer team liked her.
She needed a tutor for chemistry one time and after saving him from one of his bullies, she made him tutor her.
It was hard to believe knowing who my mum was, but I knew it was the truth.
I thought about Alicia. My older sister had a boyfriend who my mum and I knew nothing about.
I felt left out when I overheard her telling Mauve about how awesome he was.
She did not shut up about his perfect jawline and it kind of irked me to know my sister and I liked the same qualities in men.
I thought about Lily. Lily had been my friend since I could make memories. We were very close and we shared everything with each other but everything changed that holiday.
She hid her cancer from me. To be fair, she was not hiding it, I just had a lot on my plate and I forgot about her for sometime.
It felt really awkward knowing it was the end for her but I just could not accept it. A part of me kept holding on to some sort of hope that she was going to get better.
I did not want anything happening to Lily.
I thought about George. He had been a perfect gentleman during our prom night.
I could not overlook the fact that this amazing person wanted to be with me despite the fact that he was going to miss a once in a lifetime event.
He even texted, wanting to see me again.
I was happy whenever he was around me. He knew what to say at every point in time and I knew I was ready to share everything that happened in my life with him.