"What about not drinking? Is it related to keeping vampire stuff secret?"
I asked. I had to learn more about her and vampires in general. If I had a hint of how they worked, I could break off leash she had on me.
"Yes and no. You already tasted blood once. It tasted addicting, right?"
I didn't said any word. Just remembering the taste made me want to lick my lips. The fact that I found it that… addicting made me feel disgusted with myself.
"Drinking from source is much more effective. It wouldn't be a suprise if you went full berserk when you will drink your first blood from source."
Source. She used that word to describe humans. Bad taste in my mouth worsened. I took a peek towards Edward. He just stood without moving. I knew the face he was making. He looked like He was sick of others-in this case probably Elizabeth's- shit. It was a face I regularly carried. But he seemed loyal or at least favorable towards Elizabeth. Perhaps that was fake. He was still human, according to what I understood. Yet why she stood beside her? I doubted someone like the Sword Saint could be hynotized casually. He and Elizabeth must go far back due interactions they had. While vampires seemed on be our side, Elizabeth seemed to not care too much about us.
"Can't say if it good or worse."
I thought to myself. If she didn't cares about humanity because she was neutral, that was good. However, if she didn't cared about humans because she thought we were lower than her, that would be a big fucking problem. If that was the case, she would no problem stepping on humans. As a hunter that was something I cannot allow, even if I was no longer a human myself.
"One last thing. Don't think yourself as human. You are a vampire now."
She stood up. As if I had easy time accepting it, she had to smack me in the face like that. She probably did it on purpose. To make it easier to control me. But even if I became a vampire, I won't turn my back on people I trained and spent my life until now. All that training and danger was to protect humans. My family. My friend… Their families. The fact that they were dead hit me, no matter how much I wanted to escape from it.
"Come on, Eddy. Let's go."
Edward also stood up with her and they left. While I still had many questions, I was afraid of what she could do. Edward looked at me and tipped his hat. Was this his way of saying "See you next night."? Didn't know, also had bigger things in my mind.
"I have to break off her."
My first priority was that. I still wasn't sure if she had that much control over me as she boasted.
"Not like I would accept even slightest control from her."
I got up. I was tired. Despite my wounds closing, my body ached all over. I should just go home and rest. When I was about to leave, I realized something.
"They didn't paid!"
Shit, I had no money on me. No credit cards, also. I looked at the worker. He still seemed to be out of it. He was just looking blankly. I scratched my head. He probably would came to himself, right? Even so, not paying felt weird.
"I will pay next day."
I just hope poor guy wouldn't get fired before that. While there were cameras, I doubted that his boss would just watch all night's footage. I got out of the place. He still didn't reacted. I hoped he would snap out of it soon. Arriving at my home, my Mother was still awake.
"What happened to you!"
That was the thing I was afraid of. She checked my body for wounds. I let her. Since my clothing was torn, she looked around any wounds.
"İt is just my clothing. I have no wounds."
No wounds except hurting all over. Still, I kept my mouth shut to not make worry. At least worry more than she was currently. I was glad that my healing abilities were increased. Not that Mother stopped checking my body while firing countless questions. While I wanted to calm her down, I was way too tired for that.
"I am okay. Just tired."
I walked towards my room. She held my arm.
"You also look tired. Go to sleep."
Maybe it was a little cold of me to treat her like this. Yet, what I am supposed to do? Tell her that I was turned into a vampire? The fact that the vampire transformed me could control me? The fact that I fought two werewolves and nearly went blind?
"Fuck that."
That would make her even worse. Opening my phones camera, I took a look at myself. Red eye and white hair.
"Isn't this edgy?"
I joked, just to feel a little bit better. Despite my joke my mood was shit. I closed my eye and went to sleep. Despite all the things in my mind, I fell asleep quite fast. When I woke up it was afternoon. While my body was still a little bit heavy, it was probably because I slept like a log. I still wore my torn of clothes.
"It feels like it was ages ago."
Sparring against one of the strongest hunters. Killing one werewolf. Elizabeth making me follow her orders. All happened at one night. Changing my clothing, I went inside kitchen. While I ate one or two slices of pizza with Elizabeth, I was more focused on the fact that she could brainwash me. Also all that activity probably burned all the calories I saved. Mother was in kitchen, washing dishes. Zehra slept. I got closer to her. I patted her hair, ever so slightly. I was afraid that I would wake her up. Or worse, hurt her.