Kriingg.. Kriingg..
Twenty-six missed calls on Feli's cellphone from Daffa. Fera still keeps her twin's phone. She still can't say what she does to anyone; her eyes are full, her eyes are blank, sometimes she wipes her tears with her bare hands.
"It's like a nightmare come true, and I'm the worst actor."
The sentence continued to overshadow Fera's mind.
Since Feli was gone, not a single Gunawan family member has interacted. They cry, sometimes Papa occasionally hugs Mama and tries hard. Papa decided not to tell people or family much about the news of the departure of one of his favorite children because they are not too close to large families, especially many families who live abroad.
The atmosphere of grief, plus rain and cold, enveloped Feli's funeral this afternoon.
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"Fera, eat the first honey you haven't eaten since yesterday. Let's have breakfast together." Papa tried to toughen up and strengthen his wife and child to dilute this grieving atmosphere.
On the second day of Feli's departure, the atmosphere of the Gunawan family home seemed silent, cold, and quiet.
Fera was awake all night after returning home from Feli's funeral. She remained in her room, staring at the sky's roof, with tears full of regret that kept well. She ignored all the notifications on her phone and her twin phones that she still holds today.
However, she sent one message to her best friend, Andi.
"Ndi, it's all over. I'm the worst sister in the world."
The message meant that it was not clear, which made Andi curious about what Fera meant. He replied to his statement asked, the phone was not answered or picked up by Fera. That's all he received from Fera.
Today Fera tries to get up a little because she knows she has to strengthen her parents. She becomes an only child who looks after her parents, like Feli's last message on her last breath.
"Well, Pa, Fera's down for breakfast soon."
Fera plans this afternoon to try to brace herself to retaliate and explain to Daffa or Andi about the departure of her twin sister. However, she was not ready and a little lazy to tell Daffa. Not without reason, something that failed to be conveyed to Feli about Daffa was her main reason, and only Andi knew about it.
"Honey. Where are you going?"
"You busy or else what?"
"P"
"It's a shame I'm allowed to go to Semarang because my grandmother is sick. Maybe about a week away, I go home."
"Halo"
"P"
At least the contents of Daffa's message entered Feli's phone. She did not know that yesterday's meeting was the last meeting with her now-dead lover.
"Hi dear, sorry I just told you, I'm still a body, so just look at the phone now."
I don't know what's on Fera's mind. She replies to Daffa's message as if she were Feli.
With a flat facial expression then, he left his room after sending the message to Daffa.
Andi was a little confused and silent for a moment after receiving the call 15 minutes ago. Fera called him and explained what happened at Café 3 days ago.
He was afraid that Fera's problem happened because Fera had not told Daffa the truth, and he still played Feli on his twin's phone. Of course, Andi feels sad and sorry for Felicia's passing, but he is pretty unfortunate for not having time to tell Feli about the problems of Daffa and Fera, which he thinks is awkward. But since he still appreciates his best friend, Fera... He was silent and did not want to interfere with the twins' problems.
"I hope you understand and still don't tell anyone what I'm doing right now."
"But ..."
"Trust Me, Andi. I have no intention of being bad guy. It's for the good of my relationship with Daffa, as well as my sister."
At the end of Andi and Fera's conversation on the phone, what can be done for Andi still can't do much. He can only remind his best friend.
Meanwhile, Gunawan's family decides to talk seriously about Feli in the living room. Mama was strong enough and strong enough to come forward to talk about this.
"Fera, Mama, and Papa had a discussion last night. We felt this was the best path to take." Mama spoke with a hopeful face, and there was still a look of grief tucked away while clasping Fera's hand.
"We're not going to tell the family away from Felicia, just close family, and Papa told them to keep this sad news quiet."
"But why is that Pa? Is it a long family, is it our family too? Like Uncle Adam, Aunt Vina, and others, although we are not so close, Fera feels must be told them."
"Yes, dear, but there's something we can't tell you about a distant family, not that it can't, but maybe now is not the right time."
"Mama, please listen to what Papa and Mama say too, baby. It's for us too." Mama's on Fera.
"Well, if that's the best." Fera nodded.
"About your friends at school, either your friend or Feli, Papa trust you, son, please as wise as possible tell them about this news, Papa and Mama just ask to be prayed for your twin and our family."
"That's it."
Papa's statement about the sad news and friends added to Fera's confidence to continue her plans for Daffa. She is increasingly confident that he can handle everything he wants.
Conditions in this city are not good. The deadly virus is sweeping worldwide, not least in the city of Bandung. The situation is Papa afraid if too many people are told about the news of his daughter's grief. He didn't want a crowd in his house.
"What's more, honey? I miss you, hehe." The message was Daffa on Feli's phone.
"Again chatting with Mama, oh yes dear when you returned to Bandung?" replied Fera.
"Hopefully, this weekend, I'll be home because there are a lot of rules now; if I travel out of town, I'll tell you!"
While replying to messages with Daffa, Fera saw the contents of Feli's phone, both from text messages and social media. Something caught Fera's attention. She saw a suspicious note on Feli's phone. It seemed like it was Feli's brief diary written on her phone.
There are about fifty-six notes with approximately 100 words of content.
"Is it okay if I read this? Am I guilty?" Ask Fera in her heart.
Finally, she ventured to read all of Feli's notes on her cell phone that night. She feels wrong but feels right at the same time.
"I'm the adventure, so it seems legitimate if I look at it."
Fera doesn't know enough about what her twins are noting in her diary; she hopes it's nothing strange about her, and she believes that such a thing can't exist because she knows Feli loves her very much.